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Narthex

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was the last person he talked to. it hurts in the dark

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been trying to encourage my friend Will to start making stuff again. Zack was his best friend. Will is the type of person that is neurotically driven to create on a daily basis but when Zack died he stopped everything. this is what he sent me today after seeing me play a set last night 😭. not sure i'll ever receive a more meaningful compliment.

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my aperture is broken. everything is foggy.

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invasive anger and refusal feeling like a fucked up salve

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need to find a way to excorcise this tension and ache from my body. feels like i was in a car crash. sleep is not sleep really.

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was with Zack that morning before he died. He told me something that shook me, he said "everytime I'm away from you I miss you." thought he was teasing, shot him a skeptical smile, but he said "no i'm being dead serious." we'd read each other deeply. he saw me. and i know exactly what he was really trying to communicate when he told me that. one of the most graceful gestures a friend has ever given me. we had the same dreams and fears. we loved each other so much. miss you forever 🤍

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brutal

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