Today was supposed to have been a fun and loving day that I and my beloved have looked forward to for months... but that is not the way it worked our.
See, I have this innate ability to screw eveupid and rything up! That is the story of my life! I mean I finally get to be the one person who loves me as much as I love them, but it comes at a time when my health, and theirs, is failing. Although we both do all we can without sharing our pain and ailments with the other, we are both very aware.
Anyway, me in my uncanny ability to ruin not only my world but the life of any one close to me, has once again succeeded in causing misery for us both and hurting the feelings of the one person I love more than life!
I can only hope that we can get past this and my love can find a way to forgive me. Our argument was rather stupid and 100% my fault. All I can say is that maybe at some point I will learn to just shut up, and leave the past in the past! If I can every accomplish that, maybe we can find a modicum of happiness together once again. I am still adjusting to having someone in my life who loves and cares about me and enjoys my company.... or at least used to!
