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most people love her, or hate her. rarely is it a case of in between.
confident and bold, the kind of extrovert who can talk to anyone about absolutely any topic. where she lacks sensitivity towards others' plights or pains, she can be a decent friend, especially for people who don’t mind her rarely being the one to ask “how are you”. i would say her a lot of her allure is her charismatic boldness, knowing what she wants and needs from the world around and her drive to achieve even the impossible.
seemingly endless ambition, she’s a lime light hog and that extends beyond standing on a stage. when she sets her sight on something, i would move out of her way, she’s a bullet train who do be manifesting her destiny every day of the week like it’s no big deal lol.
she doesn’t like to take no for an answer. competitive, an enabler and a girl boss gatekeeper at times. she isn’t the type of person to show off an “attitude” she’d prefer to mock and gaslight and regina george her way through situations she doesn’t like.
surprisingly, she can be very impressionable. if she likes someone, she’ll do anything to make them happy or want her. she wants people to love her first and foremost. when her overzealous attention gets set on someone, there’s nowhere she won’t go and nothing she won’t brave to keep them. extremely doting and affectionate.
once she gives her loyalty it’s usually for the long haul. she remembers promises and doesn’t give her word unless she means it, so she will wisely and cutely side step any major commitments unless they’re authentic. this means when she says she’ll do something, be there or that she has your back, you can Believe that.
common complaints from exes: that she tries too hard, she’s too desperate and intense. common compliments from exes: that she makes you feel like the center of the universe.
big water sign energy, she has very strong, emotional energy. very good days and very bad days, again rarely anything in between.
usually an all or nothing type that thinks things that come too easily aren’t worth having.
loves to argue, debate and come out on the other side with a stronger relationship. cardi b vc: gotta argue with him cause you know he love a toxic bitch dFDjkg
into women and not good at hiding it, the amount of “jess being as straight as a circle” youtube videos is astounding.
she mixes signals all of the time and doesn’t understand the difference between platonic and romantic in most cases. she accidentally leads people on from time to time from not understanding how to read feelings or signals correctly.
speaking of feelings, she’s a nightmare as an ex. sometimes she doesn’t want to give up, sometimes she’s the tell everyone they’re bad in bed and sabotages their current relationship. after breaking up, she’s love them or hate them, but even if she’s hate them, she’s prone to letting herself get sucked back into bed or relationships with them because to her, being jealous, toxic or intense is sexy lol
sometimes her bratty energy is so strong it’s hilarious and sad at the same time.
she’s a texter. if you call her, she won’t answer, but she will send back within a few minutes, “what’s up?”
she also likes streaks on snow/snap, and if you start one she’ll tease you and pout if you let it die and beg you to start another with her.
her korean can be pretty poor even to this day. she didn’t use her korean very much at all as a child and only started learning when she came to korea. She enjoys speaking english with her friends and i’d say it’s a fast track to getting to know her at her most natural.
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debuting with ultraviolet in just 2019 she’s still learning the ins and outs of being an idol. she trained for around 3 years before debuting and her energy was very stressed during those trainee years. she didn’t have any formal dance or vocal training before joining the company, merely a personal interest in singing from a young age. she was playing catch up not only with her technical skills but with her korean.
she went into foster care at a young age, and bounced around for a while before being adopted. her adopted family is the only one listed in her profiles, her birth parents or life in that manner is never mentioned. that said, she’s not really close to her adopted family at all. she leans her entire support system into being an idol and being with her group members. she doesn’t talk to her family very often. she raised herself and it’s clear in her personality and the way she’ll talk about her family when it’s brought up .she has some abandonment issues, and craves attention and love for everyone and anyone. it’s how she ended up an idol in the first place.
she has more passion for singing than rapping, but so far that hasn’t meant anything for her career.
she believes if she tries hard enough, people will love her no matter what her flaws, and that they’ll never leave. she craves a sort of “forever” from anyone and everything, which is very unrealistic and causes her a lot of pain.
her current idol image is mostly known as her face and personality, her talents are the secondary thing that comes to mind.
her favorite groups are other girl groups. learns all of the other groups dances and songs. she remembers the names of everyone in the industry more or less, even the other rookies and some trainees she learns the names of.
98liner, scorpio, 173cm tall girl, feel free to check her full profile!
netflix is paused on the television screen. her lips are coated with lipstick and stained with deep red wine, but it’s fading faster than the single thread holding her together. if only she could stop fidgeting as she bites and licks away at her lips, maybe her velvet clio lipstick wouldn’t be going to waste. she can’t help herself. so what if the rumors were clear that alice was seen with her weeks before. a strange rumor to beget her when, after all, she hadn’t seen alice in months. jess is a butterfly as she leans into alice on the couch where they sit after she welcomed her long time friend over just a bit earlier. she pulled her knees up on the couch and slid herself so close that she and alice touched. a supple warmth that cascaded down her spine and soaked away a little bit of nerves. “we can watch the movie soon if you want,” she says because she had been blabbering away for too long and after asking if they could watch a movie, it wasn’t a good look. “i haven’t seen any movies or hung out with anyone in a long time now.” it’s subtle in the jess way... like a blowing ball straight into the pins. “i wanted to do this specifically with you, you know? hang out, i mean.” scanning alice’s face for a sign, from the gutter of her cheeks to the center of her pretty lips, for a smile, for a secret. and because she’s jess, she can’t wait to be told, she has to bring it up herself, she has to ask. “have you been out lately?” she licks her lips (again), “you know like, with anyone?” she corrects herself, more specifically. fidgeting again she bumps into alice with her legs one more time, on purpose and with a superimposed brilliant smile.
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summary: completed the new muse tasks to present a better idea of who my darling jess is! a few plot ideas at the bottom but there’s more on her page at /plots!
why did your muse become an idol?
there are multiple reasons jessica ended up down this path. as a child she had a love for singing but never thought of it with ambitions or goals in mind. it was only once her foster brother encouraged that talent and nurtured it within her that she thought of it as a passion she wanted to invest her time into. she can still remember the thrill she felt watching his eyes light up when he heard her sing something new. as she grew older, the ambition came with the absence of her brother and the presence of so many new things in her life that were out of her control. being adopted officially didn’t give her catharsis it should have, it just made her feel more lonely. there was a hole somewhere in her heart that seemed too hungry to fill. at some point, while during her usual online exploits (she was a bit of a forever online shut in) she ran into kpop and learned it as a potential fast track for her into fame and being a musician. the rest is history. she became an idol to try to fill the love void in her chest, after the only person who used to fill it left her life.
what does your muse think of their company and their group?
she thinks of her company as an overseer and she wants to be seen well by them so she just tries not to get in any bad light and wants to earn her Fame™ by being a monster on stage and hoping it all works out for the best. the company is a means to that end in a way. When it comes to her group, she has stronger and more personal feelings. some concepts she likes more than others but she’s passionate about the process as a whole. music is an escape to her so in her head, if she works hard, she’ll never fail. She’s a really big fan of the groups aesthetic, fashion and concepts. their styling being very vibrant and cool suits her especially well.
is your muse on their first contract or their second? if they’ve renewed, what were their feelings around that at the time and what were their hopes for their second contract? if they haven’t renewed, what are their current thoughts on the end of their eventual first contract?
it seems so far away to her that she’ll have to renew some day since she really just signed her contract so recently. with years to go and still being emotionally attached to her group and enjoying her career, she feels optimistic about staying with the group and company. she’s worried some lately about whether she’ll be able to accomplish what she wants in the timeframe, so she’s been betting herself on the company more, in hopes she can accomplish more before the renew.
what are your muse’s goals, ambitions, and motivations?
her only real goals are to be loved and to have her voice heard by everyone. in the future she plans to pursue more solo music, so she can perform on her own and be recognized the same way she was in her dreams as a kid. as a kid she never really daydreamed she’d be standing on a stage with other people next to her. not to say she doesn’t love them, but she wants to be a Star. stars don’t usually have groups in her definition of it. for motivations, she’s motivated by the fear of failure, and equally motivated more positively, by the love and devotion she can inspire in others. she has toxic habits of over checking for validation and being hurt by negativity pointed towards her, but for now she’s still holding motivations on the positive side. which admittedly, is largely thanks to ultraviolets success being so solid.
what moments or people in your muse’s life are or have been the most impactful and/or the most important to them?
her birth mother has impacted her whether she’d like it or not. the absence of her mother in her life left her with feelings of abandonment and a feeling of not being good enough. she wasn’t sure how to process being taken away from her family and at the time, she didn’t fully understand it. being told she was taken away for her own good didn’t help when she was young and wanted to Stay there. she ran away and ran back to her mother before and it only ended in her learning that her mother wasn’t just unfit but had never had an “easy” time with her. the impact of that still hang onto her to this day.
another influence is her foster brother who i’ve spoken of a few times. she grew up lonely and ostracized by her classmates, an only child with a mostly absent and unfit mother. so when she bonded with someone close to her age for the first time it was a shaping experience. she honestly only went into music because he loved her voice so much and told her she could do it if she wanted.
what are five of your muse’s favorite things? feel free to expand on why this is and/or how these became their favorite things.
the gold star practice room. she spent so much time there that it’s almost like a piece of her. when she feels unsure or like she’s about to disappear she goes there and lays on the ground or leans into the mirror to remind herself of why she’s here. if she’s ever disappeared and no one knows where she is, isn’t answering her phone or something, there’s a 100% chance she’s there.
there’s this old phone she has, her first phone she was ever given by her foster brother as kids, a cheap disposable phone that she refuses to get rid of. it stays dead most of the time and hasn’t had service since she was a teenager, but she keeps it for the memories it holds. the pictures inside and all she’s ever done with it. another thing she sometimes turns on to remind herself of why she’s here.
her nails. though it’s silly and trivial, she’s very obsessed with her nails. her nail styling is changed weekly, sometimes more. she has a whole nail kit for gel nails and nail design and often spends time at night during her free time fixing them at her desk. this is when she takes time to think about her career and friends, to watch television, or if her friends are willing to pile around, to chat and let loose. i like to joke and think she should have just been a hand model and called it a day lol.
her group. the members of her group specifically are infinitely important to jess who has come to find them as her found family in a way. she’s used to people coming and going in her life, used to people who aren’t blood related to her calling themselves her family, but this one is the first one she’s chosen properly since her mother. they’ve gone through so much stress and growth together and even though the fame is an enormous pressure, it’s easier because she can rely on them. especially jaein who is a Rock that jess considers extremely important to her foundation. she may be bad at expressing it, but they’re without a doubt one of the most important things in the world to her.
girls. maybe it’s cheating to say girls is her favorite, but there’s something extremely fascinating about it. she never had an epiphany that she was interested in women or a moment of realization; it was just something she always knew. she knew she had an interest in girls before she knew that girls were supposed to like boys. her natural inclination to obsess over almost every girl she meets is definitely a building block of her entire personality and if you ask her she’d even tell you that Girls are her favorite thing lol.
what is one conflict, internal or external, that your muse is currently dealing with, has recently dealt with, or will need to deal with in the future?
to be honest, she’s always dealing with her need to be loved and her very inappropriate ways of dealing with and pursing that goal. she’s not very healthy or kind to herself or the way she treats others, especially once she’s lost a piece of what she considers adoration or love. whether it’s how hard she takes fans' negative opinions of her, how she treats exes or friends who have a falling out with her, or herself when she’s feeling critical, it’s really unhealthy. she can’t continue to hold people accountable for her unrealistic expectations and trauma any longer. she needs people to set proper boundaries with her and hold her to them. and honestly, she needs some therapy lol, though she has no plans to attend it, i think the right circumstances could push her to it one day.
if your muse has established career claims, what are their thoughts on their career so far? if they do not, how do they feel about not having individual activities yet? what would they like to do in the future, if anything? if they don’t have ambitions for individual activities, explain why.
all of her established claims so far have been image driven and rely heavily on her personality to pull her through. considering her personality is very strong and her visuals are a selling point, there’s no surprise, but it’s something that jess will never be content to allow to be her Only selling point. she wants to move away from her image being her only marketing strategy and start bolstering her talent as a foundation for people to love her on. her ambitions are the most famous thing about her and that theme won’t lessen as time goes on, though some other aspects of her will shift and adapt, namely her vulnerability and authenticity.
2. fill out an official profile
Stage Name: jessie
Birth Name: jessica song
Nicknames: jess
Position: main rapper, lead vocal
Nationality: canadian
Birthplace: vancouver canada
Birthday: november 14, 1998
Zodiac Sign: scorpio
Known Family: mother and father in canada
Trainee Period: 3 years
Official Height: 171cm
Blood Type: B
MBTI: estp
Special Skills: speeding up her singing and rapping to twice speed
Hobbies: doing her nails, shopping and other girly things
Favorite Food: anything salty and spicy
Favorite Color: red
Role Models/Inspirations: jennifer lopez
Ideal Type: someone romantic and loyal who will take her on lots of dates
Facts: she almost became a model rather than a musician. she missed her first audition due to having a stomach bug and had to go back the next year
- she’s very competitive and has a difficult time not showing her disappointment when losing
- she loves the sims video game
- a very heavy sleeper who can sometimes sleep through alarms and even construction
- she’s attached to her hair length and is afraid to cut it too short
- she’s very clean and organized
3. three wanted plots
first love ! (limitations: female, no older than a 96liner)
i have a headcanon that the first girl that jess ever made a move on compared to her previous pining and questioning whether girls would like her back, was during her trainee years. there was a great sense of relief from this connection because it was a very tough time during her life, with lots of stress, not to mention it was a coming to terms with not just being attracted to every girl she met but realizing that yes, she isn’t alone. some girls Do like girls. This connection validated her existence and gave her comfort in multiple ways. she was between 17 to 19 (she’s a 98liner) during this time, so no muses who are too old for the position please, only appropriate ages for a first love/crush plot! She has yet to get over this person in a way. She always goes back and forth obsessing about them and keeps up with their current career and dating life, always ready to bring up conversation with them if they ran into each other again.
message me later ! (limitations: none!)
she and this person message every single day almost, without fail. they know the inside and out of each others life. the only thing is that they never talk outside of text, because they don’t know each other. they met in a chatroom for a similar interest they have and stayed in contact every day since. some interests this could be is: video games (especially life sims, puzzle games and platformers), fashion, nails, rap music, and wlw chatrooms.
final girl ! (limitations: female)
Her feelings have changed for this muse over the years, from platonic to burning desire, to platonic, to hate and jealousy, and back again. She can’t be sure whether she’s in love with them or not and sometimes she thinks they’re the only one in the world who can’t see it. A love affair without the affair because she can’t figure out how to make things work between the two. (this plot is basically meant to be jess’s end game, where she’ll eventually make the leap and wildly confess her love one day, and until then it’s just a lot of sad and jealous pining and convincing herself that they’re only friends on the off days)
