Flowers Patterson

James. DIY. Shitty Photography. Design. A lot of stupid text posts. Toronto(ish). Direct questions here.

[flowerspatterson]

After a lot of effort in learning how to love and take care of myself I’ve landed in a relationship with a really wonderful partner. I’ve been accused of being immature by more than a few people but between paying off all my debt and being able to make awesome meals for us and spend awesome quality time with her daughter I feel like I’m on a better path than ever before.

A really big part of me wants to shove my happiness in a couple old-friends faces just to prove that I could get my shit together. A bigger part doesn’t even want to talk to those people anymore and I couldn’t be more excited about that either.

[flowerspatterson]

Look at your cards, I know what you've got to say Your hand is full and hidden but I can see it anyway It's a 'loves me, loves me not situation' And in the end nobody cares about syncopation

The words you shared cut me everyday And 'I love you' is all I've got to share today 'I'm working on it, give me peace of mind', Is what I need to do but who's got the time? Always suck wondering ‘why?’

Don't bother waiting for it I won't come calling.

[flowerspatterson]

‘You’re beautiful, can I come into your room?’ -’Of course, make yourself at home’ She enters into a clutter laundry and beer cans -’5% has never been enough’, and so I’ve got this mess ‘Can we indulge?’ she asks -’When am I not?’ She get out her kit, nicely packaged, as if it’s made to last ‘Do you like to hurt?” -’No, but sometimes we need to’ 10 minutes later we’re both stuck in conversation Nothing deep, just the weather and the city - our fascination seems synced We pry at each other but neither of us wants to explain how we feel about ourselves or why we’ve chosen to live like this As if we even knew how to respond if one of us prompted a direct question on the topic Nobody wants to talk to you when you need it Everyone feels like they need to talk to you when it’s too late

[flowerspatterson]

2014: The year I shut up and be happy regardless of the last few years

365 days to make myself into someone that people actually want to be around

[flowerspatterson]

Trying to start on a more positive and responsible path but keep on messing up and doing something that sets me back further than when I started. I love my friends dearly but I think I might need to hangout with some other people for a while.

[notdeadyettoronto]

RIP SHIBGBS. The future is still unwritten.

[dbno89]

Rest in S.H.I.T.

[flowerspatterson]

Have you ever missed someone a ton but had to hold yourself back from finding a way to tell them?

[flowerspatterson]

I can't drink enough to make me forget about myself. I wish these feelings would go away.

[flowerspatterson]

Also gained 20 lbs, am breaking out and have bit of a dandruff issue so 'holy shit I'm back in grade 10' is a pretty constant thought as well

[flowerspatterson]

It's funny when people you know that previously meant a lot to you write songs about how shitty they were/are after they've burnt their bridges with the people they're writing about 'hurting' with little intention of 'fixing their wrongs' or actively trying to 'patch up friendships'.

[flowerspatterson]

[screemgreen]

The two most relevant things from Toronto in my life are Drake and The Wastoids.

[muzzywasgreat]

Visit Original Link

[flowerspatterson]

It's been a long time since I've posted photos of myself so here's another one where I'm trying to smile

[flowerspatterson]

Got a hot date tonight so Krissten did my hair.

[flowerspatterson]

Trying to work hard today.

It's tough when I decided last week that today shouldn't have happened and these are stresses I could be done with.

It's interesting how other people can keep you going when you've got not aspiration to do so.

[cccentipedes]

Hey folks,

This is a write up to create an open invitation to people to send submissions or letters to my zine series Overlseeping. Right now I’m working on the second issue, but this is a project I’d like to carry on for years. And what can’t be featured or responded to in the coming issue would...