She/her // 20 // INFJ

If you get hungry enough, they say, you start eating your own heart.

[macillacamaulay]

Some poppies because I love them.

[macillacamaulay]

As my contribution to the expanding genre of Dark Academia, I want to recommend The Restless Supermarket by Ivan Vladislavic. It’s about a man who is a retired proofreader who is compiling a totally useless book of errors and their corrections from what he perceives to be a morally degrading world, but in the end it is his staunch refusal to move on from the past and accept the new state of the world that triggers his downfall. It’s set in South Africa on the point of the end of Apartheid and it’s a fascinating study in mimesis in writing.

[franabernath]

Follow me here for actual content before I abandon this blog forever!

[macillacamaulay]

Hi guys I’m not new to tumblr but this is a new blog and I want to start really interacting with people so! Please comment on this post if you blog about any of the following so I can follow you:

Dark/Light Academia

Witchcraft

Crafting

Writing

Books

Classical Literature

African Literature

Music

Film

Art History

Fashion History

Woman Writers

❤️❤️❤️

[franabernath]

Guys if you want to continue to interact with me please follow me here where I’m reinventing myself!

[dahliaborne]

Complete Ballets To Watch Online

A Midsummer Night’s Dream

Raymonda

Proust Remembered

Anna karenina

Manon

The Firebird

Rite Of Spring

Lady Of The Camellias

[dearorpheus]

some resources I’ve pooled, intending to read, but need to file somewhere else bc my bookmark bar is full:

“Murder By Poison: The Rise and Fall of Arsenic”, Joan Acocella

“Ten Ways To Look At The Color Black”, Ed Simon

“The Uses of Anger: Women Responding to Racism”, Audre Lorde

“Powers of Horror: An Essay on Abjection”, Julia Kristeva

“Does Empathy Have A Dark Side?”, Jonathan Lambert

“The Allure of Gothic Horror”, Seanan McGuire

“On Fear”, Mary Ruefle

“1 = 1”, Anne Carson

“One Nightstand: A Philosophy of Reading in Bed”, H.M. Tomlinson

“The Queer Erotics of Handholding in Literature”, Kristen Arnett

“Horror Lives in the Body”, Megan Pillow Davis

“The Man in the Woods”, Shirley Jackson

“Iris Murdoch’s Favorite Painting”, Dan Piepenbring

“Mothers as Makers of Death”, Claudia Dey

“How Surrealism Enriches Storytelling About Women: Carmen Maria Machado on The Haunting of Hill House”, Joe Fassler

“Patients Need Poetry, and So Do Doctors”, Danielle Ofri

“A Sublime Contagion”, Sarah Perry

“Body and Soul: Considering the Eternal Dance of Eros and Thanatos”, Noga Arikha

“Sex, Death and Mushrooms”, Helen Macdonald

[yournewapartment]

Gardening Tips

If you’re a first-time gardener, I’d highly recommend that you buy plants that have already started growing. Don’t buy seeds and try to spout them yourself! Buy plants and them plant them yourself.

When replanting a plant, make sure to place it in a container that rises slightly above the height of the plant’s root system. Pour soil around the sides of the plant and on top of the plant until the bottom of the soil touches the plant’s bottom leaves. Keep the plant out of direct sun and water it multiple times throughout this first day. Plants go through shock when first replanted, so give them a little extra love this initial day.

Choose a pot big enough so that the plant have lots of space to grow. I’ll plant herbs together in pots, but fruit and veggie plants need to be in their own pot. Small pots are cute, but plants need lots of space to grow! Choose a pot or planter four times the size of the starter plant to provide adequate space.

Most plants require fertilized soil. Herbs like rosemary and basil are pretty hardy regardless of what soil you plant them in. But if you’re trying to grow fruits or vegetables, you’ll need fertilized soil. Most popular brands of soil aren’t fertilized, you have to buy fertilizer in addition to soil.

In terms of fertilizer- I’ve had great luck with Miracle Grow. Just follow the directions on the package, one scoop of fertilizer per water can. You only have to fertilize outdoor plants once a week. Some indoor plants do require fertilizing, but only once a month or so. One box of fertilizer should last an entire growing season!

Get yourself a comfortable sized watering can and get used to watering your outdoor plants twice a day. Herbs, fruits and vegetables need lots of water to be successful. Their soil should be damp to the touch. You can actually by little metal devices that measure soil dampness, but I would recommend that you just go based on touch.

Similarly, you can buy self-watering pieces that water your plants throughout the day so that you don’t have to worry. These stick right in the soil and allow the plants to absorb the water as they need. I will add a link later to the fancy ones, but you can fill up a water bottle and stick that in the base of the soil and that works just as well.

Water at the base of a plant only! Please don’t water the leaves, some plants (tomatoes, for example) can actually catch blights if you water their leaves.

Once a month sit down with a big trash bag and take any dead leaves, vines or branches off of your plants. If the stem is already dead, the plant doesn’t need to be funneling energy into it. Your plants will be happier, healthier and will produce more if cleaned regularly.

Don’t let your herbs start to flower! Take any flowers off of basil, thyme, oregano immediately. Flowers mean that the plant is starting to seed and will stop producing. Removing the flowers (or even cutting the stalk with the flowers on it off completely) will stop this process.

On buying pots: Make sure to buy pots with drainage! Little holes at the bottom of the plant. It doesn’t matter if they are ceramic or plastic or even metal. Drainage holes help plants expel excess water. Watering a plant in a pot without drainage can lead to the plant essentially drowning if over-watered. This is especially important for outside plants. Because it will rain at some point.

Harvesting your plants on a regular basis can increase production! Don’t let fresh basil and tomatoes just sit around. Harvest, harvest, harvest! Make tomato sauce with garlic.

Make sure your plants are in sunlight for the majority of the day! Plants need sunlight to photosynthesize and produce food.

Good luck! Sorry this took forever. 🍃

[13chancess]

push yourself to get up before the rest of the world - start with 7am, then 6am, then 5:30am. go to the nearest hill with a big coat and a scarf and watch the sun rise.

push yourself to fall asleep earlier - start with 11pm, then 10pm, then 9pm. wake up in the morning feeling re-energized and comfortable.

get into the habit of cooking yourself a beautiful breakfast. fry tomatoes and mushrooms in real butter and garlic, fry an egg, slice up a fresh avocado and squirt way too much lemon on it. sit and eat it and do nothing else.

stretch. start by reaching for the sky as hard as you can, then trying to touch your toes. roll your head. stretch your fingers. stretch everything.

buy a 1L water bottle. start with pushing yourself to drink the whole thing in a day, then try drinking it twice.

buy a beautiful diary and a beautiful black pen. write down everything you do, including dinner dates, appointments, assignments, coffees, what you need to do that day. no detail is too small.

strip your bed of your sheets and empty your underwear draw into the washing machine. put a massive scoop of scented fabric softener in there and wash. make your bed in full.

organise your room. fold all your clothes (and bag what you don’t want), clean your mirror, your laptop, vacuum the floor. light a beautiful candle.

have a luxurious shower with your favourite music playing. wash your hair, scrub your body, brush your teeth. lather your whole body in moisturiser, get familiar with the part between your toes, your inner thighs, the back of your neck.

push yourself to go for a walk. take your headphones, go to the beach and walk. smile at strangers walking the other way and be surprised how many smile back. bring your dog and observe the dog’s behaviour. realise you can learn from your dog.

message old friends with personal jokes. reminisce. suggest a catch up soon, even if you don’t follow through. push yourself to follow through.

think long and hard about what interests you. crime? sex? boarding school? long-forgotten romance etiquette? find a book about it and read it. there is a book about literally everything.

become the person you would ideally fall in love with. let cars merge into your lane when driving. pay double for parking tickets and leave a second one in the machine. stick your tongue out at babies. compliment people on their cute clothes. challenge yourself to not ridicule anyone for a whole day. then two. then a week. walk with a straight posture. look people in the eye. ask people about their story. talk to acquaintances so they become friends.

lie in the sunshine. daydream about the life you would lead if failure wasn’t a thing. open your eyes. take small steps to make it happen for you.

[monsieurenjlolras]

This is all really good advice for dealing with long term depression and anxiety. It’s not gonna magically cure you, but I’ve pushed myself to incorporate a few of these things into my day to day routine and it helps

[mossandmagnolias-deactivated202]

I especially like the part about smiling at strangers and looking people in the eye. Doing these things helped me to be more confident in myself. I started sitting up straighter and speaking up more in class. I stopped smiling at people because I was trying to be happy- I just was. Making little changes in the way you interact with other can majorly impact the way you interact with yourself.

[sweetpeas-and-appletrees]

10 Things I Tell Myself When I Don’t Want To Study

1. You are very lucky and privileged to have access to almost unlimited knowledge and you should appreciate that.

2. Be one of those rare people who step over their insecurities and succeed.

3. You will know what to do as soon as you start. Ideas never appear from inactivity.

4. Make yourself proud.

5. It’s not supposed to be easy. Nothing good ever is.

6. One hour every day doesn’t feel much but its 365 hours a year. You can’t not succeed after so much work.

7. If you give up now, you’ll have to return to this later anyway but from the very beginning.

8. Maybe you think you can never find something to use your skills and mindset for. But if you continue investing in what matters to you, it will find its way out there.

9. Every moment you thought your fears would suppress you has become the time you made it. 

10. Make yourself proud.

[english-undergrad-deactivated20]

It’s always good to keep reminding yourself of the benefits so many others don’t have access to! Having said that, there are days when taking a break away from study is beneficial.

[henryclervals]

Masterpost of Free Romantic Literature & Theory (European) (Gothic Literature)

British Romanticism

Songs of Innocence & Songs of Experience by William Blake Poems and Songs of Robert Burns Don Juan & Childe Harold’s Pilgrimage by Baron George Gordon Byron Collected Poetry of Lord Byron The Rime of the Ancient Mariner by Samuel Taylor Coleridge Lyrical Ballads, With a Few Other Poems by Coleridge and Wordsworth Collected Poetry by John Keats Ivanhoe; Waverly & The Lady of the Lake by Walter Scott The Complete Poetical Works by Percy Bysshe Shelley

French Romanticism

The Count of Monte Cristo; The Three Musketeers & The Man in the Iron Mask by Alexandre Dumas One of Cleopatra’s Nights and Other Fantastic Romances by Théophile Gautier Notre Dame de Paris & Les Misérables by Victor Hugo Collected Prose and Essays of Victor Hugo Poems by Victor Hugo Carmen by Prosper Mérimée The Red and the Black by Stendhal Cinq Mars by Alfred de Vigny

German Romanticism

Were I a Little Bird; The Mountaineer; As Many as Sand-grains in the Sea; The Swiss Deserter; The Tailor in Hell & The Reaper by Ludwig Achim von Arnim and Clemens Brentano The Broken Ring by Joseph von Eichendorff Faust by Johann Wolfgang von Goethe Collected Poetry by Johann Wolfgang von Goethe The Sorrows of Young Werther by Johann Wolfgang von Goethe Fairytales by Jacob and Wilhelm Grimm The Prose Writings of Heinrich Heine by Heinrich Heine Hegel’s Philosophy of Mind by Georg Wilhelm Friedrich Hegel The Golden Pot; The Sandman & The Devil’s Elixir by Ernst Theodor Amadeus Hoffmann Undine (Selections) by Friedrich Baron de la Motte-Fouqué Henry of Ofterdingen: A Romance by Novalis The Iron Idol by Jakob Schaffner The Robbers & Mary Stuart: A Tragedy by Friedrich Schiller Tales from the “Phantasus,” etc. by Ludwig Tieck

Polish Romanticism

Moja Beatrice by Zygmunt Krasiński Pan Tadeusz by Adam Mickiewicz Anhelli by Juliusz Słowacki

Russian Romanticism

A Hero of Our Time by Mikhail Iurevich Lermontov Poems by Alexander Pushkin Eugene Onegin by Alexander Pushkin Collected Works of Alexander Pushkin Collected Poetry by Fyodor Tyutchev Poems by Vasily Zhukovsky

Spanish Romanticism

Cantares gallegos by Rosalía de Castro El Estudiante de Salamanca and Other Selections by José de Espronceda The Cid Campeador: A Historical Romance by Antonio de Trueba

Historical Theory and Background 

Literary and Philosophical Essays: French, German and Italian The French Revolution of 1789 by John S. C. Abbott Rousseau and Romanticism by Irving Babbitt A History of English Romanticism in the Eighteenth Century by Henry A. Beers Main Currents in Nineteenth Century Literature - The Romantic School in Germany by Georg Brandes On Heroes, Hero-Worship, and the Heroic in History by Thomas Carlyle The Sacred Wood: Essays on Poetry and Criticism by T. S. Eliot The Destiny of Man by Johann Gottlieb Fichte The Faust Legend from Marlowe to Goethe by Kuno Francke The Hero of Esthonia and Other Studies in the Romantic Literature by W. F. Kirby Romantic Ireland by M. F. Mansfield and Blanche McManus The Diary of Dr. John William Polidori, 1816, Relating to Byron, Shelley, etc. Romance: Two Lectures by Sir Walter Alexander Raleigh The Social Contract & Discourses by Jean-Jacques Rousseau A Defence of Poetry and Other Essays by Percy Bysshe Shelley On Liberty by John Stuart Mill The Legend of Sir Lancelot du Lac by Jessie L. Weston

Academic Theory

Introduction: Replicating Bodies in Nineteenth-Century Science and Culture by Will Abberley Walter Scott’s works perception by his russian contemporaries by O. G. Anossova Theories of Space and the Nineteenth-Century Novel by Isobel Armstrong The Romantic subject as an absolutely autonomous individual by  Miljana Cunta Russian-German Connections in the Editing Practice in the Mid-19th Century: Vasiliy Zhukovsky and Justinus Kerner by Natalia Egorovna Nikonova and Maria Vladimirovna Dubenko Fichte as a Post-Kantian Philosopher and His Political Theory: A Return to Romanticism by Özgür Olgun Erden Negotiating boundaries: Encyclopédie, romanticism, and the construction of science by Marcelo Fetz Wandering Motive and Its Appeal on Reluctantly Wandering Franz Schubert by  Dragana Jeremić-Molnar The Caucasian Motif in Fyodor Dostoyevsky’s ‘House of the Dead’ in the Light of the Polemic with Lermontov by Xuyang Mi The Core of Romanticism by Monika Milosavljević Romantic worldview as a narcissistic construct’by Branko Mitrović Topographic Transmissions and How To Talk About Them: The Case of the Southern Spa in Nineteenth-Century Russian Fiction by Benjamin Morgan Lermontov’s Romanticism and Jena School by Liudmila G. Shakirova The Self in a Crystal Sphere: Juliusz Słowacki’s Concept of the Subject (in his works from the 1830) by Marek Stanisz The Many Faces of Nature: An Ecocritical Reading of the Concepts of Wilderness and the Sublime in John Keats’ Selected Poems by Morteza Emamgholi Tabar Malakshah & Behzad Pourqarib

[nimblesnotebook-blog]

Myths, Creatures, and Folklore

Want to create a religion for your fictional world? Here are some references and resources!

General:

General Folklore

Various Folktales

Heroes

Weather Folklore

Trees in Mythology

Animals in Mythology

Birds in Mythology

Flowers in Mythology

Fruit in Mythology

Plants in Mythology

Folktales from Around the World

Africa:

Egyptian Mythology

African Mythology

More African Mythology

Egyptian Gods and Goddesses

The Gods of Africa

Even More African Mythology

West African Mythology

All About African Mythology

African Mythical Creatures

Gods and Goddesses

The Americas:

Aztec Mythology

Haitian Mythology

Inca Mythology

Maya Mythology

Native American Mythology

More Inca Mythology

More Native American Mythology

South American Mythical Creatures

North American Mythical Creatures

Aztec Gods and Goddesses

Asia:

Chinese Mythology

Hindu Mythology

Japanese Mythology

Korean Mythology

More Japanese Mythology

Chinese and Japanese Mythical Creatures

Indian Mythical Creatures

Chinese Gods and Goddesses

Hindu Gods and Goddesses

Korean Gods and Goddesses

Europe:

Basque Mythology

Celtic Mythology

Etruscan Mythology

Greek Mythology

Latvian Mythology

Norse Mythology

Roman Mythology

Arthurian Legends

Bestiary

Celtic Gods and Goddesses

Gods and Goddesses of the Celtic Lands

Finnish Mythology

Celtic Mythical Creatures

Gods and Goddesses

Middle East:

Islamic Mythology

Judaic Mythology

Mesopotamian Mythology

Persian Mythology

Middle Eastern Mythical Creatures

Oceania:

Aboriginal Mythology

Polynesian Mythology

More Polynesian Mythology

Mythology of the Polynesian Islands

Melanesian Mythology

Massive Polynesian Mythology Post

Maori Mythical Creatures

Hawaiian Gods and Goddesses

Hawaiian Goddesses

Gods and Goddesses

Creating a Fantasy Religion:

Creating Part 1

Creating Part 2

Creating Part 3

Creating Part 4

Fantasy Religion Design Guide

Using Religion in Fantasy

Religion in Fantasy

Creating Fantasy Worlds

Beliefs in Fantasy

Some superstitions:

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[nimblesnotebook-blog]

Here, I have some more:

Africa:

Ancient Egypt: the Mythology

Egyptian Gods

Legendary Monsters of Africa

The Americas:

Aztec Mythology

Incan Mythology

Haitian Mythology

Mayan Mythology

Asia:

Chinese Mythology

Japanese Mythology

Korean Mythology

Hindu Mythology

Japanese Folklore and Mythology

Chinese Mythology

Europe:

Encyclopedia of Greek Mythology

The Olympians

Women in Greek Myths

Greek Mythology

More Greek Mythology

Even More Greek Mythology

Greek/Roman Mythology

Germanic Myths, Legends, and Sagas

Norse Mythology

The Muse

Creepy Irish Creatures

Irish Folklore

Norse Mythology

Arthurian Mythology

Celtic Mythology

Latvian Mythology

Norse Gods, Goddesses, and More

A Celtic Pantheon

Welsh Gods and Goddesses

Celtic Deities

Werewolf Legends from Germany

Welsh Deities

Celtic Gods and Goddesses

Oceanic:

Australian Mythology

Polynesian Mythology

General:

Ancient Myth and Magic

Massive List of Mythological Creatures

Mythical Creatures

Hairy Hominids

Cryptozoology

Mysterious Beings, Monsters, and Creatures

Amulets and Good Luck Charms A - Z

Modern Monsters

Myths and Legends

Folklore and Mythology (2)

More Links

Folklore, Myth, and Legend

Names of Gods and Goddesses

Folklore Mythology

[redadhdventures]

Reblogging because wow. What a resource.

[xiraccooon-deactivated20241123]

I applaud this.

[thechangelingpoet]

1: THE VVITCH: A Modern Female Gothic 

2: In 2017’s Movies, Poisonous Mushrooms Were an Unlikely Symbol of Female Liberation 

3: Plants, Domesticity, and the Female Poisoner  

4: Lecture on Symbol and Ritual in Studying Religion 

[fluoresensitivearchived]

favourite unsettling short stories?

“The Yellow Wallpaper” by Charlotte Perkins

“The Scarlet Ibis” by James Hurst

“Some of Us Had Been Threatening Our Friend Colby” by Donald Barthelme

“Hunger Daughters of Starving Mothers” by Alyssa Wong

“The Lottery” by Shirley Jackson

“The Tell-Tale Heart” by Edgar Allen Poe

“Haunted House” by Virginia Woolfe

“The Husband Stitch” by Carmen Maria Machado

“The Resling-Bowe House is Haunted” by Yah Yah Scholfield

“Four Ethers” by Yah Yah Scholfield

[podencos]

Summertime Sadness is a Thing, Johanie Martinez-Cools I’m Ashamed of How I Treated My Dying Husband, Lori Gottlieb The Most Gullible Man in Cambridge, Kera Bolonik The Late-Capitalist Privileges of Being an Art Monster, Sarah Elaine Smith Doing Things with Mashama Bailey, The Recreationalist How “Peanuts” Created a Space for Thinking, Nicole Rudick The Work You Do, the Person You Are, Toni Morrison How Toni Morrison Fostered a Generation of Black Writers, Hilton Als The Incredible Life and Tragic Death of Lyra McKee, Susan McKay Is the Internet Making Writing Better?, Katy Waldman In Brain’s Electrical Ripples, Markers for Memories Appear, Jordana Cepelewicz The Death and Life of Frankie Madrid, Valeria Fernández Toward a Theory of the New Weird, Elvia Wilk Yelp is Screwing Over Restaurants By Quietly Replacing Their Phone Numbers, Adrianne Jeffries Ingeborg Bachmann’s “Malina” Is the Truest Portrait of Female Consciousness Since Sappho, Rachel Kushner The Hidden Life of Anne Lock, a Forgotten Sixteenth-Century Female Poet, Jamie Quatro The Great Smoky Mountains’ iconic clouds are helping to protect the region from climate change - for now, Brooke Bauman #ETTU? Notes on Cancel Culture, Lidija Haas Police Killed Her Boyfriend, Then Charged Her With His Murder, Melissa Gira Grant Athleisure, barre and kale: the tyranny of the ideal woman, Jia Tolentino On Writing For the Sake of Writing, Jia Tolentino The Voice of a Microgeneration, Hannah Rosefield Ethiopia Says It Planted Over 350 Million Trees in a Day, a Record, Palko Karasz Jia Tolentino Wants You to Read Children’s Books ‘Someday, She Will Become Your Job.’ On Being My Mother’s Sole Caregiver, Elissa Altman Jia Tolentino Knows We’re F*cked—But Wants Us to Be Happy Anyway, Adrienne Westenfeld Dust storms in the Sahara are killing kids half a continent away, Kelsey Piper The Slow Life and Fast Death of DJ Screw, Michael Hall “This Shithole Made Me”: 4 Extremely Online Writers on How the Internet Broke Our Brains and How We Can Unbreak Them, Tommy Craggs The Catholic Church Should Abolish the Priesthood, James Carroll When a Fatal Grizzly Mauling Goes Viral, Eva Holland Who Do You Belong To?, Emily Lackey Born to Be Eaten, Eva Holland What Happens When Lyme Disease Becomes an Identity? Inside the Wildly Popular Forum Where Landlords Plot to Screw You Over, Rick Paulas Farmers’ Markets Have New Unwelcome Guests: Fascists, Kelly Weill Victims, Families and America’s Thirst for True-Crime Stories, Britt Peterson Warning to adults: Children notice everything, Jeff Grabmeier A Brief and Awful History of the Lobotomy, Andrew Scull Why Online Dating Can Feel Like Such an Existential Nightmare, Derek Thompson A Quarter of Humanity Faces Looming Water Crises, Somini Sengupta and Weiyi Cai A Reformed White Nationalist Says the Worst Is Yet to Come, Yara Bayoumy & Kathy Gilsinan

[smakkabagms]

Some Favorite Essays, Short Stories, Novels

Essays: 1. Helene Cixous - Laugh of Medusa  2. Anne Carson - Evil and Suffering in Modern Poetry  3. Kathy Acker - Myth of Romantic Suffering 4. Virginia Woolf - On Not Knowing Greek  5. Adrienne Rich - Women and Honor: Some Notes on Lying        - Adrienne Rich - Three Other Essays  6. Alice Walker - Looking for Zora  7. Anna Klobucka - Helene Cixous & Clarice Lispector 8. Joan Didion - On Self-Respect 9. Margaret Atwood - Am I a Bad Feminist?  10. Jeffrey Meyers - The Savage Experiment: Arthur Rimbaud 11. Jennifer Nash - Practicing Love  12. Paul J. M. van Tongeren - “A Splendid Failure” Nietzche Suffering 13. Albert Henrichs -  Loss of Self, Suffering, Violence: Dionysus 

Short Stories:  1. Clarice Lispector - Love  2. Anne Carson - 1 = 1 3. Margaret Atwood - Stone Mattress 4. Amy Bloom - Silver Water 5. Gunnhild Øyehaug - Same Time, Another Planet  6. Anne Carson - Back the Way you Went  7. Tatyana Tolstaya - Unnecessary Things 8.  Kirstin Valdez Quade - Christina the Astonishing (1150-1224) 9.  Clarice Lispector - One Day Less Novels: 1. Helene Cixous - Stigmata  2. Helene Cixous - Ex-Cities  3. Helene Cixous - Three Steps on the Ladder of Writing (my favorite) 4. Jean Genet - A Thief’s Journal (another link) 5. Judith Butler - Bodies that Matter 6. Clarice Lispector -  AGUA VIVA  (my favorite) Happy Holidays, friends. I hope you enjoy. - Love, E 

[franabernath]

Guys this blog holds a lot of bad energy for me just because of idk. Past life stuff! So I’m going to be restarting it with basically the same name so if you like my content and want to see what’s going on in my life, just go to @macillacamaulay

[franabernath]

Just wanted to post some appreciation for my love who is the best human on earth actually.

[franabernath]

Feeling constantly caught between doing my best to protect and care for my mental health and giving in to anxiety crying.