Sense For Aesthetics

  ((Yusuke Kitagawa RP written by Goob. Please read the rules page! Tracking: #foxinasmock Mun is 18+))  

[electricea]

For a long time, Ryuji was quiet - simply keeping an arm around Yusuke - he didn't ever like to bring up either of their pasts but whenever Yusuke did need to vent or to rant about what had happened, he wanted him to know that he'd always be there to offer his support and listen to him.

"That bastard manipulated you - he manipulated all of you guys.  I mean, he was your teacher ever since you were a kid right…?" Of course, he didn't know the ins and outs of how that old bastard operated but it was clear at one point, his students had thought the world of him - maybe even saw him as a teacher, or a father.  "He took advantage of the way you guys trusted him…"

"That just shows he wasn't really an artist, yeah…? Most artists would care about their integrity and wouldn't want to just do something for the money and I think most of 'em would especially care about making something that's really their own and comes from the heart, yeah…? You want to produce art that matters and that means something to you.  No matter what, you've always held onto your integrity and always wanted to make art that you wanted to make, 'cause of your own convictions."

"Definitely does make it hurt sometimes - no doubt, but in a way - going through what I did reminded me just how much I love what I do…" He muses, now nestling closer to Yusuke.  "I'm just happy you love it too - and how we can share the stuff we love with each other."

"Thank you right back to you - and more than anything else." He grips Yusuke's face in his hands. "...I love you."

[foxinasmock]

"Since I can remember. Like a father..." He winced.

"I love you, too." He kissed him and leaned against him. "Let's not speak of such sad things anymore, okay? We're going to make a better world. A world where people like us don't get hurt anymore... Where no one will."

[foxinasmock]

((Even after Madarame's in jail, Yusuke has still internalized the idea that suffering makes for better art.

It's very very ingrained into him and is in some parts a reason why he'd rather buy paint than food.))

[foxinasmock]

((remembering that the reason the phantom thieves investigated madarame in the first place is because a former pupil thought yusuke was going to off himself

oop....))

[electricea]

"Well fair point but still - I think you're damn perfect and that counts for something, doesn't it? Or at least as close to damn perfect as someone can get."

"You've got all those things going for you too, y'know - you're still nice to people and you still carry on even in spite of what's happened to you. You didn't let that old bastard ruin what you loved..." Gripping his boyfriend's face in his hands, Ryuji beams. "We both came into our own together - and now we can be our best selves, with each other."

[foxinasmock]

"I..."

His cheeks burned red as Ryuji caressed his face. He was silent for a moment.

"...a cruel past is, of course, no reason to exact that cruelty upon others. I'd be no better than him if I became like that. And I had been on the verge of... perhaps never picking up a paintbrush again before I met you." He frowned. Yes, maybe it had been Ann that had inspired him, but it would have been short-lived had the phantom thieves not saved him- or rather, empowered him to save himself.

[electricea]

"You're an amazing guy, you know that…?"

He hoped he hadn't been crossing any lines here by bring up Madarame but he truly did mean it with all his heart.

"You're a lot stronger than most - 'cause most would want to repeat the cycle exactly 'cause it was done to them," He knew it was a messed up way of thinking - for people to hurt others the way they had been hurt, before - he couldn't say he didn't understand it to a point but damn did he think it was messed up.  "I'm just sorry that greedy asshole almost ruined painting for you…" He knew how that felt - for a time, he'd angrily sworn off anything to do with running or track.  "But I'm so glad we met you - glad that I met you - it's like meeting you gave me a second wind, you know…? I...I just hope I was able to do the same for you."

[foxinasmock]

Yusuke shook his head. Sure, there may have been... times he wasn't sure how to go on. Many of Madarame's former pupils hadn't, whether it was from neglect or from... their own plans...

"I don't understand it. I can't- I can't even fathom it." He scowled. "I don't know how I sympathized with the plagiarism for so long. Maybe I felt as though I were doing a favor for some sick man... but he was sick in ways I could've never expected."

"I could never use someone's art- not only because it's wrong, but because I wouldn't gain anything from it. Only money and empty praise. There's no beauty in it. I'd rather die than produce meaningless art. I suppose that's... the point I was at, when you met me."

"I know sometimes your injuries make it hard." He frowned. "But, I like to watch you run, and watch you exercise. It just feels like something innate to you in the same way that art is innate to me. That passion resonates with me."

"...Thank you, Ryuji."

[electricea]

"Well fair point but still - I think you're damn perfect and that counts for something, doesn't it? Or at least as close to damn perfect as someone can get."

"You've got all those things going for you too, y'know - you're still nice to people and you still carry on even in spite of what's happened to you. You didn't let that old bastard ruin what you loved..." Gripping his boyfriend's face in his hands, Ryuji beams. "We both came into our own together - and now we can be our best selves, with each other."

[foxinasmock]

"I..."

His cheeks burned red as Ryuji caressed his face. He was silent for a moment.

"...a cruel past is, of course, no reason to exact that cruelty upon others. I'd be no better than him if I became like that. And I had been on the verge of... perhaps never picking up a paintbrush again before I met you." He frowned. Yes, maybe it had been Ann that had inspired him, but it would have been short-lived had the phantom thieves not saved him- or rather, empowered him to save himself.

[foxinasmock]

((Canonically I would say that Yusuke isn't particularly elegant in speech, and somehow very polite and blunt at the same time

but it's more fun to make him wax poetic about every damn thing he encounters lmao))

[electricea]

@foxinasmock sent - "Oh, Ryuji!" He leaned against him. "You are perfect. You are my perfect muse. I love you..."

"I'm the perfect one...? Sure you don't mean yourself...?" Ryuji lightly chuckles, moving to tuck his boyfriend's hair behind his ear. "Y'know, I wonder what I did to end up with an amazing guy like you."

[foxinasmock]

"Well, I hardly can be my own muse, can I? Vanity is unbecoming. Maybe it's the flaws in humanity that makes it so beautiful, but..."

He sighed. "Your kindness? Your strength? Your resilience? Your passion? Simply by being yourself. To think I had misjudged you, and then your beauty blossomed before me like a flower in Spring..."

[electricea]

"Ah, well I want you to be comfortable so if I can just hang around instead - I'd be equally cool with that too!" Whatever made his boyfriend most comfortable, honestly! "Hooking you up with some food and making you sure stay energized, huh...? Now that, I can do!"

[foxinasmock]

"But how will you stay energized, I wonder?" Moreover, where will any of that energy go? Ryuji was like one of those puppies that needed several walks a day. It was lucky that Yusuke enjoyed those walks, at least.

[electricea]

"Heh, do I get to stick around and watch what you paint...?" He was always entranced by his boyfriend's painting! "I'll even provide you snacks!"

[foxinasmock]

"I... don't know how comfortable I'd be with that..." He'd get shy, and moreover, distracted. "You know how I get absorbed in my work. I... would not be opposed to being fed, however."

[electricea]

open starter with skull!

"C'mon, let's keep going...! I got plenty of gas left in the tank!"

[foxinasmock]

"Gas? Does the Monabus require gas? ...but where would it be inserted!?"

[electricea]

"Man, I sure hope not...!" Where would gas even go in the Monabus...? "I-I mean gas as in energy...! Don't you got plenty, too...?!"

[foxinasmock]

"Oh! ...Yes. Fighting besides you is invigorating. I will have to paint something once we return."

[electricea]

open starter with skull!

"C'mon, let's keep going...! I got plenty of gas left in the tank!"

[foxinasmock]

"Gas? Does the Monabus require gas? ...but where would it be inserted!?"

[foxinasmock]

((do you guys remember, like... it was 2016-2017ish, there was this mun that roleplayed Naoto and Bebe (P3) and they were a professional artist and i believe they were from a non english speaking country of some sort

and then they went on permahiatus to focus on their art or something. do you remember??? i THINK their name may have been sparrow?))

[foxinasmock]

((I'd start playing P5X again but i swear that shit would always crash on me for some reason???))

[foxinasmock]

((notifs get so fucked when you're gone for a while, getting notifs for things that happened

TEN YEARS AGO...

but it says it was a month ago. for why...))

[coffcedad-blog]

@kaitouyusuke

“…”

He places a bento on the counter as the artist walks in.

“Akira asked me to give you this. Said it’s a packed lunch since you don’t fucking eat.” He polishes a mug and just watches the teen ponderously. “…Look. I know you probably don’t have much as far as money goes. So here’s the deal. You help me with the dishes sometime and I’ll let you eat here for free. Sound good?”

[foxinasmock]

"I... eat..." he defended himself with absolutely no bite to it. He ate bean sprouts. That hardly counted as food, really.

Yusuke smelled the air and his stomach immediately started growling. He was so distracted he almost didn't catch Sojiro's offer.

He snapped to look at him. "Truly!? Oh, I couldn't! You're... really too kind, Boss..."

[akeg]

More p5 textposts i have in my camera roll!!!!!!!! Now with even more shuake

[foxinasmock]

((really wish tumblr notifications didnt just like

get completely wiped when you dont log in for a little while

its super rude imo))