Lou and I got back to our room late since the show ran until around 10. The boys and us went out for a drink before heading back to the hotel so we got in around 11:30-12. We collapsed immediately after entering our room, we had gotten a room with a king sized bed because we didnt mind sharing a bed.
I was awoken by Lou sleepily hitting me saying something along the lines of ‘youre a twat’ before rolling back over. She was referring to my phone that was ringing. I picked it up with my eyes still closed.
“Hello?” I asked half asleep
“Y/N” a deep voice asked through the phone. My heart dropped as I recognized who it was. Bennie. My ex. I had left him back in London ending things on a bad note. He was controlling and was starting to get aggressive. To say the least he is now stalking me.
“What do you want.” I asked coldly sitting up
“I miss you baby please come home.” he pleaded
“Dont call me baby. Its over Bennie.” I scoffed hanging up the phone. I felt sick to my stomach that he was still able to have such a hold over me. I got up walking to the bathroom, throwing some water on my face to get the image of Bennie out of my head. We hadnt been together long, a little 8 months. At first it was great but I knew I had to get out of it once be started to control everything i was doing. A knock on the door pulled me out of my thoughts. I went to the door pulling it open just a crack.
“Hey Y/N I was won- whats wrong?” Harry was standing in front of me looking down at me with concerned filled eyes.
“H-hey Im good, whats up?” I tried to pull a smile on my face even though I felt sick from hearing Bennies voice. Harry still seemed suspicious but he dropped it.
“I was wondering if Lou and you wanted to go out to breakfast with me?” He said with his heart melting smile
“Lou’s still asleep but Im starving so Id love to go, let me throw on some pants” I said with a giggle realizing I was in only a long shirt. I closed the door quickly grabbing some pants.
I woke up in a slightly bad mood. I had such a great time last night, the show turned out amazing, and Y/N she was just great. I felt like I did better that night because I was excited to get back to Y/N to talk to her. She was so sweet and she really listened. I just couldnt help but think about her, I still didnt know a whole lot about her but from what Ive seen and heard from Lou she was amazing.
I wanted to see her again and talk to her more, so I got up threw won some clothes and went to her room to invite her and Lou to come to breakfast with me. When she opened the door she looked like she was upset I could tell by the look on her face. I asked her what was up but she just pushed that aside agreeing to go out to eat with me. She ran back in her room telling me she needed to put pants on and I almost collapsed right there. She was so cute in an oversized tshirt her hair was tousled, she was just so cute. Not to mention how much shorter she was than me her head came up to my chest I loved that.
She emerged wearing loose gray dress she had just ran a hand threw her hair to make it a little less messy. She was stunning.
“You ready to go?” I asked smiling as she walked out
“Yup! I left a note for Lou, Ill bring her something back but I felt bad waking her” she said looking down at her shoes. “Do I look okay? I dont want to make you look bad if there are paps.”
I stopped and looked at her “Y/N you look grea” I paused “dont ever worry about making us look bad you couldnt if you tried.” I said the second part more to myself than to her but Im pretty sure she could have heard since she blushed looking away.
We went to a restaurant that was close to our hotel we sat by the window so that we could people watch. We both ordered coffee, pancakes, and bacon. We talked and laughed and ate. We talked about everything even the dumbest things, I got to know alot about her and how she was interested in the same line of work as Lou. That she loved her family and kids, that she loved animals, playing soccer. We had a lot in common, and even the things that we didnt it clicked.
“So how do you like being on tour?” I asked after laughing with her about a story she was telling me about highschool.
“I love it” she said smiling at her plate “Its so much fun, I mean i haven’t been here long at all but its been great you guys are all amazing and I love that I get to work with Lou!” she said now looking at me I could see the excitement in her face. Her eyes still seemed a bit sad.
Frowning I asked “So Y/N what happened earlier?”
Her face dropped a little and she sighed “Well my ex Bennie is sort of stalking me..” she trailed off I could tell that she was getting nervous. “We dated for a while and then he got controlling and aggressive so I ended it and it didnt go well. That happened right before i was brought on tour actually.”
“Y/N im so sorry. Thats awful hey were all here for you and if you need anything im here for you” I said reaching across the table to squeeze her hand.
It felt good to tell someone about Bennie, get it off my chest. Harry was so sweet he really listened to me and we got to know each other really well. I liked talking to him he knew how to put a smile on my face. I had finished telling him all about Bennie and he grabbed my hand trying to comfort me. Honestly it really did help, he was looking at me with those amazing emerald eyes. The sun was shinning on him and I couldnt help was look at him in awe.
I squeezed his hand too “Thank you Harry really, It means a lot. I dont generally talk about it because I dont want to bother people with my issues.” I said truthfully
“Im glad you told me, im here for you. We all are.” He said smiling at me. We payed for our meal and the food I was bringing back to Lou. We walked back to the hotel joking around walking up to it there were paps every where.
“Harry is this your girlfriend?”
“Is she your next fling?”
“Are you just messing around with her?”
He got tense when we walked by them, I could feel his body change he moved closer to me and grabbed my hand pulling me through the front doors and rushing us into the elevator. He was mad I could tell he was huffing when the elevator doors closed, he was still holding my hand.
“Y/N im sorry.” He said angrily “There will most likely be a story about you and i and that im using you and that am I bad guy, so Im sorry for that.” he paused shaking his head “we shouldnt have gone out together this always happens.” He slammed his hand on the wall of the elevator making me jump a little. He was so angry I could literally feel the heat radiating off his body.
I went in front of him, I was between him and the wall now. He was angry which slightly scared me but I understood. I had seen to stories about him with girls and they were brutal.
“Harry look at me” I said trying to get his attention off of this. He looked up from the floor and I could tell that his eyes were sad even though he was fuming. “Harry itll be okay”
“No it wont Y/N! This will ruin my relationship with you, youll hate me because of what they say about me.” He said I could tell he was getting sadder by the moment.
“Please dont worry about me honestly im not going anywhere regardless of the stories I know you. Hell we just spent breakfast together getting to know you and from what ive seen youre not like that” I said smiling with a little giggle thinking about the conversations weve had.
Suddenly his large hands were on either side of my face and he was pushing me up against the wall he was breathing heavily resting his forehead against mine.
I needed her. Right in that moment I couldnt help my self. She had heard the things being shouted and Im sure shed seen the stories written about me and yet she was telling me it was okay. I wanted her. From the moment I met her I wanted her she was gorgeous, smart, and so easy to talk to. I had her right there in front of me, I was holding her so close to me. I had her right there and she didnt try to back away from me she didnt move she just looked at me with those soft eyes of her.
I moved in slowly leaning my forehead against hers, she didnt try to back away from me when i did this. She moved her hands up my forearms to rest them on my wrists. I closed my eyes at her touch. I dont know what had gotten into me but she was perfect and I wanted to be with her right now. Next thing I know I was pressing my lips to her soft pink ones. I pushed all the emotions onto her I dont know if I kissed her because I was so angry and sad I needed some relief or because I really needed her lips. I knew I wanted her but I didnt know how much until I kissed her.
I moved my hands to behind her head to deepen the kiss. I could feel a small moan coming from her making me go crazy. She didnt reject me she didnt move either.
I was so stunned I didnt know what to do. There were so many emotions running through my head. He had moved his hands to the back of my head deepening the kiss. I didnt know what to do but I didnt want it to stop. I kissed him back pulling my hands at his shirt for him to move closer. He walked closer to me and pushed his body against mine do I was full pressed against the elevator wall now.
It was so needy and so emotional. I could feel his emotions coming into that kiss and I could feel how much he needed someone right in that moment. I ran my hands up his sides and they landed in his hair I lightly tugged on his long curls and he moaned into my mouth. Things were getting heated quickly.
The elevator door dinged and you two broke apart quickly breathing heavily. There were some guests waiting to enter the elevator so harry and you walked off and into the hallway.
“Y/N” harry said breathlessly. His eyes filled with lust. He pushed some of your hair behind your ear. He was going to say something but
“Owe mate!” you heard an Irish accent yell from behind harry. Niall. Harry spun around and you moved to see niall. He ran up to you guys his blue eyes shinning.
“Y/N! Hey howd you sleep?” He asked
“Great Ni! What about you?” I said smiling at how happy and bouncy he was.
“Great sorry to interupt but Harry we gotta go we have a meeting to get to.” He said
“Alright Ill be right there, yeah?” Harry said looking to you and then back at Niall. He nodded saying he needed to check in with the other boys so he would meet up with them later. Harry turned back to you.
“You should go” I said brushing his hand
“Okay but I really need to tell you something! It can wait I guess.” He said smiling at me. He kissed my forehead and told me hed catch up with me later. He ran off to go find the other boys. I walked back to my room closing the door behind me leaning against it taking in what had just happened. He had kissed me.
Harry styles had kissed me. My lips burned from where they had just been, I could still feel his hands on me and the way he felt pressed against me.
I think that I had started getting feelings for him.
