the worst part of summer is that people get sooo comfortable expressing their disgust at having to see other people’s bodies. they’re always complaining about wrinkly old men at the nude hot springs or fat women in bikinis at the beach. I hate that shit. if you’re not capable of being normal about bodies you personally don’t find attractive, just turn your head to look at something else! and if you’re not smart enough to do that, then at least do the rest of us the courtesy of suffering in silence, because we don’t wanna hear your weird comments. thanks.
sloppy tigerstar(the first) sketch because this asshole had so much potential he just needed to be fleshed out properly. like every other adult that’s still into warriors i have my own au/rewrite of the serious and i can’t stop thinking about how i’d change him.
pinestar having been his father and leaving tigerkit and his mother to be a house cat was such an interesting concept. (hollypelt is going to be his mother instead.) following the loss of nightkit, mistkit, and pinestar, hollypelt becomes severely depressed. she’s an older queen and thought she had finally gotten a chance to have a family before it was too late, just for things to go sideways. she fights so hard to stay around for tigerkit and be present, but she’s so emotionally devastated, she never truly recovers.
tigerkit knows she loves him, but the distance and emotional numbness does not go unnoticed. and in my au he is apprenticed to bluefur, a deeply respected and skilled warrior. who is also still grieving the loss of her sister, and is very obviously more concerned with whitepaw, her nephew. so despite his efforts to impress his mentor and gain her attention, he is once again neglected. this is not intentional on bluefur’s part either, but it damages tigerpaw regardless. he attacks tiny to drive him off their territory, to show bluefur how good of a warrior he can be. instead he is reprimanded for his unnecessary violence. that incident causes a major shift in their relationship, and instead of fighting for her approval, tigerpaw begins to deeply resent her.
hollypelt does live to see him become a warrior but dies shortly after due to her old age. while tigerclaw is not responsible for the trauma that was inflicted upon him, he can still choose to process and heal from it. but he doesn’t. he internalizes everything that has happened to him and directs it all towards bluestar.
in his adult life, he has cats who love and support him. his mate, goldenflower, as well as his friends. but the anger and pain he holds on to never allows him to move on. he craves control, because in the back of his mind it is all he can do to protect himself. if he has power, if cats follow his lead without question, then he will never be abandoned again. so when he murders redtail, injures cinderpelt, and attempts to kill bluestar, it is all necessary in his mind. he tells himself he is doing it for thunderclan, but deep down is doing it to guard his own wounds instead of healing them.
i also need him to be SO jealous of firepaw. yes the guy still gets a lot of backlash for being a house cat, but bluestar so clearly adores him. in a way she never did tigerclaw- in the way he so badly needed her to. he is a strong, loyal warrior, born to a long line of leaders. yet it still isn’t enough for her, or anyone else. but for some reason a cat just being introduced to clan life is. he’s so pissed about it and has crazy one-sided beef with this kid.
so yes he’s deeply traumatized and suffering from the impacts of emotional neglect, but he allows it to consume him. he chooses to wallow in pain and misery for his entire life and fight for power to make himself feel secure. sad pathetic loser dressed up as the meanest kitty in the forest lololol
“bella learned to love herself for who she was and opened up a bookstore somewhere sunny and ended up with jacob black and lived a long, happy human life,” i scream as they drag me away to the hospital
do not let your loneliness convince you that indifference or someone who is constantly hot + cold is better than being alone. being misunderstood or unappreciated is a loneliness of its own
Just got a chatgpt ad where the use case was "can't decide a new years resolution". I can't think of anything more sad than needing a robot to tell you what your own ambitions are. Loser shit.
