i hate that i can never actually be a boy fuck my fucking chungus life
I keep seeing you post like this. If you are a boy, you are a boy. If you arent, you arent. Its up to you to hold yourself up to the same standards you hold everyone else to.
Do you see trans men as men? If yes, how are you different? Like really. Do you not actually identify as a man? Or are you just afraid of change? Genuinely working through this isnt going to be easy.
If not, then you need to work that out and do some research. Be honest with yourself. Having internalized transphobia is okay, its the choosing to suffer and be dragged down by it thats the problem.
I have personally dealt with this. Its hard but you can figure it out. Message me if you want help. I can try to help you.
But elaborating on my first point, you are not subhuman, and if you see your peers who are trans as their gender, then why not yourself? You are also human. Any bad thing youve done is not indicative of what gender you are allowed to be. Hey, maybe you are wrong, but how will you figure it out if you dont try in the first place?
This is cheesy but ive been hearing this saying that really applies, it goes smt like this. Choose an unfamiliar heaven over a familiar hell.
Youve got this. What you say to yourself really matters and just stop yourself when you think things like that. Degrading yourself helps nobody.
