Floating Wisdom

A place to write my thoughts and experiences so that I can better know myself and find God

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Worried

I worry about how much time I waste every day. I have hours to expend every day after work and I just can’t figure out what to do with my time. There are hundreds of books that I could read, thousands of hours of audio lectures I could listen to, or numb my mind into oblivion by watching any countless number of shows - - yet none of those ideas seem satisfying. I want to figure out what to do with my life so I can give it meaning. Yes, I know I must strive towards perfection and finding God. But I need to find something practical to do. I’ve already wasted so many years and I keep writing this kind of thing every year or so. When will I wake up?

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Failing

Why do I commit the same mistakes again and again? Sometimes a day comes in which the whole day is full of miseries and sins and I keep drowning myself deeper and deeper, even though I know full well the results of this. Each time I tell myself never again. Yet I keep falling. Oh God, why am I so weak? 

I may fall a thousand times over, yet what gives me the strength to get up, and keep going on this journey to purify myself and realize true Love within my heart is the mercy of my Creator. If my mother could forgive me for all the years of pain and hardship I gave her, then the Creator of my mother who is infinitely more loving would forgive me and guide me towards Him. Please my Lord, inspire within my heart the way to You.

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Existence

In the name of God the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful

The first thing I realize in this world is that I exist. I know that with certainty and no one can convince me otherwise. I then see that other things exist too. I see other people existing. I see physical objects. Right now I am on a couch which has existence. I look outside and see trees, grass, rocks, the sky, the moon. All of these including myself share one thing - we exist. Existence is the common thread between all things. 

What is existence itself? When I say I exist, it means that existence is something that is different than my being or else it would not make sense for me to say “I” and “exist” separately. What is it that gave me existence? I did not have existence as part of me, or else there would not have been a time when I did not exist. So therefore existence was given to me. As I ponder more deeply, if I were to take away all the apparent attributes about me for instance the way I look, my body, and everything else - what will remain is existence. I can do the same thing for a tree. I take away its branches, its leaves, its trunk and whats left is existence. What is this existence? It seems it is something other than these material properties and it is something that is common amongst all things. 

I begin to see that I am on a journey to finding the essence of all things, Pure Existence. 

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In the beginning

In the name of God the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful

It has probably been at least a decade since I had a real blog (during the golden age of Xanga). And lately there has been this urge within me to write and express my thoughts. No matter how much I try to write privately, I can never make it a habit and I don’t have the motivation to write so weeks or months would go by without me writing anything. So this is my renewed attempt to start writing again. 

I don’t expect anyone will actually read this, which I am fine with since my goal is to write to my self and keep my soul on track and I don’t want to inhibit my thoughts due to anyone reading. I realize that the only real way a person can go deeper within themselves is if they express it with words. Some people have the blessing of having an intuitive friend or partner who can be a mirror for them and listen to all their thoughts. But I have no such luck, at least not anymore. So I have to resort to this Tumblr thing. Hopefully I can keep up with this and keep reminding myself of where I am going.

As I write this, feelings of excitement and self-discovery are flickering in the back of my mind from memories of when I used to write long time ago. I am sad I did not continue writing as I feel I have lost years worth of ideas and thoughts. No more dwelling on the past, now is the time to look into the future.

Goal of this blog? To try writing daily of all the new things that I learn and new reflections as well as new struggles and new failures. My goal in life essentially is to reach perfection of the spirit. I’ve wasted enough years of my life tarrying along without aim and wasting precious hours of my day fulfilling mundane worldly desires. I seek deeper meaning from this life. I seek knowing the Reality behind all things. In essence, I seek God. And as it was state by the beloved Prophet, “One who has known themselves, has known their Lord”. So my dear new Tumblr, together let’s traverse this journey and get to know ourselves.