Flowers Always Wilt

Vent/Nsfw blog for personal problems, including the following; OSDD, PTSD, Bipolar Disorder, Major Depression, Sever Anxiety, & Autism She/Her pronouns used mostly, all accepted. Thank you for listening to me. + WILL BLOCK ANY TROLLS, TERFS, TRUSCUM, HOMOPHOBES, PROANA, & MAPS + Icon From; https://picrew.me/image_maker/41329

[sparklingspirals]

all the roads lead back to the loneliness ive felt ever since i was a child

[flowersalwayswilt]

They all say they want a crazy mentally ill bitch till they get one.

[sleeplessv0id]

[autismvampyre]

i used to think i was dead. like the real me died when i was 4 and im just the leftover scraps of that little girl who died. like i'm a corpse that's sewn itself back together. like every my whole life has been as a direct result of violence

sometimes i still feel that. i mourn the little girl i was, and i mourn the woman she could've become if she hadn't become me. i mourn the life he stole from me

[traumartist]

[traaumaa]

[flowersalwayswilt]

Love... like thorns in your side.

Gradually digging deeper, razor sharp edges and grip that tightens as you struggle.

Till its bled out and over, ingrained into your flesh, teeth gnawing at the soft underbelly.

Causing scars that never fully go away.

You're pulling, you're fighting.

Alas, it won't stop till its infected every inch of your being.

Body and mind, flesh and bone.

It wants to live in your skin, ingrained and written in your code.

Every move you make, every thing you know and will know.

It's observing you, but...

Its always been a part of you.

Take responsibility for it.

Tame isn't in its DNA, or its programming.

It's never learned what real love felt like.

You did grow it yourself after all.

Put it back in its cage where it belongs.

You can't teach it.

Give up.

[flowersalwayswilt]

Break me, break me, break me

Prove to me you love me! Prove it!

Break me

Break me

BREAK ME

[flowersalwayswilt]

Bend me over and fuck me till I cant walk amymore

Make me bleed make me sore make me hurt make me remember

[flowersalwayswilt]

Maybe someone to take control of me wouldn't be that bad. Maybe I want someone to use me like im nothing. Be honest. Tell me how worthless I am to you, tell me how you hate me, and you're just using me as a toy, I'll be your toy, your slave, your little freak. Let me please you. Let me be here FOR you. Let me belong to you and be your worthless hunk of trash. Use me up, spit me out afterward. It makes me feel like the piece of meat I am.

[flowersalwayswilt]

"I'd never hurt you"

... You can hurt me, I can take it. I want you to make me cum so much it hurts. Make sure to make me red and mark me so everyone knows i belong to you. Make sure I remember every touch, every motion, every sound, and I want to remember your body inside mine. Make me beg. Make me want more.

Please, I want it so bad. .

[flowersalwayswilt]

Come on, pretty boy. Tell me what you want. Tell me you want me like I want you. Be my pet, I'll take good care of you.

[flowersalwayswilt]

Starve yourself to be sure you truly are empty on the inside.

[flowersalwayswilt]

I'm so alone.

[flowersalwayswilt]

You can make me bleed

You can make me cry

Make me sore

Make it hurt

Be good to me

Make me feel so good I won't want to leave

Fuck me

Fuck me like you hate me

[flowersalwayswilt]

I'll be whatever you like

I'll let you do anything

I'll let you touch everything

I want to make you feel good

I don't care if it hurts

It feels good

Play with me more

And more

And more

[flowersalwayswilt]

The heat is suffocating me.

I'm drowning

I can't breathe

It's so hot.