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working up the courage to message an old friend you've fallen out of contact with is weird, especially if you were really close. like hi i think about you almost every day and sometimes i dream about you and your name is etched on my soul. we haven't spoken in five years. how are you?

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ihavenohotcocoa

babe are you okay you reblogged got that fog in me 11 times

catgirlanarchist

wait, i did? i don't remember doing that...

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theman

I GOT A FUCKING RAISE THE POTATO WORKED WTF

tattooedzombigirl

This potato works. Every. Fucking. Time.

jayalaw

I need good news. So tired

numberonetrashwitch

Some observations about Baldurs Gate 3 that hit too close to home.

After another few runs i will probably just make an in-Depth Character Analysis for every character simply because they are good reflections of actual trauma-manifestations and how abuse can manifest in people. They are also so well written that it serves a narrative purpose to explore all the material that is out there about them. I am also personally cursed with actual medically-relevant levels of Empathy and Hyperfixation; so writing this helps me put a pin in it and move on.

But so far here are my highlights

(SPOILERS and obviously content warning bc these are deep)

before you ask; i have almost 300h in this game.

You have to convince Shadowheart to eat the Noblestalk. She actually stells you she rather get her memories back from Shar but when you hit the persuasion or intimidation (what the fuck) check to get her to eat it she'll tell you about her childhood friend. Not her name, not her parents but her best firend. Possibly because she has had a closer bond to that person after being abducted and indoctrinated. With her believing herself to be an orphan, she would've looked elsewhere for comfort and sought out her own family, this is why she falls hard and heavy for Shar and builds the backbone of her indoctrination. She is literally ripped out of her home & given a new identity to server her from all she has known. Religious indoctrination, Gaslighting, Abduction, being forced to let go of your personality are her main themes.

There is a scene out there floating around in which you see Astarions pespective of the night when he bites Tav for the first time, in his meditations he is confronted with the rules Cazador put on him, including that he can't eat intelligent creatures, can't be away from Cazador unless allowed to, has to obey every command and that they are should know that they are property. Which in turn means that Astarion literally didn't just have any autonomy, he was objectified (and not just through seductive/sexual measures) and that is really the crux to understanding why he doesn't believe in kindness, but rather shows self-serving behavior in most cases. Since we know that Astarion was extremely young for an elf before he died and became immortal (literally stopping the aging /maturing process) it is also very telling that Cazador constantly calls him brat, boy or other very juvanile names, refering to them as a family... well it is also the story of a very controlling parent. Themes of (Bodily) autonomy, infantilization ( & puer aeternus, forever-child), slavery, depersonalisation, corruption of life and torture to break someone.

Gale isn't just a guy hung up on his Ex, but also a victim of abuse. In this case a power imbalance none of us can fathom; She is described as being a jealous goddess and rules over the domain of mysteries and magic. So with Gale being a Wizard, she is literally his boss. He admits that he was foolish enough to aspire to be an equal to her, but she is so jealous that she tells him he can't really be worthy as long as he takes breath. She could just take his powers away and be done with it, that would be more than enough punishment for a guy who literally made Mystra and her domain his life's purpose, but she rather makes him do it himself. Add to that, that she literally only tells him this after years of self-isolation (after he put down so many wards that he could've blown up a whole army as he says if you click the right dialogue) to really fuck him up well. He also talks about death pretty much constantly, not surprising giving your situation, but he will tell you that he will kill himself at several points in the game, for instance after he comes clear about his nethrese orb. Themes of romantic abuse, power-imbalance, toxic work enviorment, self-isolating behavior, suicidal ideation

Wyll ... well from the looks of it he is the most well adjusted of all the companions (my opinion) but he has something that i'd describe as the "eldest daughter"-syndrome, more commonly known as parentification. This pattern usually occurs within single-household parents and is commonly described as a parent looking to their child for emotional or practical support, rather than providing it to their kid. We meet Ulder and see that he talks over Wyll a lot, not listening but expecting him to follow the standard he sets for him. That is also why Wyll repeats his fathers words like gospel (because this is what, in his mind, fullfills the expectations bestowed upon him) and why he loves fairytales / bard tales so much (because they are an ecapist view of the job he set out to do) Ulder literally exiled his teenage son because Wyll did the only thing he could to save an entire city, by sacrificing himself. Thats a lot to expect from a 17 year old - even more so, he doesn't stop with the heroics. He expects himself, as a human who hasn't even reached the age of 30 to hold up to mystical creatures such as Astarion or Karlach, or even Gale who is a accomplished Wizard. Themes of parentification, escapism, self-harming through putting himself in danger, chronic-self-sacrifice

In plain words; Gortash, Karlach's Idol sold her to a Devil. But add to that that she must have been pretty young when she was sold (late teens to early twenties possibly) and being that if you play as a Tiefling, you face a lot of predjudice she was likely forced into that position as well. Starstruck she was, with a juvenile naitivy that Gortash used. Appropriately, as he is the chosen of Bane the god of "tyrannical oppression, terror, and hate, known across Faerûn as the face of pure evil through malevolent despotism" (Source: Forgotten-Realms Wiki / Bane) So she pretty much was raised in a toxic enviorment, which forced her to become a killing-machine, first figuretively, then with the extraction of her heart, literally. Themes of slavery, oppression, misuse of trust, being taken advantage by a more powerful/older(?) person, being drafted.

Jaheira - to be honest, you need to know the lore of the previous baldurs gate games or just listen to her dialouge, ask her all the questions. She is a war-veteran against Bhaal, the good of ritual murder, and has a long history of fighting to achieve some sort of balance of power. She lost her husband and several close people all to this, or any other war, but due to her wisdom and strength people look to her for guidance. Themes of: Survivors Guilt.

Halsin - he is really closed off at first but then just casually hits you with "i was captured in the underdark and spent 3 years chained to a bedroom wall by a pair of drows who used me as they pleased". He is reprimanded by some of his druids for leaving the grove as soon as opportunity struck, just to get back and leave the next day, and if you talk to him about his position in the grove he is actually very forthcomming. He actively holds himself back; indulging in simple hobbies because he knows what lies within his heart. He is afraid of himself and his potential (canonnically he can't control his wildshape, which is very weird for an ARCH-druid) Themes of: impostor syndrome, avoidant-based self-harm, sexual opression, loss of control, emotional regulation.

Lae'zel is a very tragic case, and one that closely resembles the stories of Shadowheart and Karlach. Her entire existence is based upon a matriachial war society allowing her to live if she proves she can be of use and that in a culture which only values brutality, dominance & service. All of that culimating in her finding out that her oh-so-beloved Queen is actually just an imposter, and that everything she has lived for up to that point is merely political propaganda created to make her, and the rest of her entire species, willing pawns in a war that has no longer bearing on their survival alone, but is fought to justify Vlaakith's (the reigning monarchs) personal ambitions. Not only is she forced to reconcile that she is turned into the thing that controlled her kind for hundreds of years, that the only cure she knows of would kill her and then on top of that, that her hopes and dreams were lies and that she is now the Nr 1 enemy of the person she has served with all her being. themes of: oppression, propaganda, casual violence, objectification, child-warfare, eternal warfare

Minthara in short, her story is about being shamed for growing up in the same scenario that Lae'zel grew up in. Lolth, the god of the Lolth-sworn drows is a crazy queen who values scheming & backstabbing so much and is so volatile that you can't know what to expect of your deeds (and i mean it; there were people who were appraised by her for scheming against her, but also those who were killed. It's almost random.) She considers Lolth to be cruel and abandoned her for the Absolute, only to then be used and abused the same way Lae'zel has. Not with promises, but erasing her memory and exposing her perceived weakness. Themes of: casual violence, violent culture, her own ambition colliding with her desire to be safe, being a pawn in a larger game.

bigandlong

If you see this on your dashboard, reblog this, NO MATTER WHAT and all your dreams and wishes will come true.

jae-felidae

Oh hey! Haven’t seen this in forever! Didn’t reblog it when it came across me before, not gonna skip it this time, I need some good vibes.

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Characters Last Words Spoken ACOTAR Edition

Character First Words Spoken ACOTAR and ToG Edition

Character Last Words Spoken Throne of Glass Edition to come (expected date Fall 2018)

By order of appearance

Amarantha - “Please”

Alis - “Blood rubies or no, you will always have one friend in the Summer Court.”

Beron - “I shall consider it.”

Thesan - “Nothing,”

Ianthe - “And I do not think your glowing trick will help.”

The Suriel - “Leave this world … a better place than how you found it.”

Kallias - “Wasting it on winnowing humans–”

Eris - “We’re taking care of a problem,”

The King of Hybern - “Romantic, but ill-advised.”

Tarquin - “Today and for many years before.”

Tamlin - “Be happy, Feyre,”

Viviane - “That’s not even remotely funny–”

Drakon - “Kicking us out already?”

Miryam - “As soon as the injured are ready.”

Lucien - “Tamlin–”

Helion - “I doubt we’ll be so unified when we walk out of here.”

Nesta Archeron - “Do you think it will work–this meeting?”

Jurian - “I do.”

Amren - “I’m entitled to say what I want.”

Mor - “We need a drink.”

Elain Archeron - “After all of this … I think the world needs more gardens.”

Azriel - “It’s real,”

Cassian - “And what are we going to do until then?”

Feyre Archeron - “On this adventure–and all the rest?”

Rhysand - “Always.”

khalemchurstcomics

POLYAMORY ISN’T FOR EVERYONE - The end

This is the end of this story. I really can’t believe I got here. I started writing this comic years ago because I couldn’t seem to get over this breakup. I was still heartbroken, I still missed my ex, I still felt hurt by everything that happened. I wanted to get past it, but I just couldn’t seem to let go. I went on a real journey whilst writing this comic. For a good portion of it, every time I would draw a page, I would spend hours in tears. The wounds felt that fresh. Then for a while I felt angry as I drew. Finally I started to feel acceptance. This was an important time in my life, and even though some pretty rubbish stuff happened, I wouldn’t undo it. I feel like I have a new perspective on that relationship now. I’m not angry. I’m not sad. I’ve let go and moved on. My life now is the happiest and healthiest it has ever been, and I’m looking forward to my future.

I’m thankful to my ex for the good times she gave me, even though there were bad times too. We’re not in contact any more, and I think that’s for the best, but wherever she is, I hope one day that she finds peace.

Thank you to everyone who has come on this journey with me. I appreciate how many people shared their experiences along the way - with polyamory, with relationships, with their lovers and exes. It has meant so much to me to know that others have faced this heartbreak too.

Next week I will go back to updating my other comic, I Do Not Have An Eating Disorder. I’m so excited to get back into that comic, because it is now a straight run until the end. I am working with Tumblr staff to try to fix the directory page though, because all my links have disappeared! I will work on it.

So much love,

Khale xox

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From the beginning

frejyanoname

It’s so weird to think i started reading this around the time I went through my bad breakup with my ex-fiance. I kept reading because I saw the same warning signs in the relationship that were in mine. I saw myself in this and the situations. It’s hard to see it over but it gives some hope that maybe I can eventually move on, and no longer be angry.

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The last year

NOTE: I am better now, exponentially so every day now that I’ve gotten help and medication. I wouldn’t be writing this otherwise. This is venting in retrospect.

This is a mix of me explaining How I Been and also venting to get shit off my chest. I wanted to make a comic about it, but I think I just need to get it off chest faster. Last year was just… bad. And I guess I wanna talk about it cuz I kept a lot to myself and in a way I kinda… wanna acknowledge how shit it was. Especially now that I’m getting better, medicated and in therapy and all that stuff.

This is like… really stupid long. It’s partially me venting cuz I wanna just yell about the last year, and also like… I spent the whole time telling no one about it. And I am kinda, I don’t wanna suffer in silence. And I wanna reach out to people? I dunno. This is very Livejournal of me, lol. I guess I just wanna talk about it cuz it was just such a fucking, big deal I guess.

Anyway, I guess warnings for depression, death mentions, suicide mentions, and just general Bad Time All Around.

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frejyanoname

Thank you for sharing this. I've been reading/watching your art for years and im happy to see your flame hasn't been extinguished. You're a big inspiration. Thank you

It hurts to laugh 😂 #2dopequeens #jessicawilliamscomedy #podcast

#2dopequeens #jessicawilliamscomedy #podcast

After that outburst I wouldn't want to work with either Diana. #reading #book #booklifeisagoodlife #readinglife📚📖🤓✌🏼️ #discoveryofwitches

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Keep in mind...I'm on CHAPTER 8....the book is 43 chapters long with 579 pages.....my speed reading may not help me here.....#discoveryofwitches #bookstagram #readinglife📚📖🤓✌🏼️ #booklifeisagoodlife #book #reading

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POLYAMORY ISN’T FOR EVERYONE - Page 71

I REALLY didn’t think I’d have to fight her on this one. I thought it was pretty common practice in open relationships to use protection, and I certainly wouldn’t presume that lesbians should get a free pass on that. There’s a lot of misinformation floating around about women who have sex with women and our ability to catch STDs, but we are just as vulnerable as anyone else. She was so casual about it though… it made me feel like I was crazy, for having ‘demands’ that were so out of line with her ideals.

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......... ........ *needs to held back over that last statement* FIGHT ME

#polamory #comics

Whaaaaaaaats THIS :3 I wasn't able to get this at ECCC and get it signed ;3; but I'm glad I have it now ....also go read her book Not Your Sidekick #cblee #notyoursidekick #seventearsathightide

#cblee #notyoursidekick #seventearsathightide