secret account

https://www.3amp.baby/sgm2019

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they call me 𖦹 charlie

he/him ⋆.˚

animation software/webcomic ⤵️↘️⤵️

discord sexygirlmandy2019/webcomic (tumblr edition)

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I love their duo so much

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just deleted all my cool sgm2019 posts that spoil the entire thing.. now u'll have to look elsewhere >:J

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i love how all the instrumentals in broadway homestuck sound like they're being broadcasted through a tin can telephone

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A Great Milenko design :D

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chen: it's kinda ironic he's called free

chen: because

chen: because he's a capitali

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watching someone you care about go off with someone who is the bottom of the barrel is a mortifying experience

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IM MAKING ANOTHER ONE

HE CAN HAVE WHATEVER CUS HES NK HES THE GUNNNSMIIITTHH

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gonna stop tweaking abt tadc's ending to say that they did an amazing job proving that theatrical releases of indie animation can do numbers

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there is something so mortally wounding about applying to funding. i havemnt felt embarrassment like this in years. lord

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all im doing is asking for money in a decorated manner idk why im losing my capacity to concentrate.

guess i don't wanan get it wrong. i coud always applyt again tho . i need to stop acting like these people won't ever talk to me again even i don't express myself in the most................... best way i could had i known how to do it. i am also sure they invest in people who are on their first attempt but fuckkop34okol1

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there is something so mortally wounding about applying to funding. i havemnt felt embarrassment like this in years. lord

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my ocs and my fave symbols/imagery/themes that go with them. with 0 explanation to what the writer is suggesting through such character/scene texturing

free

western anything -> the horse ("Dark Beauty")

themes of duality (b&w Hair)

minecraft

nk

his ak-47

cigarettes

bugs

juxtaposed with veneer of sweetness & soft fem. i.e. earrings

his caravan

the rot in said home

chen

business anything

red scare anything

his scar

mandy

consuming

expansion -> over excess

omnipresence -> angelic/biblical imagery

her dress

fireworks

four04

ai brainrot

his face tattoo

kenny jacket

oh and th

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i posted this on tiktok im crine why no-one gaf

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i been thinking that the vid didnt have

a good enough hook

it wasnt that long either

and the mouth animation at the start was rough

the outro was a bit awkward too

so im gonna change that b4 i sleep tonight and reuplaod

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i also dk. whether to strip it back like fully reheating the slop tiktok style or keep it overproduced every capcut filter ever. i think i'll try different styles as i go along

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i posted this on tiktok im crine why no-one gaf

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been feeling existential lately

why is anything happening rn

i know i stop being "i" after "i" die(s?) but. does it keep happening. like a form of existence... how will i ship soulless tech apps when i don't even exist

no seriously literally why is anything happening rn. like why is there anythING. WHY. !!! how did it START LIKMA kjonefsijpK-0

tbh kinda reassuring bc surely if our entire fucking universe can come from NOTHING or whatever created it even if we return to an observereless "emptiness" after death (quotations bc a non-human """"consciousness"""" wouldn't process emotions like a human therefore not feel "empty" anyway) as our brain-based consciousness stops, entropy (given cosmic laws follow our universe's physics) surely would place us back into some form of Being... obviously i wouldn't be "charlie" or even human but something. maybe we'd all be together guys... ugh not the communists bein right...

ok let me get crockpot i gen don't think our universe is the first idk turtles all the way down or something. i think it;'s like 4th 5th 6th dimensional how any of all this came to being. like we cannot comprehend it viscerally bc of our reality existing in 3 dimensions

out of every consciousness i could be what are the chances i got to be british in the 2000s. like. what a fucking score.

and i think i am really cool so at least i get to be charlie for a while. it'll suck if i get reincarnated and i become paul the plumber or something. maybe my past lives were all like me. gengis khan. hamilton. van gogh.... maybe they all me. haha i jest i do not believe in reincarnation. but yeah let me say being charlie in this inexplicable cosmos. wow. i could cry but i don't. ok i shed a tear

this is why i study physics and pursue it. my brain yearns for these answers. i think they will be like mundane facts of life to our descendents just how like how inane it is to us how the seasons happened even tho our ancestors didn't have a scooby doo. I HOPE WE CAN CRACK IT IN MY LIFETIME THO. TOGETHER. OR JUST ME IF YOU GUYS CAN'T HACK IT (withhh or withouttt uuuu /lyr)

this is also why i study art & tech alongside physics. i think the answer to these require a polymath approach not some physics/chem/math allrounder

i had this dream i saw my dead granny again and i think it really reminded me of my mortality and turned my physics brain on again

edit: also i showed this post to some asshole who took it super seriously and like thoughtfully debunked a lot of "claims" i was making when this was mostly just a train of thought with some real questions in a little self-aggrandising. pls just see the nuggets of curiosity and slight touching moments i nestled in there. i know i am not super educated in physics atm still workin on da degree. tech as well. boy knows how to make a website 😭im crine

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DUDE my writing was so bad at the start of sgm2019 it was sooooo stifffffff i basically never wrote before in character voices so . it's interesting to look back on the last 1-100 pages.

mandy is allowed to be robotic but damn a lot of her speech is really awkwardly place and phrased in a way the mammoth of intelligence like her wouldn;'t trip on (but her pleb writer would)

also i figured out a lotta the logistics of their universe in solid terms within the 1-100. like i had ideas i just didn't know how to formalise them conceptually within the world as plot devices

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something that i wonder about is reducing dialogue and stuff. bc idk how for someone with nothing to say i make mandy just talking to herself 8 pages of text walls. but i think it's like in homestuck when hussie has been yappin abt leprachaun romance and flarp culture via arenea who is gonna die in an act with 0 plot relevance for 90 pages and then suddenly your hit with a sharp and punchy dialogue scene that takes 8 lines over 20 panels and you're like. woah. remembering that one forever.

in my own comic i think the nk scene from series 15(?) embodies that. for the first time the audience gets flarp flarp quirk chungus gay tumblr moment and it sticks out bc of that. i think 404 stands out bc he's very sharp and witty when he's not uh..

i also think the animations too will kill it's like watching the festival arc vs the rest of the dsmp lOSDLK

ok here's where we get into my ordinary life. i think a lot of these male visionaries were talking straight narrative whimsical bullshit a lot n i hope my texts pull like ayn rand's did to me. rand talks abt bs so much alongside her industry-philosphy ideas but her text is SOOO juicy tell me why im steamrolling pages to see some rich assholes from the 1930s ride a train for 100 pages

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DUDE my writing was so bad at the start of sgm2019 it was sooooo stifffffff i basically never wrote before in character voices so . it's interesting to look back on the last 1-100 pages.

mandy is allowed to be robotic but damn a lot of her speech is really awkwardly place and phrased in a way the mammoth of intelligence like her wouldn;'t trip on (but her pleb writer would)

also i figured out a lotta the logistics of their universe in solid terms within the 1-100. like i had ideas i just didn't know how to formalise them conceptually within the world as plot devices