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Love, Celine

[fmdseora]

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when: May 6th 2011

tw: mention of vomit, anxiety

summary: Seora’s feelings of anxiety and inferiority around aria’s debut

wc: 404

Aria was just entering the 2nd week of I don’t know promotions and Celine had never felt more exhilarated. So many people loved her no questions asked, they’d let her get away with murder if she smiled the right way. Aria’s debut was a massive success and according to the articles Gold Star had released they had received numerous love calls after their music video went live. Celine would have to admit to herself that going to music shows made her a little nervous. She was a child surrounded by giants after all, bowing and handing over copies of 7 Springs to seniors made her want to throw up but she still had a bright smile on her face, the perfect little doll.

 The white mini dress was almost suffocating, she drew her leader close to her and informed her she was going back to their waiting room. She ran hoping and praying that no one saw her rush into the room closing the door behind her finally she collapsed against the closed door. Celine loved being an idol after all Aria’s 1st fansign was earlier this week and she had felt on top of the world then even if some people rubbed her the wrong way. Her whole career hinged on being comfortable around people and if she wasn’t she’d feared she would be forced to return to Min Seora. Year end ceremonies weren’t even close to starting and Aria could not crash and burn so easily, she would do everything in her power to make sure they didn’t.

Celine thought she had vanquished her nerves after she got on the stage for the 1st time, but they came back with a vengeance during encores. Heels clicked through the hallway, she immediately moved to the couch hoping she didn’t look as terrible as she felt. She hoped it wasn’t Aria’s manager coming through, she would be beyond angry that Celine skipped out on something everyone else was doing and the homework lie definitely wouldn’t fly. It made her heart drop knowing that her hard work wouldn’t matter if she didn’t talk the talk and walk the walk. No one could prepare her for this, her classmates gave advice but it didn’t stick, she roleplayed with her fellow trainees about how to approach situations. But she was still a pill in front of her seniors, she couldn’t pull off confidence so she mastered silence.  

[fmdxchaeyeon]

fmdseora‌:

[chaeyeon👧]: i’m at a loss

[chaeyeon👧]: it’s kinda lame but an aquarium ? 

[chaeyeon👧]: I like to this so *_*

{ miss seora }: why? did i say something wrong?  { miss seora }: oh god, yes please!  { miss seora }: i love aquariums way too much  { miss seora }: where shall we meet? 

[fmdseora]

[chaeyeon👧]: yay yay

[chaeyeon👧]: just say the time the time and i’ll take you to the finest aquarium seoul can offer

[fmdseora]

DEBUT SEORA

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Goldstar had decided that her new name was Celine there was no reason for the change, it just sounded cleaner, it fit aria better and so Min Seora had died just like that.

She didn’t get along with her members at all, they were apart of different trainee groups and only moved into together once aria news was greenlighted

Rarely spoke on camera unless directed

Officially cut ties with her family after Aria won rookie of the year

Considered herself the cool kid on the block at SOPA, after all no one seemed to notice her accent anymore and everyone wanted to be her friend now.

She’s a variety darling too even if she hates the ogling and the airhead persona they cast on her.

She’s not used to being still, photoshoots are torturous, holding smiles is worse.

Seora loved the attention she got, she didn’t feel lonely anymore 

Her first music show performance she’s a nervous wreck, nerves she convinced herself hadn’t existed had finally exploded. 

Interacting with seniors terrified her (courtesy of Mama Min’s parenting)

 Leaving schedules left Celine feeling euphoric and on top of the world

Fanservice didn’t make her feel as icky as she thought it would

They paid for Celine’s undying love and she made sure they each got their money's worth

She trashed her fansite birthday gift, she felt she wasn’t worthy of it yet

A perfectionist at heart she neglected everything besides the I don’t know dance.

Every move had to be sharp, every spin had to be down to a science, synchronization was the goal nothing else mattered without it.

[yaebby]

how is she real

[sowonis]

[fmdseora]

fmdjiah·:

( … )

As she descends from the stairs, Jiah notices Seora right there, and her first impulse is to reach out and touch the other’s arm, “it’s nice to see you too, Seora,”she says quite tightly. She’s aware they are on a tight schedule. Awards season usually had this kind of effect on everyone but she still wished she was given more time, “I’m not your enemy or someone you have to close yourself to, Seora,” she tries in a soft tone and steps forward so they are standing closer together,“I miss you, I miss your friendship, can’t you even give me that?”

“You don’t get to call me Seora anymore”, she hoped her voice didn’t crack as she said it. Seora was a hopeless romantic at heart but the real world was determined to make that as hard as possible. She tried her hardest to avoid Jiah whenever aria was promoting and it worked successfully till now. Seora wouldn’t call it true love, it was whirlwind and all consuming for how short it had lasted not that any of the mattered now.

There was a point way back when she’d tell the older girl everything, laugh, tell jokes, and on the odd occasion even kiss under the cover of darkness. It all ended the moment she was called into a conference room at 6 am as her manager and company higher ups stared her down. Forced to admit and end something that was one of the small comfort in her life. Seora never did get a chance to end it, when she walked out of the meeting her phone lit up with a text from Jiah ‘I can’t be with you anymore’

“No.” She didn’t want anything to do with Jiah anymore, screw civility. “From this point forward? We don’t know each other.” Friendship was a slippery slope one day you’re best friends the next minute you’re strangers she didn’t want that not again, not ever. They could’ve made an effort to amend things but Seora was not prone to being responsible, besides had found other ways to fill what Jiah had left behind. Time was nearly up now and her senior had yet to make a case.

[fmdseora]

fmdtaejin‌:

[셀린]: a 8 year and running crush on me? i’m touched [셀린]: trying to live out your fantasies and take me out on a date?  [셀린]: i’m so touched i’ll agree to make your 15 year old dreams come true [셀린]: can you blame me for getting drunk? i’m an oscar winner now - celebration is mandatory

[BC-깡패]: ha ha 

[BC-깡패]: I doubt it was because of you

[fmdseora]

fmdxchaeyeon‌:

{ miss seora }: where do you want to go?  { miss seora }: do you have any ideas?  { miss seora }: it is a girls night out if it’s only the two of us? 

[chaeyeon👧]: i’m at a loss

[chaeyeon👧]: it’s kinda lame but an aquarium ? 

[chaeyeon👧]: I like to this so *_*

[lizzie-mcguire]

[fmdseora]

fmdtaejin·:

[셀린]: it’s okay i understand you might be embarrassed to come out with that crush [셀린]: i’ll pretend like i didn’t hear it and you can continue to love me from afar~

[BC-깡패]: 15 year old me had terrible taste who knew

[BC-깡패]: are you drunk or just stupid 

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[fmdseora]

fmdtaejin‌:

[셀린]: my ego? i have no idea what you’re talking about [셀린]: moonlit winter? sounds like a cheesy romance movie, what’re you trying to do - ask me out on a date?

[BC-깡패]: sure sure

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[BC-깡패]: in your dreams trust-fund

[BC-깡패]: ass

[fmdseora]

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[fmdseora]

10, 12, 18, 29, 30, 22

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10: Her most used app?  Celine looked over the sticky note again as she checked off Kaoko on the list. “I should probably use Instagram and Twitter more right? I’m sure melody miss me.” If she were to be completely honest using social media as aria got older terrified her. She wasn’t contractually obligated to update her accounts anyways, so her account was bare bones. A few comeback teasers, pictures of her at member solo activities, food truck supports ect. Just enough to avoid her manager’s wrath and to keep her fans happy.

12: “Ahh, would it be greedy of me to ask for a gallery?” This actually happened to be the truth but her hobby of photography was rarely brought up. Still it was just that, a hobby, she just had a cheap disposable camera she had bought from a convenience store. But she was sure it would be misconstrued and she would be bombarded with luxury gifts she didn’t need and a gallery full of pictures her fansites had taken over the years. A part of her deep down secretly hoped they would.

18: already answered here :)

29: “I’d probably be a fisherman?” The truth once again, if her father hadn’t left she’d still be in Jeju helping her relatives on the shore.“Not as glamorous as being aria’s maknae right?” If she never made into Gold Star she couldn’t imagine what would’ve happened to her, she hated being an idol sometimes but it was better than her life as Min Seora. That she was 100% sure of even in the harsh hours of comeback preparation to goodbye stages.

30: “I don’t really have time for myself nowadays but I’d like to try my hand at producing.” “I’ve seen lots of other idols seem to have fun with it including our juniors, but I have no idea how to start.” She laughed to the fan as if they cared, they asked the question but they weren’t there for her. Beside Gold Star would never let her, aria had too much to lose and her area was variety not production.