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It’s about time I just started making small art projects for me, just making things from whimsy and searching for ways to put down how I feel In given moments, maybe random scribbles of incoherent writings and rough patches of sketch work here and there. I would post to instagram but kinda feel that’s where my “work” art goes.

possibly stay turned for more insanity, given my adhd grants me the privilege of pushing for more of these spur of the moment doodles.

#Doodle #Scribbles #Messy #Emotional

No more posts?? :]

I stopped so long ago. Tumblr is lame without porn lmao

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If you’re a Capricorn, you can relate!

Just gotta say that black pride in America is not about African heritage, they denounce that most commonly. So they actually have more in common with white Americans since they are just both Americans. Black heritage in America is about slavery and they don’t look further back than that thus why they are fueled by anger because all black Americans have for history is oppression. Both black and white need to form a new model of history and move past the past because only modeling your entire identity in a corrupt past is no way to establish a better future. What I’m saying is - black and white racism in America specifically is 2 sides of the same coin. Stop punishing yourselves by punishing each other. Please

Looking at America today it resembles someone punishing themselves for the sins of their past and not quite acknoledging that ironical they as a Christian nation have the ability to baptize themselves of their sins but also that same spiritual connection to an external God is hindering towards responsibilities. Once People come to realize that we did not come to earth. We came from earth. We are God. And we are working on a God Machine. Fully externalizing the divinity within us. Then maybe people can gain composure.

Most answers we seek come from taking to the plants. Drugs are alienated so strongly because it gives us alternate beings to commune with. Ones that are much wiser and older than us. Science agrees that plants use chemistry to “talk” to one another and that leads me to conclude that the drugs plants create is their method of control. Much like bees are drawn to pollen.

#writing #randomthoughts

Ever have those moments where you are talking about something in particular or someone and then they/it shows up a minute later as some incarnation of what was just said? I know these as synchronicities but though it has a name it still doesn’t make it any less unsettling to experience. I’ve seen my words and thoughts cast out like spells and I can’t shake off this feeling that we all have more power over each other than we intend too. I have a lot of these experiences, those described by the likes of Aleister Crowley and Terrence McKenna and rasputin. And feel I’ve inherited unknowingly the path of mages and wizards and I’m losing control. I don’t let myself tap into that world but it forces itself in front of me time and time again like slaps to my face to pay it more mind. Those around me do not understand my humble path and I cannot give chase the way I am now. Told that I am not adult if I do not take on more worldly responsibilities yet my mind tells me to avoid those things. Cars, money, family, possessions of any kind. Fun and distractions as they are I wish to pull away from it. All of it except those pertaining to my art and sense of child bewilderment. If I can manage my life to be as fun as the games I play and as beautiful as I want my art too be then I think I will find my core happiness.

#writing #randomthoughts

Pain. Not the hollering sharp pain. The faint itchy intolerable pain like that of torture devices like bamboo that grows through oneself. That’s what I’ve felt for nearly a decade. The sensation of corrosion that comes with bad decisions and getting older.