First I Love You (Mike Wheeler x Reader)
theme: after eleven, he finally realizes what he’s been missing out on this whole time.
warning: ANGST to fluff, reader is down bad for mike, LOWKEY your his rebound ( what can i say i like a little bit of hurt)
You silently watched as Mike stared out the basement window in some sort of trance. Everyone else was playing board games and having a good time but not Mike. He has been out of it since last month when Eleven disappeared along with the upside down, her ultimate sacrifice.
Sure everyone else was a little sad, but life went on. Mikes life came to a standstill as he came to the realization he’d never see his first love again. He dreamed of her at night and woke up begging for her to come back hoping she had heard him somehow. Nancy worries and tells you about it all, and you are left heartbroken. One, because your best friend since childhood is hurting so deeply but also because his heart belonged to another and probably always would.
Even so, like an instinct, you came to his side to try and heal the wounds you didn’t create.
“Mike” you say softly. You sit down quietly, as if one sharp movement could send him spiraling. He turns his head to you and gives you a half hearted smile. It doesn’t fool you. “ Do you want to talk about it?” i probe softly.
“ theres just nothing to say. She’s just gone and now, I guess, I just don’t know what to do” he says as long overdue tears start to form in his eyes. You look behind you to see Dustin Lucas Max and Will all still playing board games laughing. They don’t notice Mike tears yet and so you grab his hand softly and lead him to his bedroom so he can speak freely. So he didn’t need to hide.
Once you shut the door, he starts to shutter. He backs into the door and slides down to the floor as he caves into his self. You quickly join him on the floor resting your hands on his knees gently. Your mouth opens and closes as you try to find words to say. “ I know that you might feel a little lost without her here” you wince at the way your voice cracks when you say “her”. “ But I want you to know that Mike Wheeler is more than just being El’s boyfriend. “ you pause before continuing. “Don’t get me wrong she is truly amazing. “ you say as a single tear rolls down your face. Mike is now looking at you like you are his last lifeline. His lips quiver seeing your tears. Out of pure instinct, he immediately wipes it and you lean into his touch. “ And I know it is going to be hard without her, but I don’t want you to forget you are amazing too. Eleven needed you, just as much as you needed her. Your so strong and you always make people feel safe.” Your crying harder now and Mikes pulling you towards him more now. “So if you are feeling lost just know that the party still needs you” you whisper the last part and drop your gaze to the floor. He softly grabs your chin to guide your head back up so you will meet his gaze. Even so, you continue to avoid eye contact but he only moves his head in response.
“the party?” he whispers giving you a knowing look with tears still in his eyes. a look he always gives you. a look that made you fall in love with him in the first place. a look that meant he saw you and knew your heart. you couldn’t hide even if you tried. More tears stream down your cheeks as you decide to remain silent.
“the party or you?” he scans your face looking for the answer he already knew. “both” you pause, “but yes, me” you breathe out. you hate how your heart skips a beat when you hear his breath hitch at your confession. his eyes soften and he cups your cheek softly.
“ yeah i need you too.” he admits quietly. the way it comes off his lips makes it sound like a dirty secret, something to be ashamed off. stupidly enough, you can’t help but feel happy that your feelings are finally being reciprocated. even if he didn’t want them to be.
“ i need you to” he repeats impossibly softer this time. hes talking more to himself now than he is you. then his eyes are scanning your face but in a way he’s never done before. He looks like hes mesmerized or like hes actually seeing your face for the first time. you recognize the look because he gave it to eleven all the time. the thought alone is enough to make you cringe away from him. as if he could feel your emotions change he starts, “ I never let myself see it until now tho. And i know it sucks that it took me losing someone else to see it.” he pauses trying to think of the right words to say. “ and for a while now i’ve felt guilty. like i was saying im okay with her being gone.” he chokes out
“but i can’t help it, and im tired of fighting it” he says as he leans in with tears slipping from his eyes again. his eyes were now locked on your lips, and you sigh into him.
“tired of fighting what?” you whisper as he skims his lips against yours.
“how i feel about you” he says before fully kissing you. the kiss is passionate and hot. his tongue enters your mouth you gasp when he pulls you into his lap. your now straddling him and his hands run up and down your thighs softly. you bring your hands into his hair and tug softly. he groans before attaching his lips to your neck sucking on your sweet spot.
your breath hitches and your eyes shut at the sensation until a realization hits you. your eyes fly back open and you lift mikes head out of your neck. “holy shit, thats gonna leave a mark” you say anxiously. mike doesn’t seem the least bit worried as he slowly dips back down to your neck. his lips softly grazing the new hickey he just made
“i know.” he whispers into your skin before attacking the same exact spot








