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My name is Ann. I’m 30 years old. I live in upstate New York. I am what some would call a “conspiracy theorist”. I want to know the truth. I don’t want to stay in this state of hypnosis it seems we’re all in. I want to learn more about what’s really going on in the world around us. I want to be awake. If you want to know more please feel free to message me.

[perrfectly]

[foreveraconspiracytheorist]

If anybody is interested in, or even just entertained by, the alleged existance of a darker Hollywood and the illuminati and all that, this podcast is amazing. He even talks about the possibility of actors and actresses/music artists being possessed by actual entities in order to become the character they needed, (that's at like 49:34 if you're interested). I don't believe everything he talks on, but it's a really interesting listen either way.

[nuclearbummer]

[forevertheangrygirl]

These dreams are getting so unsettling. And the fact that it's always the same sensation, just in different situations. It's always a loud, pulsing feeling. Tonight it was Storie and I was staying in a cabin in the woods. Or maybe it was Val because Becca was there too, and she was saying Joey was rude af for not letting us use the switch or something. Anyway, there's this feeling that we've been there for a while, we're comfortable but bored. I'm sitting on a couch, Stories across the room a bit on a computer chair at a desk I think. I accidentally spill root beer on the floor. Ronan is there and he immediately comes and laps it up, like intensely. It makes him anxious and weird. I stop him and clean up the rest, sit back down on the couch, leaning over the arm to the left because we're having a conversation and I want to see her. The window to the right of the couch, we hear something in the distance. At first it sounds like some kind of animal call. It happens a couple times and then it sounds like it's getting closer, and louder. The calls are coming more frequently, close together, even louder. It's getting even closer. Sounds like outside the cabin. It sounds like a siren. I get scared, slowly put my head down on the arm rest and close my eyes. Tell myself to just go to sleep. But I know I'm dreaming so it's more telling myself to wake up. It's so loud, I wish I could explain it better. Like it's turned into... A mechanical siren sound. A frequency, a tone. But it's so loud it's vibrating my ear drums and it's on top of us. I'm so scared. Even thinking about it I'm scared. If I was still with Jay this is one of the dreams I wouldve woken him up for so I didn't have to be alone anymore. Anyway, thankfully, the sound moves past us and while I'm afraid to put my head up, Storie says something like "wow now I can see more teal". And I agree just to get away from the scary energy of being so fearful. Making light of the situation to make it less scary. Then I wake up. I already got up out of bed turned on the lights just to go use the bathroom. Flushed the toilet to break the silence as well. I secretly hoped it would wake Storie up so I wouldn't be alone anymore. Even if I'm in my room, just hearing her up and moving would make me feel better. She didn't though. Ronan moved though so that's something. And now I'm watching fun YouTube videos and snacking on flamin hots. Trying to rid my body of that fear. I hate it so much. It makes me feel so helpless.

I've had this sensation in multiple dreams. Either looking into a TV, or when something traumatic is happening, or as a weapon for some unknown bad guy. It scares me that it feels like a loud all encompassing frequency. And that I usually tell myself to wake up when it happens. I don't want to say what it brings to mind.

And now I realize my YouTube video has switched to a star wars product review video. Coolcool.

Might post this in some fb groups to see if others have this dream. If it's a common happening. If we're all dreading this feeling of.. It's almost falling into a black hole.

Oh and then when I woke up I had a message from the guy I've been waiting months to hear from, that's been super cryptic and saying he couldn't talk or tell me what was going on. Idk. I'm so tired but now I'm scared.

[foreveraconspiracytheorist]

More high thoughts.

[foreveraconspiracytheorist]

High thoughts from years ago, going through my note app.

[forevertheangrygirl]

If dreams are peeks into other realities of our own, and dejavu is when another you pops into your consciousness for a bit, in a "dream", then when I'm sitting on the couch and I get the feeling I'm back in my dream from the night before, I'm actually moving through dimensions. Or part of my consciousness is. Which maybe means I can Astral travel, if I get the rest of my consciousness on board.

[spacemancharisma]

I am dying for tiktok witches to give me all the details on the governments secret coven of spellcasters employed to make sure that white people burning fruit can’t hurt any politicians with their psychic beams

[forevertheangrygirl]

Reblogging because this is actually true and not a joke.

[foreveraconspiracytheorist]

Should've reblogged here as well.

[foreveraconspiracytheorist]

Hey, so, I am still here. And now I have all the freedom in the world to dive back into this stuff. This energy. I have podcasts I could listen to and share, websites to check regularly for the latest in occultism in the music industry. But I am learning that what was always said is actually true. What you focus on, what you give energy to, is what's created in your timeline.

I used to feel so strongly about exposing the evil in Hollywood and politics, I think because I was tapping into that reality. Possibly because in a past life I was a victim of it. I had to be. And it's still very interesting to me. I still see superbowl halftime show recaps and think "wow, they're getting so obvious about it". I still watch stranger things and talk about how these things exist and tell my friends about mk ultra and project paperclip. And I've recently FINALLY started watching x files. I'm mad I didn't watch it when I was younger, I would've been SO VALIDATED with everything that interested me but that nobody else knew about so I was made to feel crazy. I love watching it with my friend and knowing what's going on before they even say it. I feel smart, which is rare. I feel knowledgeable. But I don't know if that's the path I need to take. It might be, because I think I'm a shadow worker. But im also something else that feels like the complete opposite.

I'm an energy worker, for sure. I feel it in my hands and feet daily now. I've had my first reiki attunement and the reiki master had a weird experience with my visualization that she's never had before. I am special and I'm not afraid to say it anymore. Or maybe I am, and that's why I'm only saying it on a conspiracy blog I'm not sure if anyone even follows anymore.

But I feel this strong urge to bring in peace. Even with roe v wade, where I usually feel I need to protest, need to be angry, instead I'm getting downloads about going and meditating at the local peace pagoda. To bring in that energy instead. I'm not sure how to be both. Maybe I can, maybe that's my calling.

Either way, maybe I'll post more on here. If you're curious about what I've been doing here's my main blog, which Im on sometimes, and my tiktok, which I'm trying to post more on.

Forevertheangrygirl.tumblr.com

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRR1XuNG/

[revolutionarykoolaid]

Wow, American Horror Story: Apocalypse looks wild!

[christel-thoughts]

A recap

Sometime before Beyonce was 21, likely around 18, Jay-Z sets his sights on her. The youngest he could have possibly been was 30.

The day she turned 21, he asked her to “go steady” by saying “Don’t embarrass me”. He was cheating the whole time. She had just turned 21 so he would be 33 in 3 months. This is in 2002. That same year Destiny’s Child announced a hiatus. They would release their final album in 2004.

Jay repeatedly boasts about the baddest chick in the game wearing his chain. He’s still cheating left and right.

Destiny’s Child has their last performance in 2006.

“I am alone at a crossroads. I’m not at home in my own home and I’ve tried and tried to say what’s on my mind.” - 2007

Bey married Jay in 2008. He’s still cheating.

She has a few miscarriages. Finds out her dad’s a sack of shit with all types of outside children. Is CONSTANTLY attacked by white feminists. Is told she isn’t open enough and consistently critiqued for “not being real” as she sings about this man, who has been grooming her to deal with his shit since she was 18 and he was 30, treating her terribly and constantly breaking her heart. Home is not the refuge is should be, not at all. Her husband is still cheating and, by his own admission, is not emotionally supportive in the slightest.

The Grammys keep finding reasons to rob her and taint the one thing still kinda working the way she needs. Her husband is still cheating. He’s having threesomes and shit. Still bragging about the hottest chick in the game wearing his chain though. Because, apparently, that’s all she was to him. A trophy.

2011- she’s still trying desperately to get him to be better. She’s still thinking she’s not doing something right (that’s what “getting in early” does for these men). This is when we get that epic love letter to Jay-Z in the album “4”.

She’s finally able to carry a child to term, but not without people constantly accusing her of lying about being pregnant and saying the baby isn’t hers.

Blue’s arrival and Beyonce’s reflection of the hell she’s been dealing with get her to finally consider leaving for real and for good. She’s about to walk away.

With Blue’s arrival, Jay finally thinks he should treat his wife better. It’s 2012. He’s been treating her like absolute shit, after grooming her to take the emotional abuse, for 11 years.

2013 - Beyonce starts telling her story in the eponymous album.

2015, once Blue is old enough to notice things start forming her understanding of relationships, LEMONADE. Trash men get angry at her “airing their dirty laundry”. Delusional stans of the relationship swear it’s not about them but her parents. Stans refusing to believe this man is who he is is part of her hell.

2017 - Jay-Z FINALLY admits to how trash he was, chalks it up to her maturing faster than him. Again…she was 18 when this started. He was 30.

[antinwo]

http://www.inquisitr.com/1917650/our-moon-is-an-alien-ufo-spaceship-parked-in-orbit-around-earth-ufologists-claim/

http://www.utaot.com/2013/08/16/incredible-quotes-about-the-moon/

[antinwo]

http://www.theinsider.org/news/article.asp?id=0228

http://www.independent.co.uk/news/world/middle-east/americas-secret-plan-to-arm-libyas-rebels-2234227.html

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/worldnews/africaandindianocean/libya/8407047/Libyan-rebel-commander-admits-his-fighters-have-al-Qaeda-links.html

http://www.newsmax.com/Newsfront/al-Qaida-Libya-Benghazi-weapons/2014/04/23/id/567223/

http://www.ynetnews.com/articles/0,7340,L-4395445,00.html

http://www.usatoday.com/story/news/world/2013/04/11/syria-al-qaeda-connection/2075323/ / http://www.nytimes.com/2012/12/09/world/middleeast/syrian-rebels-tied-to-al-qaeda-play-key-role-in-war.html?pagewanted=all&_r=0

http://www.wnd.com/2014/06/officials-u-s-trained-isis-at-secret-base-in-jordan/?cat_orig=world / http://www.ibtimes.co.in/iraq-crisis-isis-terrorists-were-trained-by-us-2012-syria-conflict-602594

http://www.theguardian.com/world/2014/jul/21/government-agents-directly-involved-us-terror-plots-report

[generationexorcist]

10 Things You Should Know About the Reptilian Conspiracy Theory. 

No, we’re not talking about lizards driving around in fancy cars – though that’s not far off from what some people believe is happening. The concept was brought to popularity by former BBC sports writer and self-proclaimed “son of God”, David Icke in his 1999 book The Biggest Secret: The Book That Will Change the World. In the book, Icke posits that society is controlled by humanoid reptiles. For the sake of simplicity, we will call them the Reptilians. While it may sound like a wildly outlandish conspiracy theory, approximately 12 million Americans believe that it’s actually true and there is a conspiracy against humans perpetrated by the Reptilians.

Of course, it’s important to point out that there is only anecdotal information (at best) to back up any of these claims. So while none of it may be true, it’s still a fascinating and elaborate theory about how some people see the inner workings of the world. Source: Top Tenz

[skimmingfourstones]

[foreveraconspiracytheorist]

Hm...you don’t say

[siamusic]

[foreveraconspiracytheorist]

Kinda did an experiment last night.

Didn't think about them all day long. Watched a really nice happy show before bed. I was tired and thought I was gonna have no problems falling asleep. I thought about them for like an instance as I was falling asleep. It was an accident and I quickly changed my thought patterns but I guess it was already too late. I didn't actually fall into deep sleep at all. Kept waking up 1 minute before all the times. When I almost did fall asleep I was woken up by a weird shaky feeling, as if I was slightly vibrating. I curled into my boyfriend hoping I would feel safer but because he was deeply sleeping it didn't help much. I was on the cusp of sleep for 4 hours before my alarm went off and I got up for work. I've never been so thankful for a 530 am store before.