[forechd]

guys i'm not doing well stop asking me for help i live during war. it's air alarm every day and every night, explosion and enemy's air targets.

[instigatorjosten]

as a bilingual i can testify for jean. we are so much funnier in our own language, i promise you we are seeing jean at 20% of his potential. which tells you a lot bc he’s iconic in english anyway

[herondaleoffspring]

matt: why are you smiling?

neil: i'm just happy

andrew: riko is dead

[forechd]

every day is the best day to cosplay Kevin Day. just saying. *take shot of vodka*

[forechd]

another day another Kevin Day cosplay *take shot of vodka*

[forechd]

it's hard for me to imagine Andrew and Neil together. i read their trilogy twice, first one especially for bl line but i cannot. it still seems like Andrew was fall in love with Neil, and Neil choose to love him mutually just because Andrew say about blow, and after that Neil finally understand Andrew's feeling. maybe i am demisexual too, but at this time i still don't believe in their relationships.

[marzipanthots]

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Chapter 51 of darkheir is officially done (I’m never gonna do this again. Actually I’m a big fat liar I might depending on book 3 gosh golly fatigue is no joke.) had a lot of fun. It’s great to experiment. Special shout out to all my great mutuals supporters and close friends.💕💕💕

[forechd]

i'm thinking about one strange thought. JereJean will kiss, but their relationships may going so slow for sex. so. what it would be if Jeremy will need hook up for his reasons. he isn't person which can betray. but his desire may be so hard. what he would do? just going cross this line with Jean as fast as he need even if he can injury him with that? or he will be endure? or Jean will cross this line first when he saw Jeremy's hesitations? or he will allow Jeremy doing with him everything which he want?

many questions, few answers.

[forechd]

just my opinion. are you remember when Neil appears at the Jean's door and take him? when they were talking about Grayson, Jean mentioned Drake. and Neil was like "why are you mentioned him?" after that, he understand everything. so. you aren't think it's about parallel between Andrew and Jean? why people think that at this moment Jean can handle sex or another interaction? it may take so much time to Jean to learn how to gets enjoy from another people's touch and etc. he is just traumatized boy.

how you can think that something between Jeremy and Jean would be happen as fast as posible? yeah, i like opinion that Jeremy would wait for Jean as much as need. but this thoughts especially about Jeremy which use hook up to quickly relieve tension. i know that Jeremy don't betray own partner. but what he will do aither to relieve tension? sεlf hαrm, less sleep more practice? it's so thin ice to go through him.

[forechd]

Genuinely and in the nicest way possible, I think you need to reread the books. You’ve clearly completely missed the reasoning Jeremy goes about his hookups how and how often he does. Have you seen any of the other Jeremy discourse on here?

Also if you’re going to post about it, then turn around and respond to people’s comments like “your opinion means nothing to me” then why post at all?

just because i wanna say what i want and practicing english language. that's all.

btw people which open for conversation ask under post, non anonymous question🫡

[forechd]

jeremy is not going to fuck other people when him and jean get together oh my god

so brave to think that your opinion is matter for me. go touch the grass.

[forechd]

i'm thinking about one strange thought. JereJean will kiss, but their relationships may going so slow for sex. so. what it would be if Jeremy will need hook up for his reasons. he isn't person which can betray. but his desire may be so hard. what he would do? just going cross this line with Jean as fast as he need even if he can injury him with that? or he will be endure? or Jean will cross this line first when he saw Jeremy's hesitations? or he will allow Jeremy doing with him everything which he want?

many questions, few answers.

[zombiecowboy65]

Hope during the foxes and Trojans game Jean asks kevin “does this mean you’re my fan now, too?”

[theshortjew2]

one thing i’m not seeing much of in the “jeremy uses sex as self-harm” conversation is that, i think, there’s some strategy on his part as to when and with whom he has sex. he has sex to distract himself from his inner turmoil, to chase the high that hooking up brings him. and i was thinking, okay, that tracks, but why not hook up with someone nicer? and i’ve thought of two core reasons:

1. he goes to people he knows will say yes

2. he goes to people he knows will say yes regardless of his well-being and who will not ask him what’s wrong/try to check in on him

jeremy does not want to confront his mental health struggles in general, but especially not in the moment of a crisis. while not the same, we know neil dissociated so hard at evermore that he didn’t even know how he got back home. jeremy, however, continuously forcefully rips his thoughts away from unpacking his relationship with his family. sex is one of the main ways he does this! so for there to be a possibility of a hook up saying “i won’t do this with you while you’re so worked up” or “what’s going on? talk to me” is far too scary a risk for him to even consider taking in his moments of weakness. he just wants to hook up with someone who will use his body like a means to an end. he wants to feel pleasure, numb the pain, and leave. he has a list of people who will say yes to him 10/10 times, regardless of how he’s doing. why find anyone new to screw around with? jeremy’s probably thinking, “does it even matter how he treats me if i just want to feel good physically? it’s not like he’s my boyfriend?”

do i think some of the sex stuff is self-harm because he actively seeks out people who mistreat him? for sure. but i think a lot of this is part of an elaborate strategy to avoid confronting his feelings.

personally very interested to see where jean might fit into this dynamic.

[playthe-piper]

I’m gonna giggle if we end up getting as TSC4 after TSC3 and jerejean doesn’t get together for another book

[forechd]

i'm gonna cry

[forechd]

every day is the best day to cosplay Kevin Day. just saying. *take shot of vodka*

[mothman-stole-my-eyebrows]

Looks like I’m cosplaying Kevin Day this weekend

[forechd]

i'm cosplaying Kevin every day at this week

[forechd]

every day is the best day to cosplay Kevin Day. just saying. *take shot of vodka*

[alalalalaa]

the one thing i need from tsc3 is a confirmation that kevin knew about jean's feelings

[forechd]

i don't know what worst if he knew but left him anyway or if Jean meaned nothing in his life

[animentality]

a wonderful ao3 author note

[forechd]

it looks like my life