Im so tired of it all @foggy-bonez - Tumblr Blog

The days when reading takes too much energy are the hardest

When is it supposed to stop

I hate splitting then being completely unable to fix things because by the time you stopped splitting it was too late

“I want to be the reason you feel safe being soft again.”

I don’t want to fix you—

just sit beside you

until your guard gets tired of standing.

until your hands forget

they were ever braced for impact.

and one day, without noticing,

you’re soft again—

not because of me,

but because you finally could be.

There is something about smoking a cigarette in the rain that reminds me of home

I am so tired of getting told things will get better.

Why must everyone around me deny the reality I live with.

I am sick and never getting better.

That has to be enough because i have nothing else.

Things can never be the same

We will only make the wrong choices again

I was like a bad dog biting at anyone who gets too close

But at least i got to lick wounds in peace

I’m terrified that I am going to be like this forever

Sara Torres, from her novel titled "X Is Where I Am," orginally published in March 2026

Suddenly I don't want anyone to know me as deeply anymore, which is weird because I have always yearned for someone to understand my soul

Maybe i could take up space

I cant keep doing this to myself

The cycle has to end before it is too late

Sometimes i worry in was too harsh with you

Then I remember that no amount of mental illness will make you forgivable

I know better than to speak to you

But some nights i crave your love again just for a moment

No matter how hard I try I never seem to actually get that far

Im so tired of it all