( @fmdmiru )
“have you thought about it?”
she looks up from her phone, resting languidly on the couch and doing nothing in particular, which is probably her favorite way to pass time. bella looks at the other girl as if she would know what she’s talking about, even though she knows that it could be a million things, given the fact that she’s offered no context. still, she thinks it might be on their minds.
“moving out of the dorms, i mean. have you thought about getting a place on your own?” it’s kind of odd in a way, because all her life she wanted companionship. being an only child with parents that kept her busy meant that she was always somewhat lonely, with no people that she could call close, no one that she could turn to and even when she was around people she still felt alone. then when she moved into the dorms she finally got what she wanted — other girls to be around, someone always available to talk, late night conversations and group meals. but after four years, she was more than ready to get out.
she thinks it’s possible that she’s just a creature of habit, and after more than a decade of being alone, maybe she’s gotten used to it, maybe it’s her default.
bella sits up, putting her phone screen down beside her and looking at miru. “don’t get me wrong, i loved living with everyone, but it’s just nice to be alone every once in a while, you know? we’re surrounded by so many people all the time and, i don’t know.” she shrugs, opting not to finish the sentence. “i mean, you’re welcome here any time anyways, so it’s not like we’re isolating ourselves or anything.”
