okay last annoying post for a while, but i'd still love LOVE LOVE some angsty plots!! if you want to make my happy boy cry, my discord is ( over the garden wall#4195 )
what did kwankyung do whenever things got too complicated for him? one of two things - he either lashed out and backed off, completely cutting off contact with the person that things got complicated with, or he just pretended like the tension wasn’t that. in that particular situation with jinhwi, he decided to go with the latter. he couldn’t find it in himself to cut off contact with the other male. even though he refused to acknowledge the fact that feelings might be there, he wasn’t ready to push him away. he didn’t want to, and he wasn’t sure if he would ever want to. “it’s not a burden. if i didn’t want you to stay here, i wouldn’t have told you that you could stay if you wanted to.”
there was no way in hell he was going to ask jinhwi to stay. the ball was on the other’s side of the court, anything that happened from that point on would be of jinhwi’s choosing. he nodded at his question, silently letting him know that it was okay if he stayed with him. silence lingered between them for a while before the other male spoke again. he raised an eyebrow, a little confused by the sudden vocalization of gratitude, before he nodded, smiling slightly. “yeah, well i can’t be a dick all the time, can i?” that was a lie. he could be one all the time, that was something he was good at, but he couldn’t find it in himself to be rude to jinhwi. it just didn’t feel right.
"oh really?" jinhwi raised his eyebrows, laughing softly. “no, i’m just kidding. you might be mean sometimes, but deep down i know you’re a good person. there’s no fooling me.” jinhwi’s views on the world were very rose colored. he set himself up to get hurt often, but no matter how hard he tried, he couldn’t bring himself to change his ways. jinhwi was often the light in the darkness, his optimism stopped at nothing. people couldn’t stand to be around him due to the fact he was always enthusing about hope and to not give up.
to be totally honest, jinhwi didn’t know why on earth kwankyung tolerated him. perhaps it was because of his looks, jinhwi wasn’t sure. nowadays, he wasn’t sure of anything. he sat in silence, not exactly sure what to say. he wasn’t uncomfortable, in fact, it was nice. he never really slowed down enough to appreciate moments like this. “it’s nice just laying here, don’t you think?” he asked softly, biting his lower lip. he didn’t want to mess up anything with kwankyung, though he wasn’t sure what he’d mess up. he just felt like he needed to be careful. it was inexpiable, really.
[ 📲 to jinhwi-hyung ] you’re asking /me/ this?
[ 📲 to jinhwi-hyung ] are you sure?
[ 📲 to joohwanie ] of course!! i wouldn’t have texted you otherwise, joohwan
[ 📲 to joohwanie ] you’re the only person i could think of who would tolerate me
[ 📲 to joohwanie ] not to be annoying, but please hurry, i think my lips are turning purple :-(
[ 💌 sms ➵ JINHWI OPPA ] that sounds bad …
[ 💌 sms ➵ JINHWI OPPA ] i’ll get to you ASAP but i only have my bike .
[ 💌 sms ➵ JINHWI OPPA ] wait , i’ll go call my manager and see if he has the keys to the company car !!
[ 💌 sms ➵ JINHWI OPPA ] please , i don’t mind at all . find somewhere to shield from the rain first , please !!
[ 📲 to sally/seri ] i'm hiding under a tree
[ 📲 to sally/seri ] it’s surprisingly good at hiding me!
[ 📲 to sally/seri ] thank you so much seri ㅠㅠ
[ 📲 to sally/seri ] you’re an angel
[ 📲 to ??? ] i know this is totally random, but i’m having a bit of trouble.
[ 📲 to ??? ] it’s raining outside and i can’t seem to find my keys..
[ 📲 to ??? ] is there any way you can come and get me?
[ 📲 to ??? ] if it’s not too much of a burden, of course
jinhwi had always gotten close with the other trainees and artists at dimensions, but ryujin wasn’t just another trainee he became friends with. ryujin, however, had begun training at a relatively young age. jinhwi had grown closer to her than to anyone else - even some of his own group members. the male considered her to be his daughter as a sort. he loved seeing how she’d grown over the years and was proud to see her debut.
“ryujin-ah,” he said with a grin. “have you eaten?” jinhwi plopped down next to her, holding out a cup of coffee. “i’ve been promoting your debut on vlive, i hope you’re gaining some fans and some support. your concept is so cool!” he laughed and tilted his head. “ryujinie, we should do a vlive together!! family vlive!!!”
there came a time in most people’s lives where they, either knowingly or unknowingly, begin to develop feelings for someone else. usually kwankyung was really good at detecting those feelings rather early. the relationships he found himself in over the years were never long lasting, only surviving for three or so months at the most, because as soon as began to feel something more for the other person, he cut ties with them. as tall and muscular as he was, you would think that he wasn’t scared of anything, but one of his biggest fears was giving his heart to someone and having them step on it. he had already gone through more than enough heartache as a child, he didn’t want to experience that again.
which was why he didn’t realize that he had developed feelings until it was too late. the worst part of it was that he didn’t see it coming because he wasn’t even in a relationship with him. jinhwi was just one of the many people he slept with, although he was one of the most consistent people he had bedded over the years. he rolled over onto his back, letting out a heavy sigh as he stared up at the ceiling. it was silent for a few moments, a comfortable silence, before he spoke up. “if you want to stay for the night you can.” he wasn’t going to ask him to stay, that would be too much. it would make him feel too vulnerable. if he left the choice up to jinhwi, maybe he could play it off as him not wanting to spend a few more hours in the other’s presence.
* | @fmdjinhwi
he’d gotten used to sleeping with people, but jinhwi’s mind was very surface level. he rarely thought about developing deeper feelings for someone and never thought about others developing feelings for him. kwankyung’s voice from beside him grabbed his attention. he turned his head, his eyes scanning the other male up and down. kwankyung had never asked him if he wanted to spend the night before, jinhwi was a bit confused. “i mean,” he said quietly. “if you want me to, i don’t want to burden you.” jinhwi smiled and looked up at the ceiling. “it is getting late, i don’t want to disturb my members.”
his members were probably all out of the dorm. he didn’t know why he was finding excuses to stay. jinhwi, of course, didn’t realize exactly what he was doing. “is it okay with you if i stay?” jinhwi asked, his eyes moving back to the other male. his eyes darted away and he pressed his lips together. he didn’t know why he felt his heart racing. he ignored it and played it off as anxiety from the sudden change kwankyung had introduced. “thank you,” he couldn’t help but crack a small smile. “for letting me stay. it’s really nice of you.”
honey: lipstick, a sweet voice, confident laughter, handwritten notes, tries their best, loves fashion and dogs, bright eyes like the sun, new cities, good grades
woodsmoke: tired souls, ticket stubs and street maps from places they’ve visited, bodies full of untold stories, missing the train, coffee, gentle words
wisteria: dreamy evenings, freshly-baked cinnamon rolls, sipping tea, writing in a diary, thick, worn-out jumpers, handfuls of flowers, falling in love, book piles
saltwater: dark, tousled hair, ripped jeans, paintbrushes, lofty grins, swallowing hard, a little broken, trying desperately to be a good person
ink: soft aching hands buried in messy hair, tragic smiles, scribbling on dusty parchment, ancient ruins, attic windows, stars, cups of tea gone cold
thunderstorms: leather jackets, eyeliner wings, sharpening their smiles, lace-up boots, vinyl records, wikipedia articles, tangled earphones, cigarette afternoons
hi hello! my name is lilac & i’m 18, they/them pronouns! this late because im lazy and my sim had triplets and all three of them almost got taken away by social services because she couldnt feed them all at once, but its okay!! ANYWAY... under the cut you’ll find some handy facts about everyone’s favorite gay, jinhwi!! please like if you want to plot! (HOMOPHOBIA TW!)
jeon jinhwi was born november 23rd 1993 in seoul!
his parents were devout catholics and sheltered him, never really letting him be a child or be exposed to things that would Make Him a Child
he started singing in his choir at church and loved it so much that he started to listen to music his parents didn’t approve of and because of that, he got interested in romance!
when his parents found out, they popped off and sent him to a bible camp, where he met a boy!
he fell for this boy and the boy fell for him
they’d kiss n do cute things when the counselors weren’t looking, but one day, they found the two boys kissing and they both got sent home
jinhwi was kicked out of his house and resorted to singing on the streets for money
a small agency found him and had him debut in a small group after training shortly!
he promoted for about one or two years before dimensions spotted him and offered him a better deal.
his fans were devastated that he was leaving his original group, but they supported him.
his fans were also pissed that dimensions debuted him in mars, but he seemed happy so they couldn’t do anything.
that’s pretty much the end of him!
WANTED PLOTS:
i want a friend who lets him be free and reckless because he never had the chance as a kid
i imagine he has at least Two fwb, so hmu for that
i want kind of a slow burn relationship where your muse likes jinhwi, but jinhwi doesn’t notice, then your muse stops liking him, then he likes them, and it never really lines up. of course, it will eventually.
perhaps someone who’s been a fan of his since his original group
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