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UGHHH

I don't tell anyone this , but i feel so alone all the time , i am happy on my own i down need someone to complete me. But why always the third wheel , why don't i get to spend nights out with the guy i love. All of that was ruined and I'm finding a way to be okay without becoming col or insane and boy its hard. I punch walls and my heart it aches so much knowing it will never feel his tender touch again but I'm okay I'm strong and I'm beautiful.

B.A.E

Death

i thought about dying again, about my body smacking pavement , about my blood gushing into a sewage pipe about the first time i ever hurt myself. I felt all that sadness and insanity again i didn't wanna get bad again but I'm afraid i need to go away again and I'm afraid of what my dreams bring but I'm not afraid of death it seems peaceful. Its hard to talk about but i can't keep this all in my head.

i don't have anyone to talk to about my grief about my sadness about my pain, so i have to pretend its not there, like a ghost. I really wish I was a ghost.

B.A.E