And there’s a part of you that will always miss him. Even though time does it’s healing, it still can’t erase all the built up memories and hope that was left in the dust as the space between you and him kept increasing. But it’s not like you want him back anymore either. What good would that do when it didn’t work out the first time? Maybe in the end, some things, or people in this case, aren’t meant to be together no matter how much you want it to happen. Maybe he was meant to be an experience, a mere stepping stone that you got all caught up in on your journey. This experience was new and different and exciting. You got so caught up in the possibility because you hadn’t experienced anything like it before. When he pushed forward, you pulled back. Then he pulled back and you finally realized the mistake you were making. You thought, “This is it. This is what I’ve been looking for.” But no it wasn’t. He never stayed long enough to keep whatever it was that you had growing. It became stuck at a standstill and there was nothing that could possibly change it. You can yell, scream, kick, fight it, or try to force it, but it still won’t come to fruition if the other person has stopped trying. This is the worst kind of falling out because there’s no definite ending, no real reason why or how things changed. They just did. And so you’re supposed to just accept this? You’re supposed to just keep going through the motions and living your daily life when all you want to do is curl up and run back to the time when the space didn’t seem so large? Yes. In fact, that’s exactly what you’re supposed to do. There’s no time to dwell because if it was meant to work out at that time, it would have. With trial and error, and strength and time, you just gotta pick yourself up and put yourself out there. You will eventually find someone who will stay. Someone that doesn’t make you question their motives. Someone that reminds you how important and worth it you are. And someone that makes everything seem so easy. You’ll find yourself a year later thinking about how silly you were to be all caught up in something that only seemed to be much stronger in your imagination. After all of this is said and done, you just have to keep moving along because this is all apart of the journey and your journey is really just beginning.
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