thinking way too loud

i feel it so deeply in my bones she/her | 20

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james would start smoking simply because he got fomo when the smokers go out and take their smoke break and talk without him

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ilya breaking down sobbing immediately after shane leaves on halloween is the long game equivalent to “we didn’t even kiss”

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someone make a wolfstar edit to orbiter by noah kahan asap

“i’m an astronaut, you’re the moon, i stare at you, i sing to you”

“i’m an aging wolf, who lost the taste for blood, even anxious pups need the moon, i howl for you, i sing for you”

“if i’m going to lose you either way”

… are you kidding me??

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so actually, every song on the great divide: the last of the bugs is about hollanov

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“i’m coming to the cottage” but shane has zero recollection of ever telling ilya about his cottage let alone inviting him because he was high on painkillers lol

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the fact that ilya never drunk called or texted shane is truly astonishing.

also, imagine ilya tried to drunk call shane but he forgot that his name was “jane” in his phone so he spent the entire time trying to find his contact and thought shane had blocked him because he couldn’t find his number

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autistic shane hollander and adhd ilya rozanov i know you sleep with weighted blankets and white noise machines

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someone please write a fic where Shane doesn’t get injured and Ilya tries to break up with him and have it ultimately leading to an angry love confession or something of the sort. and if this already exists please drop the link 🙏🏻

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reminder that shane and ilya had to play a game against one another immediately after the tuna melt-down. if they played poorly against each other weeks after that scene (“where on the ice was shane hollander? and where was ilya rozanov”) one could only imagine the shit show of the game 24 hours post tuna melt-down

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jegulus au where they meet during study abroad and have to try to flirt with one another through their heavily accented english and different cultural norms <3

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my two current obsessions are hollanov frat boy aus and hollanov soulmate aus. actually just hollanov in general

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page count doesn’t mean anything to me anymore. tell me how many words it is

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barty brings evan dead animals as gifts like a cat does to its owner. evan loves it

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“i love her but not like i love you”

vs

“she would have loved you like i love you”

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the casting for anya is very important to me. istg if they cast a poodle mix of any sort, i’m going to lose it

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why is ao3 down again???

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ilya rozanov will win the idgaf war when it comes to everything but shane hollander

at one point in the book he gets called the f slur (before coming out) and he just shrugs and thinks “yeah, i guess it’s true”

but shane gets one text from rose and he has a mini tantrum