Selfish - George Weasley x female reader.
readers pov:
The inevitable day had arrived. The day I so wished would never happen that it could be changed altered in some way shape or form. But no this was indefinite. George has never been school oriented or took an interest in the education system. I knew this I had prepared for his early departure years before the day but not that it's here my stomach will not stop turning. The nausea I feel can be described as melancholy and grief. I truly will miss him but there's no stopping him. That would make me selfish and a selfish lover is not a lover I want to be.
Him and Fred have dreamed of this for years and finally now they've achieved it. The love I hold for both boys is the extremely high. The thoughts of their younger adolescent selves the mischievous boys who urged to break the rules. The joke shop in diagon alley was there dream. And its left me in a position where i must be selfish to myself in order to be the best lover. I shall watch him fly off of his broom today with his twin and be left with the unknowing feeling of what will be left of us. Long distance is difficult especially when we are still so young. My exams are what I take pride in much like George with his pranks. My time will be spent revising , reading , completing exams and asking my teachers for any criticism which may be of need for me to improve. My goal is top grades full marks. I want a high end job good pay but most importantly one that I love. Through all of this when George is at school he slowly morphs his way into my schedule. A short hello through the day him helping me with my revision. A date break when he deems me to be overworking myself. With him leaving he shall no longer fit into my life anymore. I'd be selfish to ask him to stay because of this. And i'd be selfish to myself to drop my studies and prance off with him. I want to have my own career not just be someone's little housewife. I love him to dear to try and alter his mind or place any self doubt into him.
george's pov:
I have to leave my one true love. The only girl who ever only saw me not Fred. My dreams are coming true i'm going to make a name for myself get successful. I can get my parents out of poverty support them. Spend my time with my twin my best friend. But for all of these gains I loose my love. Part of me wishes she'd try and sway me tell me it's only a small amount of months left and that I should hold off. Or maybe tell me Fred can handle himself on his own. But I know her and I know she isn't one to be selfish. She rarely puts herself first in any situation. Before we dated her dreadful ex had taken advantage of this. Controlled all that she did it was cruel to have to watch it happen. When we went out it was a relief. I had to work for months to get her to trust me and to go out with me. Despite our friendship since first years she claimed she didn't know what my true intentions were and that anyone can present themselves as nice to a crowd. I've never worked harder for anything before. I allowed her the space to prioritise her studies. I kept to minimum contact. I refused to communicate with her in lessons to ensure all the notes she collected were to a high standard. I showed her how unselfish I was by allowing her to peruse her education unbothered. It's now her time to repay me back and allow me to leave.
readers pov:
The goodbye was bittersweet the pride I felt seeing him make it life get his goal was fabulous. However the daunting part knifed at my stomach my hands cannot stop their shaking. I suppose my biggest fear would be us. I'll hardly be the biggest conversationalist with my studies in work at this current time. He has to get the shop set up discuss his plans. My all time biggest fear would be that we grow cold of one another. Then a beautiful woman will walk into the shop they'll shamelessly flirt and he will be tied down to her. I'll find out through a visit feeling the coldness between us and how he warms to her. I'll cry and yell ask him why he didn't say anything to me about it and he'll apologise and claim he didn't know how to without hurting me. And then i'll be nothing more in his life but an ex a memory to tell his kids. A first love gone cold. I don't want to lose him and I don't want to stop him for doing what he loves. And to be quite honest I am nowhere near as brave as to end it with him now allow us to remain friends find our bearings. Leave him with the hope for both him and myself that once I get a job and leave school and once his business is fully set and he's settled we can rekindle our romance. I cannot let the boy go. If we are to part then so be it with his illicit affair. I am never to be a selfish woman I praise of myself dearly and selfish is not apart of me.
George's pov:
I couldn't possibly ask her to come with me. She would be miserable she hates living off of people. She'd hate to be my wife knowing i'm the provider. She wants to make her own money get the best job going live her life with a good education and a job that shows it. Asking her to leave and galavant off into the sunset with nothing but me and my twins dream. I'd be selfish. She'd grow cold and sour always be bitter towards me. She'd never say it in words as I know she loves me but i'd single handily ruin her life and she'd think that more than anyone. She'd blame me for why she has nothing in life. Her soul purpose would be me a wedding and kids. I won't be a selfish prat who ruins her life to get what I want. I hope she doesn't think i'll leave her during our time away from one another. She's the only girl that saw me for me. She loved me when i had barely any hair a squeaky voice and not a lot going for me. I wouldn't leave her for some women that finds me attractive because they can't have Fred and i'm the next best thing with a wallet of the same size. Our goodbye pained me. But I just tell myself the next hello will be worth it. Seeing her cry and knowing i'm partially the cause hurt more that expected. I tried telling her that I can wait and finish school with her. But her response wouldn't let me finish the sentence a fast no! So now we remain apart but the love is growing. i'll write to her everyday and wait until she's less stressed or busy for a reply. I'm obviously going to sneak back to the castle and see her the next set of holidays are too far away.










