Not Pro Ana!

19 | 5’6 | SW: 196lbs | GW1: 170 🔒| GW2: 150lbs 🔒| GW3: 120lbs 🔒| GW4: 100lbs 🔒| UGW: 90lbs 🔒| CW: fat |

[sk-el-et-on]

Reblog if:

- You support recovery.

- You support those in recovery.

- You support seeking help.

- You want  people to seek help.

- You think everyone is beautiful, regardless of their weight.

- Even if you yourself, aren’t seeking help or are in recovery, want others too.

[wildermouse]

never start purging. never ever start making yourself throw up your food. please. it won’t help you lose weight, it’ll just fuck up your entire life. it’ll stretch and damage your stomach, cause your throat to bleed, you’ll throw up blood and pass out on the cold bathroom floor. your hair will fall out, your teeth will rot, you risk stomach rupture, heart attacks, and other serious life-threatening complications every time you purge. just fucking don’t start. please.

[diamondsarenotavantgarde]

I tried

I tried loving my body I tried liking curves I tried accepting myself I tried eating

And it’s shit, i hate it, i wanna be 80lbs

[22psyduck]

me: i don’t want to be mentally ill me, but quieter: but i also don’t want to recover because i don’t know who i’d be without my mental illnesses since they are practically my personality and recovery seems scary and it seems the only point of my life is to hurt because that’s all i’ve ever known. somehow mental illness is a comfort blanket even though it is the reason i need a comfort blanket to begin with and the world beyond this seems oddly confusing and terrifying 

[eat-my-self-esteem-666]

Woow this hit

[goddamnanorexic]

this hit me hard

[pluviioo]

beautiful disorder

Bulimia isn’t a pretty girl, hanging over the toilet bowl with her hair nicely tied back. It is a swollen face with vomit dripping down the chin and permanent nosebleeds.

Anorexia isn't  a skinny, shy girl that refuses some Food. It is disguisting hair appearing on deadly cold skin. It is the extreme pain from an empty stomach.

Depression isn’t a model with some smudged Mascara, which sadly looks out a window at a sunset. It is lying in bed, staring at the ceiling, because there is no motivation left to close the eyes. It is bitter lonliness.

Selfharm isn’t a beautiful boy, kissing your scars and telling you, you are beautiful anyway. It is the pain when the water in the shower hits the wounds. It is scars that will never disappear.

Mental disorders aren’t any kind of aesthetic. They are dying little by little, everyday.

[floating-thinspo-doll]

my anti-binge box

I’ve been seeing a few posts circulating about anti binge boxes and what people keep in them so I thought I’d share mine :)

mouthwash

toothpaste & toothbrush

laxatives

tape measure

bath salts

motivational flash cards

nail polishes

chewing gum

lip balm

a face mask

hand cream

a candle

If anyone else keeps an anti binge box I’d be interested to know what other people find helpful to keep in theirs

[givemebooksandanime]

Tw: purging and bulimia

I havent purged in days which isnt much but it seems like its been years to me. I feel incomplete, i just want to walk into the bathroom like i used to and take control back. Whenever you see a post that says not to start purging PLEASE LISTEN. Its never 'just this once' or any other excuse youve made up. Its addictive and damaging as shit.

So no, unless you've ingested a harmful substance i will not give you 'tips' on how to make yourself throw up. Stop asking.

Please, just dont start.

And if that wasnt enough to convince you because 'youve seen it all before, how bad could it be' just go and google the effects of purging/bulimia on the teeth and mouth. Think of the pretty dainty figure you want, and then think of those images. The two do not go together.

[my-two-best-friends]

Purging

I’ve seen so many posts recently about people asking how to purge effectively or that they’ve purged for the first time and they feel great.

Stop now.

It’s not worth it.

Take it from someone who is stuck in a purge cycle and who will throw up daily for weeks on end. My teeth are stained and have actually changed shape and my nails are brittle because of the acid being washed over them. I wake up with pounding headaches and will suffer stabbing stomach pains for the next 12 hours at least after I purge. And what for?

Purging only gets rid of around 50-80% of the calories you put into your body and has had a minimal impact on my weight loss, if any.

If you feel the need to purge. Calm down. Drink some iced water or green tea to aid your digestion. If you still feel the need: work out! It’ll burn more calories than purging.

Please lovelies stay safe and look after yourselves. Your body is a temple don’t abuse it.

[ana-fucked-me-over]

Skinny by Christmas Gang 🎄❄️☃️

Reblog if you’re going to be at a goal weight (whether it’s your ugw or you’re next gw!!) by Christmas!!! Let’s get this bitches!! I want my family to not recognize me since seeing me last year, I want “oh my word you got so skinny!!” I want to look so thin in my Christmas morning pajamas, and to look at the pictures taken and see what I want to see sitting there instead of some fat double chinned monster. WHO’S WITH ME???

[elixirtears]

having an eating disorder is not having a mysterious sexy secret and a boost of confidence when you step on the scale and see that your weight has gone down.

having an eating disorder is panicking in a gas station over the decision to eat a 100 calorie snack or not because if you don’t, you’ll feel successful, and if you do, you’ll feel like you stuffed yourself like a disgusting pig and went way over your limit.

having an eating disorder is not crying daintily in the bathroom before drying your eyes and returning to class where your friends dote over you and reassure you.

having an eating disorder is heavy, snotty sobbing in the middle of the night when you can’t sleep because of the pain in your stomach — it’s slowly cutting off friends and loved ones because you feel guilty and unworthy of their affection.

having an eating disorder is not a cute personality trait. it’s not a fun secret you can tearfully admit to your boyfriend so he calls you beautiful. it’s not wanting to cry in front of your closest friends because you feel like they’ll think any emotion from you is pathetic unless you’re skinny. it eats you from the inside out until it’s the only thing you think about. and it will kill you if you let it.

having an eating disorder is terrible. it makes you sick, it drains your energy and your confidence and your will to live in ways you don’t even expect, and it fucks up your body and your mind - sometimes beyond repair.

this isn’t a netflix series, it’s our fucking lives — and it’s so, so bad. please remember that you deserve better.

you deserve help.

[32-kgs]

if youre reading this i am so sorry that youre following me bc that means youre probably going through the same thing i am and i hope you all can find peace in your lives and beat your illness, disorder, sadness

[skinny-black-tea]

there are so many of you that follow me now and i just really really had to rb this bc i want every single one of you to know this

[wishfulforasmalltomorrow]

the reason people with eating disorders are obsessed with “the number on the scale” instead of simply looking at their bodies to see results is because most of us have body dysmorphia and physically fucking can’t see what they actually look like so the scale is their only indication of progress. what do people not get about that

[myfinalform-kaz]

Something people don’t seem to understand about eating disorders

It consumes your whole life. There is no ‘eating disorder’ section of your day, it is all day every day. It’s not like “oh! This is my school life, this is my home life, this is where I manage time for my ed”. Your hobbies can be completely taken over, I spend my free time watching shows about food, I write about food, I paint thinspo, I walk my dog to burn calories not because I like walking my dog. No part of me is not a part of my eating disorder. Nothing I do isn’t disordered behavior. Everything is about food, everything is about weight, everything is about my ed

[cribblingdebression]

my least favorite part of having an eating disorder is the constant arguing and bargaining in your head. racing thoughts all the fuckin time like, “okay I’ve had 75 calories today. I can have a banana and still be under 200. wait, 1200 is still considered restriction. how much would I lose this week with a daily deficit of 500 calories? I can do that. I’ll still lose weight. but not as much as if I fasted. no. just have nothing. you could lose 3.5 lbs. this week! just have nothing. people do it every day. just have a fucking banana. you won’t even be at maintenance. but what if it triggers a binge? think about your jawline. why don’t I just have everything I want and purge? what percentage can you get back up when you purge? hey google…” AND IT NEVER STOPS.

[fairylight-pixi]

this is how i spend most nights instead of sleeping 

[pluviioo]

beautiful disorder

Bulimia isn’t a pretty girl, hanging over the toilet bowl with her hair nicely tied back. It is a swollen face with vomit dripping down the chin and permanent nosebleeds.

Anorexia isn't  a skinny, shy girl that refuses some Food. It is disguisting hair appearing on deadly cold skin. It is the extreme pain from an empty stomach.

Depression isn’t a model with some smudged Mascara, which sadly looks out a window at a sunset. It is lying in bed, staring at the ceiling, because there is no motivation left to close the eyes. It is bitter lonliness.

Selfharm isn’t a beautiful boy, kissing your scars and telling you, you are beautiful anyway. It is the pain when the water in the shower hits the wounds. It is scars that will never disappear.

Mental disorders aren’t any kind of aesthetic. They are dying little by little, everyday.

[featherlightt94]

A concept: me but with a tiny waist, sharp jawline, visible cheek bones, prominent collar bones, visible hip bones, slightly visible ribs, small thighs, small arms **manifesting**

[ladybugsforpresident-deactivate]

Reblog if you’re in the Yes-I-Have-An-Eating-Disorder-No-You-Shouldn’t-Starve-Yourself club