@franktheauror1x1 | fake death eater neville
Tell him? Merlin, Neville doesnāt think he can find the words for what happened today. For what heās seen or what heās done. Heād thought heād been ready and that heād get through it somehow, and while he did get through it without getting caught out as a fake, he hadnāt been ready. The amount of cruelty heād witnessed is something he thinks heāll never be able to forget.Ā
Neville has no clue how heās going to keep going forward with the plan, he thinks he doesnāt want to do it anymore. But. Looking at his dad patiently waiting for him to talk about what heād gone through, his dad who has no idea just what his son has done behind his back, he thinks that he canāt give up yet.Ā
Heās doing it for them, for his family and all his loved ones.Ā
āI⦠I donāt think I can,ā he quietly says, even though he really wants to.Ā āā¦Not yet. Just. I needed you to know.āĀ
I needed you to be prepared for what the future is going to bring, he doesnāt say, even if thatās exactly what he means. Dadāll likely understand if Neville gets outed as a Death Eater, at least heāll understand what Neville hadnāt been able to tell him, even if itāll break them to think heād gone against them to the Dark side.Ā
That sounded very serious. Frankās expression betrayed him; despite being capable of presenting an excellent poker face in even the most dangerous of situations, this was his son and something terrible was going on.
But, much as it broke his heart, heād always tried to not be overbearing, to give Neville his space and keep the pressure off him that the rest of the family tried to apply. He couldnāt bring himself to change that now.
āWell, lad,ā he said heavily,Ā āI canāt make you tell me. Iād hope youād trust me wiā owt, but if you canāt right now... well, I hope you can soon. You know I wonāt stop beinā your dad, donāt you?ā Along with everything being a dad implied. Whatever help or support his son needed.