coworker said he had a dream his teeth fell out, i said you should go to the dentist, i said you should take care of yourself, i said nothing at all, thought about googling it but i already know what it means, something about loss or change, duuh, gallery smells like warm electronics, printer sighing like its as exhausted as i am, printer sighing, printer sighing, printer jammed again, like it's chewing, like it’s reluctant to let go,cant afford to have you write for xxx another two weeks she said i just cant, lets talk about it when i'm back she said, guy in margiela shoes showed up again, he reminded me of this pigeon i saw limp across the street with chewing gum stuck to its foot, wouldn’t stop talking about ny, wouldn’t stop talking in general, got distracted by a single earring someone left on the reception desk, tiny silver hoop, not mine, twirled it between my fingers for a second, warm like a person,ghost of an earlobe, pls pls pls i beseech you just shutup about ny,radiators clicking clicking clicking all day but no heating, the meeting place had carpet patterned like static, yellow light like its been burning for decades, felt like something i dreamt, buzzing like a fridge full of spoiled milk, need to email the framer again, he always smells like wood varnish, should i switch perfumes, maybe something with plum, something chalky, maybemaybe jade suggested ‘old money’ meh, nnot new money, never new money, drank cold coffee from forgotten cup from a day ago ,tasted like the shadow of a coffee, tasted like expired adrenaline, expired film, expired expired expired ,should check when my iud expires o wait no i got it removed last year, or was it uhhh two years ago, ig times weird like that sometimes, walked past a man selling roses on the métro, thorns already clipped, a woman bought one, held it by the stem like a cigarette, thought about the smell of blood, thought about the smell of my old apartment, i thought about the way thepavement looked like silver wowwi, should really start leaving before dark but its impossible, i should leave before dark, but then it’s dark again and i haven’t left, ,photograph of a woman in a bathtub dressed in black with bunny ears and a knife titled ‘woman in a bathtub dressed in black with bunny ears and a knife’ 1967, anonymous, silver gelatin, smelling faintly of vinegar, black ink smudge on her palm, woman next to me writing in tiny notebook,, should start carrying a notebook, should start carrying a knife,heart feels like it’s operating separately from my body, métro smelled like wet metal and burnt sugar, wet metal and burnt sugar mmmmm so ssoo yummy, later tonight i’ll peel this orange,slow, precise, one long curling strip of rind, thought about at least three different ways of peeling an orange, thought about how i should stop disappearing mid-sentence, want to disappear into a pile of bubble wrap instead, packed and shipped, thought about grocery shopping, thought about eating something that isnt olives and espresso, thought about how i havent eaten yet, thought about eating the earring, thought about eating the bubble wrap, thought about eating the pigeon's gum, thought about how i should have answered no when he asked if i was okay,thought about sorrow, thought about my mothers sorrows, thought about the sorrows of young werther,thought about goethe, thought about goethe’s last words on his deathbed, wait what did he say again....mehr licht or mehr nichts? more light or more nothing? thought about nothing, thought about nothing, thought about nothing at all
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