fractal

I became a trekkie to survive the pandemic and now we're here. || full-time scientist || part-time writer || she/her || lesbian prev: fractal baby

[fractally]

~ ✨ welcome to my webpage ✨ ~ 

I am a mathematician and a part-time fanfic writer. I blog about whatever interests me, so there's lots of Star Trek posting but also expect posts on books I'm reading and shows I'm watching.

I am working various fics very slowly but sometimes post excerpts here! My AO3 is fractally and feel free to browse my public bookmarks.

Currently writing: Heated Rivalry post-The Long Game longfic, and Kirk / Spock AOS AU (much more slowly)

[hollzy-baby]

I think we’re sleeping on them both being virgins role play - those possessive mfers would eat that up with a spoon

[d6b-onion]

this video has been going around for a while but the English subtitles didn't match the energy of the spoken French at all. i had to fix it.

reblog to spread this version

[spellingmistakescostlives]

John Waters

[fractally]

I really never got this idea that Shane is somehow Respectability Gay and Ilya is the one pushing them to go to gay clubs and dress more flamboyantly and “act gay” etc

Like first of all I’ve never particularly liked the idea that wearing silk shirts and going dancing is somehow “more gay” than you know, publicly getting married to a man. Gay relationships being devalued isn’t really about PDA or fashion and I feel like this is the sort of aesthetics first politics that identifies the likes of Harry Styles as a queer ally

But second of all I never really had the impression that Ilya was the kind of guy to push for that at all. If anything Shane’s the one with the exhibitionist kink. I think Ilya’s desires are 100% respectability gay stuff. He wants to send out like…Christmas cards that say “Season’s Greetings from The Rozanov-Hollander Home” and it’s them posing with Anya all in matching maple leaf fleece PJs

[fractally]

God Paris always makes me feel 20 again because I lived here when I was that age…I had an internship and we were living right on the périphérie in the 14th…no fucking money and a roommate I had a big lesbian crush on and getting black out drunk on the banks of the seine. Romantic in retrospect and maybe in real time too

[william-adolphe-bouguereau]

Two Women on the Balconey, 1936 - Gerda Wegener

[cognitohazardous]

no one is stupid in quite the same way as a tumblr user

[fractally]

Hello fractally what is this cool ass life you're living where you're in a different city every week I'm fascinated and so curious

Haha so I’m a scientist and right now I’m doing a ton of networking travel! Right now I’m in travel season (summer) and also at point in my career where I’m trying to meet as many people as possible. So I’m traveling a ton.

It’s definitely the most I’ve ever traveled, it’s a little crazy right now. But I am having fun

[fractally]

I know this is a scorching take but no I do not think Ilya (or Shane) would be happy to be a WAG. I mean maybe he'd be into wearing the jersey and being recognized as Shane's husband publicly but that's where it ends.

I think Ilya would be bored out of his skull. He'd be stuck in conversations that, in the best case scenario, are about the exciting careers these women are pursuing while Ilya rots off the ice. And in the worst case scenario those conversations are about like. Hosting parties and MLMs selling essential oils and influencing.

I also frankly do think that both of them would find being a WAG emasculating. I know that's not a popular read but like....these guys are male athletes who have been crushingly dominant their entire careers. They have pride. Let's all be brutally honest here: being a WAG is one of those questionable status things. It elevates you in certain ways (fame, wealth) but also is definitionally a subordinate role. It's certainly not aspirational for a man who wanted to be on ice himself, and enjoyment of that role I think would necessarily have to be performed with a certain ironic detachment

[fractally]

Paris mutuals and friends! Recommendations for dinner places? And apero places?

[fractally]

God I love real cities…I have gotta get the fuck out of the provinces

[angelicguy]

i bet girls hated it in 1902 cuz you would constantly go on dates w guys who are working on an invention to present at the world fair

[fractally]

Yeah I’m thinking more about Shane and Ilya in CA and I honestly think they’d love it sooooo much. Both the bay and LA have large Russian and Japanese communities. LA is probably the best place on earth to be super rich. Almost all of its flaws relate to being there and not being stupid rich.

But if you ARE at stupid rich? Hell yeah. Get a house in the hills and a driver and go skiing in the morning and surfing in the afternoon and eat Michelin starred sushi for dinner. Shane would be an Erewhon princess and Ilya would have five different convertibles. There’d be statues of them at Gold’s Gym on Venice beach

[strawberryblondebutch]

A touching tribute from the NBC Sports Philadelphia broadcast team ❤️

[fractally]

I love your takes as a yuna lover and also as a fellow west coast hockey fan. Sometimes i laugh at fanfics and/or headcanons where Ilya/shane end up in California and they treat it like a first layer of hell…. When like it’s one of the best places on earth lol. I will #getcanceled if I speak true about New England to Boston fans..

Oh my god I’ve never seen that and I can’t imagine it…I think they’d love California lol. The only way I can imagine Shane hating it is California being too woke and sunshiney and Shane finding it annoying. Or like if Shane is down there as Rose’s partner and he gets sucked into Hollywood

[fractally]

I promise you’re not the only person in this fandom who thinks Shane has a good relationship with Yuna, because there are at least two of us. Seriously though, I’ll accept a certain degree of Yuna and Shane conflict in the name of exploring how you renegotiate parent/child relationships as you get older. Because I find that interesting. (So long this is with the basic understanding that they still like each other. I think sometimes fandom forgets that conflict =/= broken relationship.) But at some point it’s just like. Okay Man I Think You Just Hate Your Mom.

(Sidenote, my vote for best game is Calvinball. Impossible to do professionally, but I think the average professional athlete could use a little infusion of imagination and absurdity.)

You and me anon 🤝

A beloved mut pointed out that there's a ton of potentially really interesting conflict between Shane and Yuna that actually runs the other way from the usual fandom take---for instance in show canon Shane is Yuna's boss. He's got legitimate financial power over his parents. And that's completely the opposite of how fandom imagines them and it's also interesting as a conflict because it mirrors the power swap that happens for all of us as we become more responsible for our parents than they are for us.

I think fandom is projecting a lot of mommy issues, yeah. I also think the show seriously suffers from importing a kind of show biz parent dynamic that just doesn't exist in athletics. There's a reason that child exploitation is so common in show business that there's a nearly 100 year old law in California addressing the issue while it's not really something we hear about in sports, or at least in league sports.

Athletes like Shane just aren't under the thumb of their parents---he would have moved out at 16 to billet, he's in an environment with many other adult figures to turn to and peers to seek advice from, his contracts are all exclusively with him as a legal adult. The show biz parallel for Shane seems quite personal for Tierney (a child star himself, importing his own parental issues) but I don't really think it makes sense for Shane. Maybe in a figure skater AU.

Idk again I do know why this is the case---there's no coach in canon to do this with---but there's SUCH a rich vein for Shane parental issues to mine by just giving him a fucked up relationship with a youth coach. Which like, he must have had. He had to have had. And I've been trying to write this sort of thing for a while and it's a huge OC to draft and I'm not a particularly good fiction writer so I'm not laying this at anyone's feet. I just want Yuna to get a break