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hi im p and ill be writing for kim yul! so pumped to be here cause im on such a sol kick rn omg pls bro lets write...... like if u wanna plot 💃 i prefer ims and im a little slow but as long as we get the ball rolling we can honestly jst go wild. so without further ado... 🤸

as the story goes, he’s a seomri native who had bigger dreams than the town. he wanted to pursue some great noble job at a good university, but ended up settling for finance because he’s too impatient for anything like medicine or law. he supposes that it doesn’t quite matter because getting accepted into snu business school is still a big feat. yul leaves. 

they remember him as polite, friendly, and kind. the classic good boy with a nice face and a nice body. his parents are the kims that are almost too involved in the community, so it’s no surprise that they brag about him. as far as anybody knows, yul is hardworking and charming: the type to offer to walk you home, to say *no*, the drinks are on him tonight, to fix your sink. it’s too bad that he left to study, but his dreams aren’t something that seomri can offer, anyway. besides, he seems to be faring well circa 2025.

so… why is he back? yul says that he’s taking a break. the big city was just so different and so suffocating and he’s missed seomri. things didn’t align the way he wanted it to, and he doesn’t want to devote himself to something he has no passion in.

the truth: found a side hustle of training fellow students one on one at the campus gym. sells his courses claiming to have certifications. ghosts clients and doesn’t stick around for more than a month. some student posted it on reddit and it spread around social media and his name got out. ended up dropping out on his last year because he got shunned and lost all of his friends. in his defense, they really should’ve known better.

hence, the now: bagging up groceries at seomri grocery. *still* is a personal trainer and advertises his courses to anybody buying protein-rich foods. is he legit this time? who knows. of course, yul is still warm and earnest, still the good guy, still hardworking and charming. at least, that’s what people who are far from the snu campus say.

personality.

so. the million dollar question is… why is he a grifter? the answer is simple and a little disarming and it’s because he was too irresponsible and lazy to keep up with everything. tends to be selfish / self-serving—deliberately puts on the image he has and wants to be seen as good because he likes the validation it gives him. it’s the reason he dropped out in the first place: he places so much importance on the way others view him and it needs to be good. the people at uni don’t anymore. but he’s not willing to put down his pride and work his way back up. is it still a good deed done for others if he likes how it goes back to him?

works hard and plays hard. boundlessly confident yet comes off as the humble small town guy. tends to smile at everything even if it doesn’t match his emotions.

always dapples his fingers through the breeze when he’s driving in a car with the window down. however, he’s now opted for cycling around the town.

dad commutes to the big city to work a nine to five. mom has a lot of time on her hands because she’s a housewife. both of them are too proud and happy to have him back to actually question the validity of anything he’s saying.

always smells vaguely of bergamot and jasmine. the type of guy who loves taking care of himself and it’s evident.

main spawn points: gym, grocery store, dohwa teashop (every morning because he doesn’t drink that unhealthy coffee shit, dude….)

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the people he hung out with growing up. yul is pretty much a chameleon in social situations and he tends to get along well with everybody. maybe that’s also a problem because you were his best friend but he never much seemed to place you on top of his priorities as compared to other people because he’s trying to please everyone.

those who are friends with his mom or his mom is fond of them. dinners with the kim family and he probably has been tasked to give you some leftovers and help you around the house.

he jogs around town then works out before dawn 5x a week so fitness buddy. also his clients he’s training. people he's trying to advertise his side hustle to.

somebody who went to snu or is in the forums or a friend of somebody who’s going to the school so they know exactly who he is. i dont want a blackmail plot though so this can just be a tension elephant in the room situation. they don’t like how he presents himself here

yul is super integrated into the community so he’d know a lot of people from various places and has a lot of surface level friendships. i love brainstorming so let’s plot sexies

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new perspective, ft. @naivemeldy

he wakes with the sun. it’s a habit he’s picked up since the second grade, when he’d wake up with the dawn to run track before school, or head down to get fresh fruit from the farms across from his house. the morning run, along with said sun, pumps a fresh dose of endorphins and a good mood throughout his body. yul doesn’t think about how seomri is now barren ground to him: a home he comes back to only as the last option, only because he has nowhere else to go. the problem with leaving a place is that you can always return back to it.  he left seomri for seoul. he left seoul for seomri. he left behind a husk of whoever he was in this town, and in these streets, he feels himself returning back to it. yul doesn’t like to think that he changed, only that returned back to himself.

at least, it’s what the motivational posters on the oni cafe walls encourage him to think at present. it looks the same, but he knows that it isn’t—maybe it’s because he holds too many memories of studying for the suneung for hours on end here. too much importance held on his tasks that he never looked at the wallpaper.

yul stands around the counter, aimlessly scrolling on his phone while he waits for his usual tea. he hears a familiar voice soon after—one of a reserved, uptight girl who he remembers making a mess in his kitchen for because she was paid by his mom to look  after him. he’s gotten to his rounds of catching up with friends, friends of friends, friends of his parents. yul supposes that he forgot to say hi.

breathing in and moving closer to the counter, he taps on her shoulder. “hey, are you kim hyein?”

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inconsolable, ft. @bloomingrites

yul doesn’t look at the time, but it’s a bit after he showered and dried his hair and changed his shirt. he texted hwayang and invited him over for wine, no thought given whether hwayang is available or even half decent. it wouldn’t make that much of a difference. the dinner table usually cluttered, as you’d expect the living space of two men to be, is now cleaned up. laid atop of it are two glasses — the grocery store ones bought just yesterday after he’d finished up his shift, and a bottle of wine. him and minseok usually opt for beer.

white wine pairs well with fish, but it’s an effort too high for something casual or he’d forgotten to cook it. he’s a glass down with the drinks before hwayang knocked on his door. there’s no excuse for this — getting carried away is an amateur mistake and he’s someone who usually rations and controls his drinking along with everything else and god can hwayang stop staring at him like that. words bubble up in his mouth like carbonation.

he passes his greetings and gives hwayang a squeeze on his shoulders and they talk about things that aren’t all that important. before yul knows it, he’s two glasses down. he’s not fucked up, he just reached highs that take a little time to come down from. everything a hike up to everest. everything so high octane all the time. he’s sure hwayang wouldn’t mind.

“a lot of shit when i was away,” yul says, words slurred and blinking slowed. he’s not sure how they got to this conversation, but he sways his head and runs a hand through his hair. approval and validation comes in different doses but he wonders how far he can push it with hwayang, is what he would think if he was sober. 

“it just made me think i’m not as great as people think i am. it’s just a lot of shit to deal with and i’m not, like, proud of myself for what i’ve done to keep it up, right?” he raises his eyebrows, trying to get a response.

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The King of Staten Island (2020) dir. Judd Apatow

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