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One part wrote a whole ass species information sheet on its take on changelings and not only is it horrifying, its long as fuck and im here just like. My brother in hell, how can you Write SO MUCH?? like atleast the dyslexia runs in the system family cuz i noticed some errors /silly
godd that happens to us as well, we probably have dyslexia and struggle with writer's/art block BUT THEN we find FIVE WHOLE PAGES ABOUT LORE. LIKE. WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME YOU COULD DO THAT.
tbh,,,,thank god im a system bc lets be real if i wasnt i would be DEAAAADD!!!! like i cannot be left alone in front buddy! but srs im grateful for the others in this system, even if theyre assholes sometimes
<3 (if that isn't taken already?)
hell yeah anon, that's why the system formed, your brain went "hell naw i can't survive ts" and bam dissociation and parts forming
We had a little win today with identity in our system!
The part that typically (and only) fronts during our ecology related work experience has a name!
So far that is seemingly the extent to their identity, and while I do really want them to be able to figure it out, I feel like it's borderline impossible or will be excruciating slow due to rarely being seen fronting apart from this work experience (well its weekly, but you still understand my point hopefully). We only know a potential name, that they like hedgehogs and cows and that they like shaymin from pokemon and that they like ecology. I think maybe im slightly adversive to not knowing alot beause to me it felt like I already had some sense of a personality/identity when I formed from a split. I guess maybe thats why? I just don't think I personally would cope with just moving on and on without a solid sense of myself.
but i guess its a small win since I think that maybe we might be somewhat fragmented (in terms of total parts), or maybe im just unconsciously hogging onto front again? Idk how this fully works, but i dont want to help everyone be able to develop into their own person especially if they fit into a niche. But thats just me.
HELL YEAH ANON THAT'S SUPER AWESOME!!!! IT'S ALWAYS A WIN WHEN THERE'S A PART IDENTIFYING THEMSELVES!!!!!!!!! SO GREAT ANON, I HOPE YOU HAVE TONS OF SMALL WINS UNTIL THEY TURN INTO BIGGER WINS!!
I've never been the type of guy to be like "oh man I sure hope I don't split a fictive of a character from this show im watching" but I just fucking finished TADC and I heard a voice in my head go "Caine's just like me for real.... Just like me...."
the ominous bell tolling except it's the ominous voice saying "[character] just like me..."
one of the most prominent members of our system is heavily attached to a very unfortunate real-life source & she doesn’t want to detach from her source because it’s very important to her as a trauma-holder but she knows that others will hate her for being sourced from a real person who is only known for being the victim of a tragedy
not expecting advice i just need to talk abt her
hey anon, you don't owe anyone any explanation abt your fictives factives or introjects in general. it's literally fine if you're sourced from something someone may dislike. if it's any better, use discreet stuff?
Ok so I was having a mental breakdown because I've been feeling kind of hopeless being surrounded by shitty Christianity as a trans and gay person and suddenly our tsukasa tenma introject fronts and a song from the game he's in(Tondemo-Wonderz) starts playing in our head?? It was so out of nowhere lol it kinda helped. So like. Thanks, Tsukasa.
-Jasper🌲💢 of the Lacquerista Collective
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THE BEST WAY TO COUNTER SHITTY RELIGIOUS PPL IS GAME SONGS HELL YEAH‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️
sometimes i feel im not valid because a lot of us are persecutors and i feel embarassed about this but im a little scared of m headmates... and i feel even worse about it because i feel its mostly my fault and i know a lot of my headmates are scared of me or hate me because the shit i put them through and its to the point we all are in a cycle of toxic abusive behavior and keep stressing over it but idk what to do about it... sometimes it can help with processing trauma but i hate it when i have to deal with the stress of it being recreated in HS then having to remind myself i push for things to be super toxic and keep hurting the system and put us in harmful situations ik i shouldnt be acting like poor me when its my fault i dont know what to do anymore and stop something that feels like my only life if that makes sense
you are absolutely valid anon. persecutors are basically negative reactions to trauma, so it's valid if you have a lot. we also have a lot of persecutors and a subsys mostly full of them!
you can try logging your emotions maybe? just write stuff down with explanations? "i did x because of y" and stuff.
im sorry, i don't have much experience with persecutors as we don't know ourselves how to deal with them :( i really know it's frustrating but don't blame yourself, okay? you are also traumatized.
Upset and triggered myself so much I passed out. I’m awake again but I feel like I’m gonna pass out again bc I keep upsetting myself more. I’m mad and upset and I hate myself and I’m mad at my partner but they didn’t do anything wrong and I hate myself so much and I just want to feel okay but I’m so broken
I tried leaving front but I can’t even do that bc I’m too upset and I’m just forcing myself back into front all the time and I hate it sm I wish I wasn’t broken I wish I was normal I wish I hadn’t been abused and I just had a happy normal life it’s not fair
anon, it'll be okay. it's okay to break down. it's okay to be frustrated and angry. you didn't deserve all of that and your reaction is valid.
try talking out loud about it, maybe write stuff down. if you're too frustrated to do that, you can rip stuff apart. it's fine.
Theres a part in our system who wants to set up our memory log (information found from notes and mesaages from someone we deem close to us) however they havent really fronted recently and i still know nothing about them. I do kinda want to write in the log but i have no idea where to start. Im gonna miss a few pages so the other guy can write what they want to. I always say that to myself and then just not do it. I need to start writing logs man, i think it might bring more clarity on whose who during the day. But i dunno. I think i dont wanna do it to not interrupt the other part but im the host so im here more frequently compared to them. The only thing i know about them is that they seem to want to be productive and also changed our discord pfp to Jackalope from Milgram (I am trying to find a replacement but when ur hyperfixation is my singing monsters it can be a bit embarassing). Im thinking either someone from Persona 5 cuz I've played that recently... and thats really it tbh all ive been doing is drawing and coursework.
Also completely unrelated but we have so many 'me' pinterest boards... one of them just have aviator hats on another has jackalope from milgram and another one is a bunch of jirai kei and lace fashion. I have no idea if this is a universal experience or not. Maybe at this point i should make a pfp board and organise it by part... like yeah its midnight rn but i might aswell do it 🤷♂️
hmmmmm if you wanna specify who's logging, you could use different colored pens or sign-offs! don't worry about disturbing other parts, logging is a collective experience to help yourself improve!
also my singing monsters is lowk peak. never care about what others call your interests
TRIGGER WARNING: MENTION OF SELF HARM (Feel free to keep this in the inbox if this feels like too much to post on this blog, plus also take care of yourselves too mods, I'm not sure how 'heavy' it may be so please pace yourself!!)
So today I unfortunately relapsed back into SH. It was just over the fact that I was stressed about having to get coursework in by a certain deadline and then just being really upset over having no friends and support (basically everyone in the group just started ignoring me because 'I wasn't putting effort in the friendship'). I think it all just got too much and everything went downhill.
However how it happened makes me raise an eyebrow, I can remember the incident(s) of it happening, but it still feels someone hazy. I think maybe another Part was with me (I don't even know who was fronting, but if I remember it has to be me??). Cause from what I can hazily remember it was kinda like someone else was instructing me to do it, if that makes sense. They were kinda just walking me through the process, telling me what to use and how to keep it low as I was still in college at this time. The thing is I didn't even have an urge? I think it was that part that did? I'm just so confused cause everything to me felt so weird, that I was watching this version of myself do something that I haven't done in forever. It didn't feel like me and I also felt numb. It's...weird. I only have one person in mind who would do it, but It is more cynical and kinda mean so I don't understand why it would guide me through it instead of just telling me to?
Sorry maybe I'm making no sense at all but I just kinda reflected on it for a moment and figured that something was off. Again if you feel like this can't be posted on the blog that's perfectly fine, and please take care of yourselves mods, I don't want to accidentally hurt anyone cause of this, so I hope this is okay.
anonnie, any ask sent will be posted unless it's a hate ask or tumblr is being weird. nothing is too heavy. im here to help you.
i relate anon. we've also felt like we were "instructed" to sh? it was really weird and i still can't name it.
instead of sh, you can try distracting yourself if it's really bad. personally we wash our face, lightly scratch ourself, grit our teeth and sometimes just go to a secluded place ans break down. it's fine to break down or cry.
is it a Bad Sign to be questioning if we split a fictive of a character just to be provided with an alt name for the guy somewhere in headspace. who the fuck is SEASALT bro get out of my town you arent reallll/j
I'm being fucking bossed around by a gatekeeper. It keeps pointing at the computer and being like "Boy, search for xenogenders relating to the void" only for us to spend like a half hour searching and not finding what it wants. It also just took over and Jazzed Up its profile and it has so much more sauce than me
i think you should make your stuff prettier than its and begin a small competition >:3
