am i my history i have endured?

21+ indie armand, from amc's interview with the vampire.

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moved back to @OHSUNSHINE

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SORRY moving armand back to my multi @ohsunshine can't be bothered to keep logging out/in

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SORRY moving armand back to my multi @ohsunshine can't be bothered to keep logging out/in

[nightprompts]

&. 𝐝𝐚𝐫𝐤 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐬𝐭𝐲 𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬.

(  we  love  angst  on  this  blog,  what  can  we  say.  here’s  some  more  dialogue  prompts  for  you.  a  warning  for  potentially  triggering  themes  below.  )

❛ everything you touch, you ruin. ❜

❛ the only one who gets to kill you, is me. ❜

❛ you can’t make me disappear. ❜

❛ memories are only there to make you bleed. ❜

❛ i don’t need your permission. ❜

❛ don’t shut me out like this. ❜

❛ the less you know, the better. ❜

❛ i won’t stop killing until you kill me. ❜

❛ why is it whenever we see each other, you’re covered in blood? ❜

❛ you think i felt something for you? you’ve forgotten what i am. ❜

❛ the last time we talked, didn’t you say you wanted to kill me? ❜

❛ i felt something loosen in me that shouldn’t have been loosened. ❜

❛ pull yourself together. we have work to do. ❜

❛ stay back, i have a demon inside of me. ❜

❛ let me get closer, i have a hell inside of me where your demon can live. ❜

❛ people like that don’t deserve to live. ❜

❛ just do what you’re told. like you always do. ❜

❛ why do you have to make everyone hate you? ❜

❛ it’s better that you don’t get involved. ❜

❛ i’d do anything to make you stay. ❜

❛ who cares if it bleeds. ❜

❛ is this what you think love is? ❜

❛ just breathe through it. it gets easier. ❜

❛ don’t pretend that you cared about me. ❜

❛ i’m starting to think you like wasting my time. ❜

❛ we wouldn’t be alive if it weren’t for me. ❜

❛ i will never, ever, give you a moment’s peace. ❜

❛ the world doesn’t hate us. but it doesn’t love us either. ❜

❛ it hurts that you still can’t trust me after all this time. ❜

❛ a darkness with voices is better than a silent void. ❜

❛ it’s safer to be feared, than loved. ❜

❛ am i not good enough for you? ❜

❛ a burnt child loves the fire. ❜

❛ i’m tired of dying. ❜

❛ what if you hurt because it feels good? ❜

❛ don’t try to fix me, i’m not broken. ❜

❛ if you want me to die, you can just say so. ❜

❛ you don’t have to be afraid of who you are. ❜

❛ that line disappears once you cross it. ❜

❛ how can i believe you after all you’ve done? ❜

❛ i won’t let you forget about me. ❜

❛ the person you once knew me as, died. ❜

❛ are you going to leave me again? ❜

❛ i have nothing i could offer you. ❜

❛ no one is going to save you. no one can. ❜

❛ maybe you’re / i’m already dead. ❜ 

❛ you have blood on your hands. ❜

❛ what, can’t take a punch? ❜

❛ i’m your mind giving you someone to talk to. ❜

❛ you have to step out of this darkness and let them see you for who you are, like i have. ❜

[heartdesiresss]

Maybe it’s too much, but I want obsession, consistency, and a love that consumes me.

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— Richard Siken, Portrait of Fryderyk in Shifting Light (via letsbelonelytogetherr)

[loisnclark]

     𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐃   "  𝐒𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐇   𝐎𝐑   𝐏𝐀𝐒𝐒  “   𝐅𝐎𝐑   𝐌𝐘   𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄   𝐓𝐎   𝐀𝐍𝐒𝐖𝐄𝐑   𝐇𝐎𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐋𝐘   𝐀𝐁𝐎𝐔𝐓   𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑𝐒.   𝐍𝐎   𝐋𝐘𝐈𝐍𝐆   𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐎𝐖𝐄𝐃  .

[fr4gmented]

[ 🎐 ]ㅤ.ㅤdo they have a sound, like a song or voice, that they associate with peace ? [ 💼 ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat do they always carry with them ? [ 📿 ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat superstition or ritual do they cling to ? [ 🎀 ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat is their main love language ? [ 🕸️ ]ㅤ.ㅤdo they have a favourite lie they like to hear ?

[ 🎐 ]ㅤ.ㅤdo they have a sound, like a song or voice, that they associate with peace ?

bianca would sometimes play the harp, which is a sound that, even now, he (unconsciously) associates with peace and safety.

[ 💼 ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat do they always carry with them ?

there's nothing specifically that he carries with him during his nightly business, but he always takes a magnolia cutting when he moves somewhere new.

[ 📿 ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat superstition or ritual do they cling to ?

only drinking from the worst sort of people. it was one of the first things he was taught when he was made a vampire, and probably the only consistent thing across all periods of his life.

[ 🎀 ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat is their main love language ?

acts of service is how he shows his love & affection for someone. i'm not sure what he might prefer to receive. quality time, maybe?

[ 🕸️ ]ㅤ.ㅤdo they have a favourite lie they like to hear ?

"i love you". whether it's true or not, he loves hearing it.

[aedearly]

✎ㅤ. . .ㅤ𝑯𝑬𝑨𝑫𝑪𝑨𝑵𝑶𝑵 𝑸𝑼𝑬𝑺𝑻𝑰𝑶𝑵𝑺.

₊˚⊹ ㅤa collection of character analysis/headcanon questions to learn more about your character and your partners'! writing/headcanon prompts requested by anonymous. feel free to edit these as you see fit.

[ 🖐️ ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat do their hands feel like: soft, calloused, trembling ? [ ☂️ ]ㅤ.ㅤdo they crave touch or fear it ? [ 🎐 ]ㅤ.ㅤdo they have a sound, like a song or voice, that they associate with peace ? [ 🕊️ ]ㅤ.ㅤwhen did they feel the safest ? [ 💤 ]ㅤ.ㅤhow do they sleep ? curled up, sprawled, holding onto something ? [ 🦇 ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat is a fear they never talk about ? [ 🔒 ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat is a secret they’ve sworn never to tell ? [ 🪢 ]ㅤ.ㅤwhen was the last time they broke a promise ? [ 🫳 ]ㅤ.ㅤwho do they feel they owe, but never paid back ? [ 💼 ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat do they always carry with them ? [ 🧨 ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat’s the quickest way to set them off, even if they hide it well ? [ ⛓️ ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat does guilt feel like to them ? [ 💢 ]ㅤ.ㅤwho have they never forgiven and never will ? [ 🩸 ]ㅤ.ㅤis there something or someone that, if lost, would break them ? [ 🌧️ ]ㅤ.ㅤis there a pain they refuse to heal from ? [ 🪞 ]ㅤ.ㅤwhen have they looked at their reflection and hated what they saw ? [ 📿 ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat superstition or ritual do they cling to ? [ 🌊 ]ㅤ.ㅤwhen was the last time they cried ? [ 🐾 ]ㅤ.ㅤdo animals like them instinctively ? [ 🪶 ]ㅤ.ㅤhow do they laugh ? [ 🫀 ]ㅤ.ㅤwho taught them what love is ? did it hurt ? [ 💭 ]ㅤ.ㅤdo they believe they’re worthy of being loved ? [ 🎀 ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat is their main love language ? [ 🔦 ]ㅤ.ㅤwho do they search for ? [ 📜 ]ㅤ.ㅤis there a story they love sharing with others ? [ 🌒 ]ㅤ.ㅤdo they have a dream or goal they have given up on ? [ 🕯️ ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat memory do they replay when they’re alone ? [ 🌪️ ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat’s the one choice they regret (not) making ? [ 🧩 ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat’s a truth about themselves they refuse to admit ? [ 🍻 ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat kind of drunk are they ? [ ✉️ ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat kind of letter would they write but never send ? [ 🗡️ ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat is a scar that they have but never talk about ? [ 🕸️ ]ㅤ.ㅤdo they have a favourite lie they like to hear ? [ 🪦 ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat would they want on their gravestone but never admit aloud ? [ 🎱 ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat kind of future do they crave, and who’s in it ? [ 🌀 ]ㅤ.ㅤdo they have a recurring dream or nightmare ? [ 🍃 ]ㅤ.ㅤdo they feel like they belong ? [ ⚓ ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat does “home” mean to them ? [ 🧭 ]ㅤ.ㅤwhere would they go if they could disappear tomorrow ?

[corporationkills]

hi welcome to my asmr. i’m gonna be draining all the blood from your body

[daisychainsandlaughs]

“There are only so many ways to experience pain. There are an almost limitless number of ways to inflict it, but the pain itself, initially vividly distinct in all its specificities, becomes, inevitably, just pain.”

— Kraken, China Mieville

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started to play red de.ad ONE - i've only ever played TWO - and i need to get this guy on a HAWRSIE.

[pacific-rimbaud]

Neither enemies to lovers nor slow burn but a secret third thing called Schrödinger's intimacy. We are in love and we are not in love do NOT open that lid I swear to God.

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what's peculiar about your soul?

Your soul is... Alluring: It draws attention from every corner of the ether... People come from far and wide to marvel at it. Statues, clay figurines, portraits are made in its likeness... Songs are written of its beauty and splendor. Every day it is greeted by hoards of ceaseless, staring eyes. Every day it is treated with visits from its enamored guest. You try with all your might to communicate with them. To engage with them. To be more to them than an object on display- unthinking, unfeeling. They can not hear you.

stole it. steal it.

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what kind of cannibalism are you?

autocannibalism: the practise of eating parts of ones own body. you consider yourself an introvert. private and reserved. you don't like asking for help, even when you need it. secretly your biggest fear is being abandoned, which is why you abandon others first. in the end you will be your own destroyer. you stay in a dark room, curled up like a worm, eating yourself.

stole it. steal it.

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GET TO KNOW THE MUN.

ALIAS: rue. for now. been thinkin' 'bout a lil alias change for like. a year now but idk. AGE: 31 ZODIAC: capricorn HEIGHT: 4'9/145cm/two and a half apples. HOBBIES: gardening! dahlias are my favourites to grow but i've been getting really into roses and rhododendrons this year. i should plant a magnolia for my guy... otherwise, i crochet on and off (been working on a slipstitch jumper on and off for like. 8 months now), game, ummmm... does house diy count as a hobby? i've been up to all sorts since i moved in october. FAVOURITE COLOUR: pink, yellow, orange. ESPECIALLY together. FAVOURITE BOOKS: his dark mat.erials by phill.ip pul.lman (book 3 in october LFG!!!), wyrd sisters/reaper man/any & all of the death and the witches books by ter.ry pr.atchett. LAST SONG: we were giants - stornoway LAST MOVIE: like everyone else. sinners. LAST SHOW: task.master. RECENT READ: idk i've been reading about roses to try and find one that suits my garden. i've got a couple already but i think i want a fragrant climber up one of my fences... such a commitment </3 i'm reading kraken by c.hina miév.ille at the mo, i'm only a few chapters in but i'm enjoying it a lot so far! FUN FACT: i have two cats and a dog and i'm permanently exhausted but we stay silly.

TAGGED BY: @eladead thank u <3 TAGGING: i think most of yous have done this by now but if you want to do it, you can say i tagged you <3

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UNUSUAL MUSE ASSOCIATIONS

spice: nutmeg. weather event / natural disaster: flood. colour: sky blue. plant: magnolia. animal: some kind of scent hound. weapon: dagger. subject / major: he needs to enrol on an engineering or programming course fr. gemstone / mineral: orange agate. make-up product: kohl eyeliner. candy: boiled sweets. fear: abandonment. method of long-distance travel: boat. art style: leyendecker / renaissance oil paintings. historical period: first half of the 1900s. wood: magnolia also. mythological creature: anansi. celestial body: a black hole. romcom archetype: jealous ex.

stole it! tagging: @eladead / @bloodebayou / @rvolving (gimme mori.arty or ha.lsin) / @velvetpill / @zoanthropiic / & YOU.