hey there, call me Artie or Yarrow or Psalter / Psaltery (thirty, he/they or even ve/vem/ver if you're feeling fancy). this is a personal + selfship + writing blog. formerly fellcurses. non-selfshippers are more than welcome to follow so long as you're not gonna act like it's your first day on earth when the selfshipper posts selfship stuff. i like FromSoftware games, Resident Evil, Pyramid Collection vibes, historical fashion, opera and theatre, and lore discussion. attempting to learn Hindi. check out my links to know more, and you can find DNI / BYF notes below the cut.
Links
π―οΈ strawpage π―οΈ f/o list π―οΈ aesthetics tag π―οΈ nsfw/kink sideblog π―οΈ
BYF + DNI
DNI: minors dnf. like i say in my strawpage, i hate imperialism, colonialism, billionaires, and traditional values, and we have nothing to talk about if you are an apologist of those things. i'm too old to get heated about shipping discourse, but i am gonna draw the line and block you if you've built your entire blog identity around how edgy proship/darkship you are. if you have some shit take about how pedos or zoophiles belong in the queer community, understand that i'd hunt you for sport if i could. now bear with me for my BYF that reads like a contract.
BYF:
βοΈ i am critical of the media and characters i enjoy, but i'm not going to perform evangelical levels of moral agonizing about it for the approval of internet randos. if you need constant reassurance about what i do and don't condone in real life, then this is likely not a good blog for you to follow.
βοΈ sharing is complicated but also not that big a deal for me, so mostly i consider myself mirrorsharing. and let's be absolutely clear, i think being hostile and territorial toward selfship doubles instead of hardblocking and moving on is shithead behavior.
βοΈ note to other selfship blogs specifically: i interact with mutuals who interact with me. i'm not going to keep liking/reblogging your selfship posts if you've never done the same for any of mine, and sometimes i softblock about it. i am happy to be a mutual, i'm always down to make friends, but i am nobody's fan and i am not here to pad out your follower count. non-selfship blogs can totally disregard this, it's a community-specific grievance.
βοΈ spam liking/rbing is not only fine, it's good. frankly, people who are divas about it are super offputting to me.
βοΈ i am irreverently neopagan, and into astrology, tarot, and all that New Age shit. i have zero respect for anyone who co-opts paganism or occultism as a vehicle for white supremacy. die.
βοΈ i'm operating with auDHD, cptsd, and a mood disorder that may very well have damaged my brain. this all comes together in a horrific cocktail that ensures my memory is dreadful, so please bear with me if i'm forgetful or repeat myself often. i promise it is not because i'm not listening or don't care.
βοΈ block to break mutuals. it will not hurt my feelings. i don't keep track of who is or isn't following me, and i'd rather not be left with the awkwardness of cluelessly still interacting with you as though we're still mutuals.
i should not be at work today, i am BARELY keeping it together when all i actually want to do is fight and overreact and start shit and scream at people. i dream of behaving half as unpredictably as i find other people's behavior to be. like it would feel soooo good in the moment but i know i will deeply regret it as soon as i'm out of the luteal phase bloodlust frenzy
i'm sure it's done nothing weird at all to my brain that usually the times when i've felt like someone is perceiving me as more than an ephemeral, highly disposable sounding board chatbot and/or errand-runner with no interiority of my own that has this inconvenient glitch sometimes where it decides it "has emotional needs" or "wants to talk about itself" have actually turned out to be them putting on a really good performance because they're interested in getting me to fuck them or breadwin for them. or both.
i get roughly the same number of notes after remaking with ~40 followers that i got pre-remake with well over 100. "you should selfship for yourself π₯Ί" and i do, but y'all seriously wonder why there aren't any fun community events anymore. there's no "community" left in the first place. it's the same kind of community culture that's led to me having so many interactions where i think someone is trying to make friends, and what they actually end up doing is telling me all about their ships and their lore and then either "cool. anyway back to me"-ing me or just peacing out when i try to do the same.
to me, Anaz's vibes are soooo sheltered Badlands aristocrat. like, rarely left his family's stronghold because the terrain beyond is dangerous and our true home is The Lands Between anyway, why bother connecting outside of our tight-knit circle of other noble Tarnished families. and i feel his backstory would faithfully follow the canon Prophet class description of having been shunned after delivering an inauspicious portent.
it is 94 degrees and the bathroom that my coworker always uses has NO air conditioning. genuinely sinister to choose that as your spot to just sit for 45+ minutes at a time
they should invent a term for shipping were I don't think they should be in a romantic relationship however I believe they are each others parasite and separating them is not an option
I love handing out amulets to all the junior evil mages and watching them act all corrupted. Staggering around going "ooough I can feel it changing me... what is this dark power?" Idk it's from temu so probably heavy metal poisoning man
The rampant transmisogyny on this site only further pushes trans girls into that insulated group. Like sorry but transmisogynists do share an equal blame with the grooming of trans girls on here. It makes the job of isolating these girls very very easy by ensuring they have no outside support in the first place. Do better.
my Carbot Ring s/i is just created from my desire to mentor Anaz (as someone who also played Elden Ring for the first time as the prophet starting class, is objectively quite bad at the game, and learned how to play by fumbling around in similarly useless ways for months).
like sweet boy you cannot be juggling INT and faith this early. you probably have no idea that some healing incantations can heal your summons too. babe the dishonorable ways in which i abuse Poison Mist would astound you. what if we kissed on the ledge where i cheese Juno Hoslow. what if we kissed on the ledge where i cheese Commander Niall. what if we kissed on the ledge where i cheese Weeping Peninsula Night's Cavalry. what if we kissed on the ladder where i cheese Stormveil Ulcerated Tree Spirit. what if we kissed in the bushes where i cheese the Draconic Tree Sentinel outside of Leyndell. you can leave Caelid any time. please leave Caelid.
