I don't think I'm as sane as I seem

Ellinor here! 17, Sweden Drawing, writing, photographing, reading. (And fangirling. Don't forget fangirling.) Reblog-blog: http://pagesinkedwithletters.tumblr.com

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Drew this two weeks ago after a summer of pretty much not drawing at all. Graphite on paper (maybe that's obvious). I found the picture I used for reference on chicaner's tumblr, though I'm not 100% sure if it's their own photo? Anyway, I love how it turned out :')

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Advanced Potion Making.

Harry Potter Studio Tour London, two months ago. 

The light in there switches from blue to orange and my camera didn't like that very much, so these pictures were two of the very few that turned out really good.

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I'm so damn addicted to the Legend trilogy (by marielubooks ) it's ridicules, so I felt the need to paint this. Made with watercolors 😌

I sketched up the designs on some paper first to make stencils, so that I could make the paint get the "texture" I wanted, though I didn't think it through fully and took a really thin paper, which made it extremely difficult to make the rose in particular 😶

Oh well, I'm thinking about making all three of them in acrylics on a canvas tomorrow or something, so it doesn't really matter. I think it'll be more fun to paint them in acrylics too, since I'll be able to make the paint really thick to get texture, and I feel like these designs need some texture to them.

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Last chapters of Champion / Afire Love similarities

In the past four weeks I’ve read the entire Legend trilogy by Marie Lu, amongst a few other books. It’s definitely one of my favorite series. So the other day I finished Champion. I cried. Way too much. Messy sobbing all the way up there on the fangirl-scale with Mockingjay and Clockwork Princess and The Fault in Our Stars. (That’s like a ten out of ten, if you didn’t know.) Anyway, for reasons I started to think about the song Afire Love by Ed Sheeran as something I connected with Champion, mostly because of the fist two lines. Then I started thinking that a lot more of the song could translate into the last chapters of Champion as well, and I really needed to write it down. Though there are massive spoilers for Champion below, so don’t look if you haven’t read it! Trust me, you don’t want the end of Champion spoiled! I’ll have the lyrics in bold, and my own thoughts in cursive in parentheses. I have also crossed out the parts that I find irrelevant/that I couldn’t think of any reference to. I hope the lyrics is correct, though I’m not entirely sure about some parts, so sorry ‘bout that.

Things were all good yesterday And then the devil took your memory (Okay, how much can you not imagine June thinking that in the last chapter?) And if you fell to your death today I hope that heaven is your resting place (Day literally died for a few seconds, obviously June would wish he’d get peace, even if she wished he’d wake up even more.) I heard the doctors put your chest in pain But then that could have been the medicine (Day was in a lot of pain when they were trying to fix his brain, and he got several bad reactions from his different medicines, which made it worse. Perhaps his chest wasn’t in pain in particular, but he was in pain nevertheless.) And now you’re lying in the bed again Either way I’ll cry with the rest of them (Now Day’s at the hospital again, and I can easily imagine June crying when Day was unconscious and they didn’t know whether he’d wake up for all those months. She would cry along with Eden and Tess and probably with the entire Republic. I think a lot of people in the Republic were upset and depressed when they thought they’d lost Day.)

And my father told me, son It’s not his fault he doesn’t know your face (June knows it’s not Day’s fault he can’t remember her.) And you’re not the only one Although my grandma used to say, that he used to say

 Darling hold me in your arms the way you did last night (The night they had together was not literally last night from when Day almost died, but it was just a few nights apart, so it’s close enough. I can imagine the entire chorus being about that night.) And we will lie inside for a little while, here oh I could look into your eyes until the sun comes up And we’re wrapped in light, in life, in love Put your open lips on mine and slowly let them shut For they’re designed to be together, oh With your body next to mine our hearts will beat as one And we’re set alight, we’re afire love, love, love 

Things were all good yesterday But then the devil took your breath away (Let’s imagine this is from Day’s point of view. June probably felt as if she couldn’t breathe when she saw Day lying motionless on the street, not breathing. And she probably felt choked up plenty of times thinking about the possibility that he might not wake up.) And now we’re left here in the pain (June is in a lot of pain when Day’s unconscious, when she doesn’t know if he will wake up. And when he awakes, she’s in pain because they can’t be together, even if it might be for the best. I think Day’s also in pain some days when he knows he misses something – someone – but he can’t remember.) Black suit, black tie, standing in the rain And now my family is one again (This could be when he woke up, and he got to be with Eden again. The last part of their family was together, at least.) Stapled together but the stranger’s never friend Came to my mind I should paint it with a pen Six years old I remember when 

My father told me, son It’s not his fault he doesn’t know your face (Could be Day’s pov again, referring to when Eden’s irises were bleeding and he couldn’t see Day. Or referring to himself; he knows that he’s forgotten a lot of people, and has to be reintroduced to everyone.) And you’re not the only one Although my grandma used to say, he used to say 

Darling hold me in your arms the way you did last night (Like last chorus, though since the last verse sounded more like Day’s pov to me, this could very well be Day too, since both Day and June thought about that night pretty similar.) And we will lie inside for a little while, here oh I could look into your eyes until the sun comes up And we’re wrapped in light, in life, in love Put your open lips on mine and slowly let them shut For they’re designed to be together, oh With your body next to mine our hearts will beat as one And we’re set alight, we’re afire love, love, love

And my father and all of my family Rise from the seats to sing hallelujah And my mother and all of my family Rise from the seats to sing hallelujah And my brother and all of my family Rise from the seats to sing hallelujah And all of my brothers and my sisters And my father and all of my family Rise from the seats to sing hallelujah (June doesn’t really have any family left, if you don’t count Ollie, though a lot of people ought to have been very happy once Day woke up.) 

And I’m just really emotional now don’t touch me I feel like rereading the entire trilogy but I really shouldn’t because I have like twenty books I need to finish.

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I just finished Champion. Oh my god. I'm crying so much. Like as much, if not more, than I did in Mockingjay and Clockwork Princess, and those were some heart wrenching endings. I'm such a mess right now.

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"[...] The angel is tuned to your life; it is designed to save you if you are dying. It may have saved you a hundred times before you were ever born, and it's saved you since."

   - Mortmain to Tessa

     Clockwork Princess, by Cassandra Clare

    (My clockwork angel is from Hebel design.)

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[...] He reached over to touch her pearl bracelet with light fingers. "This is your thirtieth-anniversary bracelet," he said. "You still wear it."

Tessa swallowed. Her skin was prickling, her pulse racing. She realized she hand't felt this, this particular brand of excited nervousness, in so many years that she had nearly forgotten it. "Yes."

"Since Will, have you never loved anyone else?"

"Don't you know the answer to that?"

   - Jem Carstairs and Tessa Gray

     Clockwork Princess, by Cassandra Clare

    (Bottom and top pictures taken by me, the middle one's taken by my sister.)

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"I have something for you," she said, opening her eyes - they were gray, the color of rainwater. "For both of you - for you, and for Jace as well." She slid something out of her pocket and held it out to Clary. It was a dull silver circlet, a family ring, glimmering with the pattern of engraved birds in flight. "This ring belonged to James Herondale," she said. "It is a true Herondale ring, many years old. If Jace has decided that he wishes to be a Herondale, he should have it to wear."

  - Tessa Gray

    City of Heavenly fire, by Cassandra Clare

    (That's me in the photo, which I got my sister to take for me. And I know Tessa's dress is supposed to be green, but I just got the idea when we were at a café, which didn't really give any time to put on a green dress.)

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I adore fog so much ✨

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Sneak peek on what kind of pictures I'll be posting on Wednesday! 😌

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My sister being cute with Ellie the dog :')

why are the pictures turning out so grainy

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Not sure why I like how this turned out so much. It looks odd but still pretty, I guess?

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Found in an old broken-down greenhouse. No idea why there was an oven in there. (Is it even an oven?)

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I like taking photos of flowers and things in gardens too much.

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We were at Harry Potter Studios today :'D Better pictures (and pics in which you can see the set instead of me) will be uploaded next week when I get home and have access to my computer :3

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This is by far my favorite dress.

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Kittens are the cutest :’3

(The last photo is taken by my sister, though she said I could upload it here :) )