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4. What is their size and build? How does it influence how they use their body, if it does?
For such an outstanding student, Khadgar is, physically, rather average. I would say he’s about 5′8″ and of the appropriate weight for that height. There’s little else to say on the matter currently, but he grows into his ego a little too quickly. That’s a story for another ask meme, though. ;)
His body is his primary tool for his craft; within him is the arcane energy required to cast magic, so he looks like he’s drawing it out from his core a lot. His size doesn’t particularly influence this much at all. I just think it’s neat!
8. Where and when do they seem most and least at ease? Why? How can you tell?
For such a young fella, he never really seems to relax. No matter what he’s doing, he is always on edge, always ready to jump out of his seat and do something, always ready to go. Very easily startled. Whether this is due to stress or excitement remains to be seen by the general public but I can tell you right now that it’s a pretty solid amount of both, with stress being just a hair of a contributor.
Poor kid takes himself pretty seriously. A little too much so. It’s hard for him to calm down and enjoy the scenery no matter where he is or what he’s doing; even when he has the time to read whatever he pleases in Karazhan’s expansive library, he is furiously taking notes and copying pages from the books (illustrations et al!) to study.
He needs direction to calm down before he even considers doing so. Somebody literally has to tell him, “You can relax, Khadgar,” and he’ll look kind of surprised, but his shoulders will visibly drop. I think his favorite place to attempt to unwind is at the very tippity-top of Karazhan. The vastness of the sky and the surrounding forest is soothing. Feeling small in the grand scheme of things is something of a comfort to him.
15. What kind of inner life do they have — rich and imaginative? Calculating and practical? Full of doubts and fears? Does it find any sort of outlet in their lives?
Sort of a mixture of all three of the examples provided, honestly. Not everything he says and does is entirely practical, and he is learning, with the help of Medivh, of course, that an imaginative mage is a powerful mage.
At first, he was an activist for practicality - someone who thoroughly believed that doing things by the book was the only correct way to do things. This came to him at that age where we all think we know everything 100%, so as he grows, he is finding this line of logic to be quite flawed. In his mid-teens was when he decided that thinking outside the box might make things a little more enjoyable and provide different, albeit better results, and he was right; this is a part of why he was chosen to be Medivh’s next apprentice. He and the old wizard don’t think entirely too differently.
He struggles deeply with his self-worth, and by that, I mean that while he’s proud of what he’s accomplished, he cannot help but wonder if it was truly he who was meant to accomplish these things, or if his being a go-getter got him something someone else may have deserved more. He is often humbled by others refusing to take him as seriously as he tends to take himself, and it can take a strange toll on his self-esteem at times, but he also learned from the Guardian that one must humble himself from time to time for the message to truly stick. He still can’t help but wonder if people don’t take him seriously because they know he doesn’t deserve the position he’s in, though.
Proving his worth is pretty high up on his priority list right now, needless to say. He wants them to believe it, and, more importantly, he wants to believe it. It surprises him each and every day that Medivh seems to believe it.
His outlet lies in his studies - when he doesn’t want to think about something unpleasant, when he feels particularly undeserving of what he has, he plunges himself into learning newer and more grandiose spells. Sometimes, it goes very well, and he rides that high for weeks on end. Sometimes, Moroes has his work cut out for him.
16. Do they dream? What are those dreams like?
I think his dreams make no sense, at all, whatsoever. There’s never any context and they never actually mean anything. He just has very strange dreams that keep him sort of baffled throughout his entire day sometimes.
Leave the meaningful subconscious visions to the prophets and farseers of Azeroth.
23. How do they respond to difficult social moments? What makes them consider a social situation difficult?
To him, socialization isn’t difficult - it’s just not his field of expertise. Not something he’s rigorously trained himself to be the best at. He fancies himself decent with people, and he isn’t entirely wrong - he conveys exactly what he would like to convey. It’s not his fault that next to no one actually takes it that way.
Spending time away from the formal atmosphere of Dalaran and having someone to talk to in poor, old Moroes as well as being allowed to make his days what he’d like of them from time to time has given him more of a chance to learn what socializing is really like, and to find that he quite enjoys it! Awkward situations are standard fare, though. He accepts their existence, and handles them by making this face (O__O) and then gently correcting whatever was said about or to him. Pinching the bridge of his nose and rubbing his eyes are your key indicators that Khadgar is uncomfortable. It’s very much a “can we not?” gesture. He just wants it to be over with ASAP.
As for genuinely difficult situations, like someone being very upset, he is shockingly graceful. He listens well, and tries to relate. To empathize. Solidarity is what soothes him when he feels upset. A feeling of isolation has plagued him his entire life. He thinks that maybe people will feel better if they don’t feel so alone, because he KNOWS that he would.
When that doesn’t work out, he simply listens.
Any situation wherein there is no immediate “solution” is difficult to him, social or otherwise. But he enjoys the challenge. Helping someone is as much an accomplishment as learning to cast a particularly complicated spell.
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