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albusthefakepitbull dog blog

[albusthefakepitbull]

so gonna preface this with i don’t expect anyone to help but i figured i’d throw it out there

the last year of my life has been hell, i lost my vehicle, my partner and my income. i’ve been able to go back to sex work but due to my job being 1 1/2 hours away i have to rely on rides (i have to pay to uber to the rides house and home), and my ride to work is consistently unreliable. my landlord is raising my rent also. i have found a place to rent in colorado, transport for the horses and a few barns. but saving for the move has been hard with inconsistent work. if anyone has anything to throw at us we’d be so grateful. moving back to colorado would mean a support system, easier access to work (living closer to clubs, having different ones plus normal jobs pay more), being around friends which i so desperately need for my mental health. i truly have no one out here and i’m on the edge, if i didn’t have the animals i’d of checked myself into the hospital honestly

thanks for reading ✨

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[chaumas-deactivated20240115]

I have a new coworker and my boss was like “oh yeah one of the reasons I hired him was because I thought you’d get along”. Which

sort of makes me feel like a cheetah in a zoo getting assigned a service dog to help tame my neuroses

kind of offends me because he’s a mellow nerdy socialist flatcap pinstripe vest beardguy who I’m sure plays accordion or banjo or ukulele, which is a whole Type of Guy

frustrates me because I DO genuinely like and get along with him… goddammit it’s working…

[chaumas-deactivated20240115]

oh he’s bisexual that explains it

[chaumas-deactivated20240115]

“don’t you love when you get to be somebody’s manic pixie dream park ranger?” yeah okay touché boss touché

[solitarelee]

your boss is deadass adding new species to your enclosure one at a time to see how you adjust to the new stimulus

[filthyprotozoan]

a venn diagram of love vs. grief

[escuerzoresucitado]

they are really fuckin these snails up

[onion-souls]

gaslight gatekeep gastropod

[gideonisms]

I LOVE being alive so I can be mediocre at SO many different hobbies

[thursday]

Reblog with what you would tell your 13-year-old self in the tags.

[gatheringbones]

people who couldn’t afford therapy have been doing postgraduate trauma work in communion with one another for longer than you or I have been alive

[gatheringbones]

the more the united states weaponizes diagnoses of autism and anxiety and depression against trans people the more we’re all going to have to learn to take care of one another in ways that can’t be tracked and documented and turned against us by the state

[parkchanwoohoo]

Years on the internet and somehow i still click on comments sections with the insanely optimistic idea that I'll learn something new instead of being subjected to the dumbest motherfuckers online typing like their sole purpose in life is to make me want to end mine

[typewriter-worries]

something something when you can hear the whisper of love in the pauses between words something something

[typewriter-worries]

something something the love was always implied you never needed to say it out loud something something

[wretchedly]

Just saw the best tag to ever grace any of my posts

[anxietyproblem]

[scarletfern]

[hotdemonladyluna]

[animentality]

[sweetdreamspootypie]

The other day I saw a YouTuber I follow make a text post that said almost verbatim "sometimes I when I watch a thought provoking movie, I find I think about it for several days afterwards." the highlighted comment was someone saying "I think that's called hyperfixation?"

People seem to be increasingly oblivious to the difference between thinking about or liking something, fixating or focusing on it, and /hyper/fixation as a disxriptor of the extreme of this that occurs in neurodivergent people.

If someone reads "I think about things sometimes" and sees "hyperfixation", then I can totally see it following that "I think about people sometimes" becomes synonymous with "I am an obsessive creepy stalker with no boundaries"

Which. Sure is something.

Obviously the trend of people being weird about 'you need consent to have a crush, but also crushes are a sin' has been a slow rolling train wreck for a few years now, but seeing that YouTube comment made something click for me

[notgreatthanks]

[moveslikekeithrichards]

garlic & ginger are wives & they live together in a cottage made of dirt

[moveslikekeithrichards]

& every day they go out and have Insane Scex in a frying pan .

[ruhlare]

the goal is to recycle pain into love. to translate pain into tenderness. to use pain to build instead of to destroy.

[dreamlogic]

this reminds me of a short poem my younger brother wrote in his 3rd grade art class that i still think is one of the rawest lines in the english language:

"the pounding heart cries / it makes the noise of great hurt / turning into love."

[iamnotlanuk]

The pain is more incredibly annoying than unbearable

[iamnotlanuk]

I can bear it but come on

[adambuffett]

[camilius-2st]

[imissthembutitwasntadisaster]

100k slowburn but it’s just two people going from work friends to real friends