it's not me, it's you.

mei chao. 1/6 of rosebud. 1/4 of evol.

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molten core!!!

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fmnamseon:

ft. @fmmarie

seonho likes to think he’s a helpful person. even when he’s not doing anything related to knight, he still likes to help out with anyone in the hjh building. not only is it useful for him being able to get a good opinion from other people, but he also just simply feels good helping others. whether it’d be for anything music related or anything personal, he feels as if he tries his best whenever he’s around to help out. 

actually, he’s sort of thought about that today. he intentionally meant to help out evol with recording their comeback by giving them advice and helping out with mixing. but as marie–the worldwide media member of the collab group–walked into the studio, he couldn’t help but feel as if something was off with her. he had managed to befriend her a while ago when it was her first time coming to the building, so he feels as if this gives him the opportunity to solve the mystery.

once she was finished recording her parts, he enters the recording booth with two granola bars: one being for him and the other being for her. “rough day?” he asks her as he hands it to her. “if not, that’s pretty much the look that’s all over your face right now.”

marie prides herself on maintaining her independence. accepting help from others has never been an easy road for her to take — if she can do it herself, she will, and if she can’t, she is stubborn enough to waste her time trying instead of looking for assistance. it is in her blood to handle issues herself.

which is why the vending machine debacle has her thoroughly pressed. a single milk tea remained in the machine — the only machine in the building that carries her favorite brand — and no matter how many coins she shoved in, it refused to budge. the better part of her short break was spent vying for the tea, and yet she reaped no reward. her upset was palpable to the producers, as they exchanged narrow-eyed looks throughout recording, and now even seonho was feeling the waves of her anger. figures. 

“fuckin’... vending machine,” she offered unhelpfully, snatching up the granola bar. “just wanted some damn milk tea. they can fill all of them full of 10 different types of fuckin’ fanta, but can’t even restock my damn tea.” 

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fmremi:

“Yeah, sure.” Remi answered without thinking. A moment later she remembered she wasn’t really a fan of green onions. At least they didn’t have a strong flavour, she’d just add less in hers rather than rejecting Marie’s offer of help. Remi plucked another egg to crack over a bowl, she wasn’t very good at it. Although she avoided getting any shell in the mix, she had to lean awkwardly over the gooey mess as she carried the crumble of shells to the trash can.

“It’s been a while since we’ve had time to make food. Usually at this time we’re running off to promotions and before that it was recording sessions. I don’t know how they expect us to eat healthy when we only have time for vending machine lunches and, like, no breakfast.”

marie hopped off the counter, watching with mild amusement as remi struggled over the eggs. she certainly would not have been much better, but she was just pleased she wasn’t tasked with goopy egg mess, instead just simple chopping. she tugged open the refrigerator door, grabbing some green onions from the shelf.

“i know,” she said with a sigh, as she toted them back to the kitchen counter. “i was having take-out basically every night.” she turned the faucet on the sink, running the onions underneath. “i really can’t believe they have the fuckin’ audacity to tell us to diet, ya know? if you want me to diet, make my damn food for me.” 

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fmhaneul:

( ✰ *. ·| msg⇢ marie who loves me ! ) ⤷ duh girl groups are way fucking better ⤷ no some of the rosebud girls are mean to me after i told one of them what a rosebud is lol ⤷ all of the rappers are good tho… u gotta be specific

( msg — haneul 🙄)  ⤷ for once i actually agree with you ⤷ good! i’m fuckin proud of them!! keep that shit to yourself (`ー´ ) ⤷ she has... brown hair? idk names ok

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⊗ ☼

send ⊗ for a phobia headcanon.

when marie was around three, her older brother joked that monsters come up from the toilet bowl when you flush, and will try and snatch you and drag you under. for years, she was haunted by this idea, and would scurry out of the bathroom the second she flushed. 

send ☼ for a dream headcanon.

marie doesn’t frequently have nightmares, but when she does, they are especially vivid, with an entire constructed storyline and realistic characters. she’ll wake up in a cold sweat, and wont be able to fall back asleep, instead opting to stay up watching cute videos to get her mind off of it. if you ever spot her looking like the living dead, that’s probably why. 

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fmremi:

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“Unnie?” Remi called to her fellow member who sat in the living room. Promotions were now finishing up and the girls got to have some more free time to sit around again. She didn’t look back at Marie as she spoke as she was too focused on scrubbing a frying pan in the kitchen sink. Whoever used it last really let it get crusty, she’d have to ask about that in the future.

“I’m going to make eggs. Scrambled. Should I make extra for you? If you haven’t eaten yet I will, even if you say no.” 

marie was laying flat on her stomach, eyes narrowed intently as she tapped on her phone. with promotions nearing their close, and nothing else filling up her schedule, it was nice to have a bit of time to simply lounge around the dorms. she was in the midst of an especially long go at cookie run when remi called out to her, and her character — cherry blossom, obviously — promptly careened into an obstacle.

marie was an inch away from getting heated, but how could she get mad at remi when all she was doing was offering breakfast? she locked her phone and tucked it into her pocket, rising up from the couch to wander into the kitchen. “that sounds damn good right now, honestly.” she pulled herself up onto the counter, watching as remi went hard on the pan. “you should definitely add some green onions... i can chop some if you want?”

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♬ & ❧

send ♬ for a childhood headcanon.

she desperately wanted a pet bunny growing up, but her parents never let her get one. her brothers both got their own pets — a hamster and a lizard, respectively — but by the time they deemed her mature enough to take care of one, her familial situation was on the decline. she still holds onto the hope that one day hunny will finally come home to her. 

send ❧ for a food headcanon.

marie is an absolute fiend for spicy food, often requesting her dishes as hot as she can get them — the redder, the better. there have been plenty of skeptics of her #skillz in the past, but they are always proven wrong when they return to a plate that has been completely wiped clean.

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❀, ♡, △, ✿

send ❀ for a crush my muse has had.

she has had plenty of celebrity crushes over the years, but her current one is someone from her own company, @fmyaseul. calling out double standards and sexism in the industry is a true way to her heart. 

send ♡ for a friendship headcanon.

marie had a really solid group of friends in high school — including @fmstephanie. she still keeps in contact with all of them to the best of her ability, and her friend who dared her to audition for worldwide media — sam — actually came to one of her very first shows. 

send △ for a sex headcanon. 

marie most often finds herself taking on the dominant position in the bedroom, as she’s much too bossy to have it any other way. there have been a select few sexual partners who have managed to take on that role, but they’re few and far between. 

send ✿ for a happy memory. 

before her father completely fell apart in the face of his addiction, marie was very close with him. she can remember being around four, riding on his shoulders as he ran her around the park, nothing but a stream of uncontrollable laughter. it’s remembering those moments that make the disconnect from him so much more difficult for her. 

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⊗

send ⊗ for a phobia headcanon.

she is very much afraid of heights. she can tolerate being up in a high building, but standing anywhere near the edge has her stressed beyond belief. the youtube videos of slavic men standing perilously on various ledges truly fuel her nightmares. 

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☾ ❀ ♬

send ☾ for a sleep headcanon.

marie has a difficult time getting to sleep unless certain conditions are met. all lights off, door closed, one singular pillow for her head. since becoming an idol, she’s had to grow accustomed to sleeping in circumstances that aren’t optimal, though she can usually only manage a few hours in those cases. 

send ❀ for a crush my muse has had.

marie’s bisexual awakening came in the form of shego. she still has a spot in her heart for her. 

send ♬ for a childhood headcanon.

marie’s eldest brother is really into surfing, and he took her out to try it when she was nine. she was pulled under the water, and emerged with sand filling the entirety of her swimsuit bottoms. she vowed to never surf again.

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♧☠◊

send ♧ for a cooking headcanon.

while marie isn’t the best at cooking, her older brother is, and he taught her a few essential recipes when they were growing up. soups and sandwiches make up the majority of her repertoire, but at least she can assure her members wont starve. 

send ☠ for a death headcanon. 

the first real funeral marie ever attended was her grandmother’s when she was fifteen. before that, she’d only ever been to a funeral for her brother’s pet hamster, cleverly named hammy. she cried at both. 

send ◊ for a headcanon of the mun’s choice.

she used to go to comic/anime conventions in full cosplay. she almost physically fought someone who tried to snatch up the vintage sailor moon figure she wanted. 

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Send ❂ for a like headcanon.

Send ✄ for a favorite movie of my muse’s.

Send ✚ for one of my muse’s prized possessions.

Send ✿ for a happy memory.

Send ♡ for a friendship headcanon.

Send ♬ for a childhood headcanon.

Send ☼ for a dream headcanon.

Send ♧ for a cooking headcanon.

Send ❧ for a food headcanon.

Send ★ for a talent headcanon.

Send ❀ for a crush my muse has had.

Send △ for a sex headcanon.

Send ➷ for a sports headcanon.

Send ♤ for a ‘dislike’ headcanon.

Send ♆ for something my muse hates.

Send ⊗ for a phobia headcanon.

Send ☾ for a sleep headcanon.

Send ✜ for a fear headcanon.

Send ☠ for a death headcanon.

Send ◊ for a headcanon of the mun’s choice.

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MEI ‘MARIE’ CHAO — public instagram.

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fmhaneul:

( ✰ *. ·| msg⇢ marie who loves me ! ) ⤷ i tried but my manager said i cant be in a girl group even if i cut off certain parts of me if u kno what im sayin ⤷ THEY ARE RIGHT LMAOOO ⤷ thank u my best friend in the whole world, they are gonna have two more predebut projects and then debut. SHOOKT to the core 

( msg — haneul 🙄) ⤷ u were really willing to take it that far huh ⤷ maybe u can join in on one of my practices sometime lol ⤷ i think i’ll keep up with them tbh. one of the rappers seems really cool ^^

[declinerewind]

𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒆 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒎𝒐𝒐𝒏 𝒏𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕.

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shilohfm:

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shaking her head of such negative thoughts, knowing that it wasn’t doing her any good to be wondering such things, the long haired rapper would turn to raise an eyebrow at the sound of the door to the practice room opening or more, at the person who had opened it. “marie,” she greeted, surprise clear as day in her voice as she moved to pause the music that was playing. “i thought you went to sleep ? ”

though she would never admit to it, the mounting pressure of success had begun to get to marie as well. the impending comebacks of both rosebud and evol had led to daily schedules stuffed to the absolute brim with activity, with barely a moment for her to stop and catch her breath. she could put on her best outfit and an air of unbothered confidence, taking every passing day of work in stride, but with the coming of the night came a moment to let her guard down.

though she was certain this pressure was much tougher on their leader.

she could be selfish at times, sure, but she’d been with rosebud long enough to sense the ebb and flows of their moods, and shiloh had always pushed herself just a fraction harder than the rest of the girls — late nights dancing herself barren, while the rest of the team were taking advantage of their few hours of sleep. seeing her be so hard on herself, especially after her injury, struck an ache in marie’s heart.

it was three in the damn morning, and marie rolled into the practice room in a t-shirt and sweats — pink, of course — toting boxes of takeout. they were meant to be dieting, but what the higher-ups didn’t know wouldn’t hurt them.

“i did, but i got hungry,” she held out the bag of food, “so take a break and eat with me, okay?”

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fmhaneul:

( ✰ *. ·| msg⇢ marie who loves me ! ) ⤷ we have to PROTECT the gorls in this industry marie its so IMPORTANT ⤷ ( link )

( msg — haneul 🙄)  ⤷ try being a girl in this industry dumbass  ⤷ ...they are cute though ⤷ i’ll stream for a bit 

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fmhaneul:

( ✰ *. ·| msg⇢ marie who loves me ! ) ⤷ stan princess and stream their adore u cover or ur a mennist

( msg — haneul 🙄)  ⤷ sometimes... i really wanna kick ur ass. i hope u know that. ⤷ but i can’t risk being a meninist ⤷ send the link. 

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fmhaneul:

@fmmarie

( ✰ *. ·| msg⇢ marie who loves me ! ) ⤷ I NEED YOU TO ANSWER PLEASE DON’T IGNORE ME TODAY IT IS SO SERIOUSLY IMPORTANT ITS NOT EVEN A JOKE

( msg  — haneul 🙄)  ⤷ i was in the middle of a nap, so this shit better be fucking life changing