can't keep my mind from the circling skies

alicanto 27, wing manifestation deep red tent, cabin 235 18+ oc/rp account

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night light

night light: who/what makes you feel safe?

I’m not really sure anymore, honestly...

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late night self reflective asks 🌙

cosmos: what's one thing you wish you could say to someone you are no longer friends with?

galaxies: what are three things you want to do before you die?

waxing: what is your proudest accomplishment?

waning: what is your biggest regret?

full moon: what type of person do you hope to be?

contemplation: if you could wake up one morning and everything in your life was perfect, what would that look like?

night light: who/what makes you feel safe?

ponder: what do you want to do with your life?

sunset: who is someone you thought would be in your life forever, but you no longer talk to?

midnight: are you a different person late at night than in the early morning?

candle light: are you an indecisive person?

reflection: have you ever changed something you liked about yourself to satisfy someone else?

sweet dreams: are you happy?

nightmare: what are you most afraid of?

constellations: who is someone you could talk to for hours and never stop?

reminder: who is someone you will never forget?

11-11: what's something you want, but feel like you will never have?

shooting star: who is someone you trust to help you make the right decisions?

earth: where do you feel most at home?

soothe: what's one thing that always makes you feel better when you're upset?

slumber: what's one thing that helps you fall asleep when it feels impossible?

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breathe in the air

[freakxalexia-blog]

“Oh, you haven’t had them out since before you were here?” she asked and nodded. “Well, make sure you bring them out more often.” She tilted her head and held her hand out for the feather, looking it over and running a finger over the feather gently. Alexia smiled up at him and came closer.

“It’s so soft…” she said with a gentle smile, patting his arm slightly. “Do you fly?”

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He shook his head as he handed her the feather, folding his wings against his back again. “No strength. No heights,” he murmured. “No fly.” He looked down at her hand on his arm, before back at her. “Only falling.”

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breathe in the air

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“It looked painful,” she murmured, not moving from where she was standing. She wanted so badly to reach out and touch them but knew it was a massive invasion of privacy to do it. Alexia clasped her hands in front of her and smiled at him. “They… suit you, Ali.” She smiled as she said that in halting Japanese but the words were said with rare sincerity.

She tilted her head at his unease and stepped back. “I’m sorry if you’re uncomfortable! I didn’t mean to spook you.”

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He rolled his shoulders and his wings rustled again. “Because, not since here,” he said softly. “First time...” He stretched his wings out fully behind himself before curling them forward around his shoulders. A trailing feather caught his eye and he reached out, plucking it with a slight wince.

He looked at Alexia before down at the feather in his hand, and offered it to her cautiously. “Startled, is okay.”

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breathe in the air

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freakxalexia:

Alexia had been hanging out alone when she spied Ali coming into her view. She was curious as to what he was doing and her interest grew as he started undressing. When she saw his wings come out, her jaw dropped and she sat up to get a closer look. Unfortunately for her, she leaned too far forward and fell out the tree she was sitting in. Cursing and spluttering when she landed, she rubbed her head with a soft “Ouch…”

She sat up and stared in fascination at Ali. She knew he had wings but to see them was entirely different. “Ali… they’re beautiful…” she whispered as she looked at him. Alexia wasn’t sure of the protocol when dealing with wings but she stood up, oblivious to her scrapes as she walked over to him.

“Uh… Sorry for that. Clumsy,” she said in halting Japanese. “Wing… no, wings. Beautiful.”

Alexia stopped a few feet away from him, not wanting to invade his space when he could probably knock her out with his wings if he wanted to. I mean, she was brash and normally ignored anything socially acceptable, but this… it was too beautiful to risk with her normal bratty behaviour.

He jumped when he heard her, his wings rustling as he looked around until he spotted her. “Ahh...” His first instinct was to wrap his wings around himself when he realized she was looking at him, but he fought it back. He watched as she came closer, his wings folding neatly against his back as he carefully stood up again. 

“Is okay...” he said softly when she stopped short, turning slightly and looking over his shoulder at his wings. “Only hurts... first time. First moment....”

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breathe in the air

He was nervous as he sought out an open empty space. Somi had been kind enough to let him stay while recovering, without doing anything to help out, and he knew he couldn’t let that continue on. It was time for him to start earning his keep.

Once he’d found a large enough area he started undressing. Zelos and Alexia had been kind enough to bring him all new clothes, and he didn’t want to damage any of them. His upper half bare, he shivered slightly in the March air. His back and shoulders were covered in scars- long and thick between his shoulder blades, with small round scars radiating out from there over the rest of his back and shoulders. 

He braced himself as he concentrated. Having a giant pair of wings sprout from seemingly nowhere was an uncomfortable situation at best, and after not having let his wings out in well over a month meant it was incredibly painful. 

He couldn’t stop himself from dropping to his knees, panting through the pain. Iridescent blue feathers covered his wings, and spread along his skin in the exact same pattern as the small circular scars he had- remnants of having plucked those feathers out by hand over and over again in the past. 

It took a new minutes before he felt steady enough to try and stand again, stretching his wings out to their full span of nearly twenty feet. Even if he couldn’t fly with them, the sight was still an impressive one.

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breathe in the air

He was nervous as he sought out an open empty space. Somi had been kind enough to let him stay while recovering, without doing anything to help out, and he knew he couldn’t let that continue on. It was time for him to start earning his keep.

Once he’d found a large enough area he started undressing. Zelos and Alexia had been kind enough to bring him all new clothes, and he didn’t want to damage any of them. His upper half bare, he shivered slightly in the March air. His back and shoulders were covered in scars- long and thick between his shoulder blades, with small round scars radiating out from there over the rest of his back and shoulders. 

He braced himself as he concentrated. Having a giant pair of wings sprout from seemingly nowhere was an uncomfortable situation at best, and after not having let his wings out in well over a month meant it was incredibly painful. 

He couldn’t stop himself from dropping to his knees, panting through the pain. Iridescent blue feathers covered his wings, and spread along his skin in the exact same pattern as the small circular scars he had- remnants of having plucked those feathers out by hand over and over again in the past. 

It took a new minutes before he felt steady enough to try and stand again, stretching his wings out to their full span of nearly twenty feet. Even if he couldn’t fly with them, the sight was still an impressive one.

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10 and 14

10. What’s the color scheme like in your room? Do the walls, curtains, bedsheets, and carpet match?

Deep red, because that’s the tent color.

14. What is the most fragile thing you currently own?

My cell phone, I guess?

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27, 30

27. What is the weirdest thing you have eaten before?

Cardboard. But that was an accident.

30. Have you read the newspaper lately? What were you reading about?

Not a newspaper, but I did look up my older brother recently online.

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5, 13

5. If you had a “Patronus”, what do you think it would be? Try to avoid taking any personality tests that would determine it for you.

Umm... an angel?

13. Look in your closet and report on the colors of your clothes. Do you need more of anything? If you have one, check your jewelry box and see what colors you have more of what what you have less of.

Well, Alexia brought me a whole bunch of different things, so I don’t feel like there’s any one dominant color, and I don’t have any jewelry.

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18, 26!

18. Would you help out a perfect stranger in need?

I was helped once by a perfect stranger, so I like to think I’d do the same, but right now I can’t say that for certain. Maybe in the future?

26. What was the last thing you snacked on?

rice cakes.

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Alright, Ali~ 8, 16, 24

8. Have you ever tamed anything wild?

Does a pigeon count? It used to visit me regularly...

16. Give us a status report on something you did today.

I managed to get through a whole routine of stretches, which I haven’t done since high school. My legs are sore now, though.

24. What was the last kind of candy or sweet you consumed?

Birthday cake, even though my birthday is still a few days away.

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Weirdly Specific Yet Tame Asks

What’s your favorite wild canine? (Like wolves, foxes, etc)

What’s your favorite big cat?

What’s your favorite herbivorous animal?

What’s your favorite aquatic animal?

If you had a “Patronus”, what do you think it would be? Try to avoid taking any personality tests that would determine it for you.

What was the closest you have ever been to a wild animal?

If someone gave you a pencil and paper and told you to draw the perfect animal, what would you draw?

Have you ever tamed anything wild?

Do you collect anything of your favorite animal? What do you have so far?

What’s the color scheme like in your room? Do the walls, curtains, bedsheets, and carpet match?

Currently, how many stuffed animals are in your room? Do you still sleep with a stuffed toy?

Is there a mess in your room at the moment? Any trash on the floor that should probably be taken out?

Look in your closet and report on the colors of your clothes. Do you need more of anything? If you have one, check your jewelry box and see what colors you have more of what what you have less of.

What is the most fragile thing you currently own?

What jewelry or accessories are you currently wearing?

Give us a status report on something you did today.

Have you noticed any habits of yours?

Would you help out a perfect stranger in need?

Can you sing? Even if you don’t think you can, sing the first song that comes to your mind.

Do you try to take care of yourself when you’re sick or do you rely on others?

How do you wear a scarf?

Who is the cutest person you know?

Are you forgetting about or slacking off on something you should be doing right now?

What was the last kind of candy or sweet you consumed?

What is the most expensive thing you have eaten?

What was the last thing you snacked on?

What is the weirdest thing you have eaten before?

What was the nicest thing anyone has ever done for you? What was the nicest thing you have done for someone?

Take your favorite purse/backpack/bag and dump out its contents. What’s inside?

Have you read the newspaper lately? What were you reading about?

What is something that you think is unfair?

What would you consider your most defining feature (physically and personality-wise)?

What was the high of your day today? What was the low?

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breathe in the air

He was nervous as he sought out an open empty space. Somi had been kind enough to let him stay while recovering, without doing anything to help out, and he knew he couldn’t let that continue on. It was time for him to start earning his keep.

Once he’d found a large enough area he started undressing. Zelos and Alexia had been kind enough to bring him all new clothes, and he didn’t want to damage any of them. His upper half bare, he shivered slightly in the March air. His back and shoulders were covered in scars- long and thick between his shoulder blades, with small round scars radiating out from there over the rest of his back and shoulders. 

He braced himself as he concentrated. Having a giant pair of wings sprout from seemingly nowhere was an uncomfortable situation at best, and after not having let his wings out in well over a month meant it was incredibly painful. 

He couldn’t stop himself from dropping to his knees, panting through the pain. Iridescent blue feathers covered his wings, and spread along his skin in the exact same pattern as the small circular scars he had- remnants of having plucked those feathers out by hand over and over again in the past. 

It took a new minutes before he felt steady enough to try and stand again, stretching his wings out to their full span of nearly twenty feet. Even if he couldn’t fly with them, the sight was still an impressive one.

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a lead role in a cage

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freakxalthaea:

Somi felt the hand on her shoulder, but she was too busy treating the suffering man to react. Even though she was not professional trained, Somi was good at her craft and she was going to make sure that this detox was done right. As she was able to gently put the pill into his mouth, she decided then that he would be staying in the medical tent, at first, and she would stay there with him more than she would in her own. She moved and lifted a bottle of water to his lips. “Drink,” she commanded softly, leaning her cheek against his hand for comfort. Her free hand moved to brush his hair. She had no idea what he was seeing, what he was thinking, but she knew that actual contact with a human could ground a person. She wanted him to know she was really there and he was safe. They would sit there as long as needed until he came around, as they were too far from where others would be and she was definitely not strong enough to move him herself.

He drank weakly, the pill still feeling dry as he swallowed it. She had called herself Somi, but he could see the halo around her head as he looked up at her blearily. Maybe she really was Angel... But then why leave him on his own in Tokyo, only to appear again here?

He curled into himself slightly, turning onto his side as his shaking slowly diminished, and soon he was still again. Would he be sent away again, or worse, returned to a cage?

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a lead role in a cage

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freakxalthaea:

Somi cursed in english under her breath. She had hoped she was wrong and this was just exhaustion or something. However, when it came to the medical field, she was usually not off. She moved to where she could lift his head gently and lay it in her lap to give him a bit of support, as well as lifting his head up slightly. She started rummaging through the bag she had brought, looking through her medications and stopped as she pulled out a bottle of diazepam. It was one she usually kept locked up, but had brought just in case of a bad anxiety attack. She was glad she had thought of something like that, because she needed to help with withdrawl. Quitting cold turkey off of such a thing could be potentially dangerous. While she would help him wean off, she would make sure that he was doing it properly. “Here.” She took out a dose enough for what she estimated his body weight to be and pressed the pill softly to his lips. “Open.”

He groaned again as she moved him, feeling as if he was sweating through all the layers of clothing he had on. His eyes refused to focus, but he tried to look up at her anyway, somehow knowing that this figure, with her warm hands, would help him. He opened his mouth obediently, reaching up a shaking hand to touch what he thought was his shoulder, still not entirely sure she was real.

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a lead role in a cage

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freakxalthaea:

It took only a moment for Somi to realise that the stranger was speaking Japanese, but why wouldn’t he be? She looked over him and sighed softly. He was clearly Japanese and they were in Japan, after all. She switched languages, taking his hand as she frowned. “No. I am Somi, leader of this circus. What is wrong with you? Is it poison, or something else? Tell me so that I can help you.” The stranger was exhibiting all of the signs of drug withdrawal, but  Somi could not safely jump to conclusions. She did not want to cause things to get worse due to a misdiagnosis. “Hey, can you hear me?” She shook him lightly, doing her best to not hurt him.

Souta groaned again, trying to open his eyes enough to look at her. “Somi... V-valium...” he forced out as shudders overtook him. He’d been through this once before, when Sensei had cut him off as a punishment. He knew it wouldn’t be much longer before he lost all control, and his wings would burst out of his back. At least he’d made it to the circus. If he was going to be safe anywhere, it was hopefully here.