GLORY OR RUIN?

he/him/she/her

[fluidterumi]

penis.

[rboz-deactivated20200425]

ch. 480 - Northern Tombstone (Extra)

Something I thought about when the chapter came out. Gajeel looked truly shocked, luckily Levy is there to become his strength when he needs the push.

[fluidterumi]

Man, roleplaying is going so well and me and the other half are doing amazing tbh. new friends are super kind and lovely. Haven’t been in this great of a mood in a while. Bless.

[blazblue-nemesishorizon]

[d1rtypaws]

[monkeysaysficus]

What the ever loving fuck?

[muddled-thought]

Why do they sound like someone’s vehicle has a fucked ignition?

Did someone flood these foxes engines?

[monkeysaysficus]

^^^ exactly my thoughts

[icelandicstripperboots]

fun fact! red foxes make this sound when they have meet their perfect mate or soul mate would you have it! so basically they’re just screaming for all the other red foxes that they have found their love and for all the others to fuck off

[truth-runs-wild]

Well finally we know what the fox says

[writtenallcver]

have you found your soulmate? do you want to find a great way to show that to the world? scream.

[kitsune23star]

Girls have to look out for each other

[cheriafreya]

(ღ˘⌣˘ღ)

[fluidterumi]

went to my appointment with the psychaitrist today. i hate them. they make me uncomfortable and they’re truly one of the most apathetic people I have ever met. apparnetly it doesnt matter if you’ve ‘attempted toself harm’ and isn’t that big of a deal because haha if we took into account the amount of people who have thought of doing such a thing, we’d have legions.

fuck you.

[fluidterumi]

why did i buy fallout 4 again

[fluidterumi]

Got that liver chek up later on today. It’s probably just gonna be cuz I’m a stupid fat duck. yes. a duck. but anyway, got that later today. When I’vebecome fairly okay with my weight, i bet that’s gonna be the issue. honestly I don’t know what it’ll be but if I’m totally honest... Not really caring at this point. I more so just want to see that psychatrist already. See if there’s anything that can be done or w/e. Guess we’ll see.

[fluidterumi]

So i think for a while im going to use this blog as a bit of a personal outlet for w/e is on my mind. I’ll post them under read mores, not sure what tag though. I’m still gonna reblog shit every now and then but if any of the followers I have are not comfortable with that or w/e please feel free to unfollow and such. Again, I’ll put all of my posts like that under a read more so... yeah.

oh, also please tell me to tag certain things if I don’t tag content that constitutes trigger warnings and shit. sorry v.v

[fluidterumi]

Once again another neurotypical person telling me that i need to go out and do something and that making a “proper physical relationship or something” would be good for me. while also telling me that the anti-depressant meds i’ve been taking for years (that have done nothing to lift my mood btw) will make me feel better.

then she got the gaul to come at me talking like seeing a psychiatrist was HER idea when I told her I should think about seeing one at some point.

shocking. another neurotypical butthead thinks they know what would be best for me. my mouth is agape in awe that such a thing has occurred.

whatever. i have that doctor’s appointment to check out my liver fuction and then that appointment with the other doctor about my mental health. I guess at the very least it might make... some sort of decent outlet for some things I need to talk about. Then again it’s another neurotypical guy to tell me how I gotta “get out more!” or “need to make friends!”

LIKE LISTEN ASSHOLE, I can’t do those things or even feel like doing those things when those exact fucking things mask the underlying issues I need help with. Just because I make a fucking friend “in real life” or some shit and I might seem HAPPIER for the moment does a mentally heaither person make. GOD. FUCKING IDIOTS. God SOMETIMES I wish I was neurotypical and just be so deluded to live in such a world where I can feelI could spew such bullshit at someone and think “yeah. im doing good in the world”

what’s the point of me going to some fucking group and ‘making friends’ when self-destructive tendencies are probably the least of my problems. 

Sighs... I’m sorry. I’m really sorry. I really need to get some help and I should just try my best to shoulder through it. Maybe if I can just set aside my cyncism towards the entire process i might be able to get somewhere. Someone told me recently that I deserve some peace of mind but honestly, every time I think on it it’s truly difficult considering. (shrugs) People, relationships, emotions. I really don’t think I was prepared for any of this at all. My life and relationships with others feel like a horse going freakin out of control and im trying to stay in the saddle constantly. God I feel like shit.

Ahhh sorry sorry. That’s enough for now. Sorry. Hahaha.

[8resunk]

テルミさん原稿手伝ってください

[rileyssblue]

[little-lagomorph]

Ultimate Comics Spider-Man #019

[akanicotortorella-deactivated20]

You really are an extraordinary young man, Kenneth. No matter what happens, you always keep your chin up.

[animalsnaps]

[wetepentz]

#it’s leonardo dicaprio

[fluidterumi]

Haven’t been on tumblr in a long while, bunch of stuff happened and wht not which is understandable and kind of adjusting to changes. I’ve been thinking a lot lately over certain things but the most important thing on my mind lately is this doctor’s appointment next month to have my liver scanned. Supposedly I have some sort of swelling on my Liver and lately I haven’t been feeling too well physically. Granted that’s the norm but this is more than usual. So I’m worried about that. No doubt I’ll probably be fine but my deterioating health is probably a sign i need to be a bit more healthy.

I’m just overall not in a good place right now but that’s okay! I’m sure things will get better. I’m as okay as I possibly can be.