@franktheauror1x1 | fake death eater neville
Tell him? Merlin, Neville doesn’t think he can find the words for what happened today. For what he’s seen or what he’s done. He’d thought he’d been ready and that he’d get through it somehow, and while he did get through it without getting caught out as a fake, he hadn’t been ready. The amount of cruelty he’d witnessed is something he thinks he’ll never be able to forget.
Neville has no clue how he’s going to keep going forward with the plan, he thinks he doesn’t want to do it anymore. But. Looking at his dad patiently waiting for him to talk about what he’d gone through, his dad who has no idea just what his son has done behind his back, he thinks that he can’t give up yet.
He’s doing it for them, for his family and all his loved ones.
“I… I don’t think I can,” he quietly says, even though he really wants to. “…Not yet. Just. I needed you to know.”
I needed you to be prepared for what the future is going to bring, he doesn’t say, even if that’s exactly what he means. Dad’ll likely understand if Neville gets outed as a Death Eater, at least he’ll understand what Neville hadn’t been able to tell him, even if it’ll break them to think he’d gone against them to the Dark side.
That sounded very serious. Frank’s expression betrayed him; despite being capable of presenting an excellent poker face in even the most dangerous of situations, this was his son and something terrible was going on.
But, much as it broke his heart, he’d always tried to not be overbearing, to give Neville his space and keep the pressure off him that the rest of the family tried to apply. He couldn’t bring himself to change that now.
“Well, lad,” he said heavily, “I can’t make you tell me. I’d hope you’d trust me wi’ owt, but if you can’t right now... well, I hope you can soon. You know I won’t stop bein’ your dad, don’t you?” Along with everything being a dad implied. Whatever help or support his son needed.