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[luna-azzurra]

OC Job Ideas (Dark)!!!

[starlitsecrets]

Remember when joining fandom as a younger person meant lurking for a bit and figuring out the vibe and etiquette instead of coming in on day one and calling people weirdos for liking weirdo shit in the weirdo factory.

[semiweirdshipper]

And I'm excited for this anonymous user to be forgotten history. Little did they know that Lullaby Lies has nothing to do with Victor Gideon. I was just sharing a silly post implying that he inspired the idea.

Do you see, loves? Do you see why I feel the need to protect myself and my creations? I'm so sick and tired of this crap.

[froslassxfallout]

Im on my knees BEGGING parents to start wearing protection. Please stop giving birth to annoying anons like this.

[semiweirdshipper]

Hello,

I was re-reading My Saddest Journey and I was wondering : are the other survivors even feeling guilty over what they've done to Reader ? The killers are trying to fix the damages they've caused and it seems to work little by little, but for the survivor camp, it's difficult to believe there isn't at least one who regrets telling those lies in the first place...

Have a nice day.

Hi Odvie!

Are you referring to My Own Exit Gate instead of Saddest Journey, by any chance? I've been sitting, thinking... What'd the survivors lie about in MSJ?? But I'm fairly certain you meant Exit Gate. I apologize if I'm wrong!

So the survivors in Exit Gate don't really see the reader as anything more than a walking casualty/problem that they don't wanna admit to creating. From the beginning, they only saw the reader as a pawn that they could use to escape trials and win sympathy. A sad truth in life is that nobody likes to take responsibility for their actions. I do plan on having some survivors awkwardly help the reader during trials, but that's about it. Most of the comfort comes from the killers. And while some survivors do feel guilty for their behavior, there are other survivors who don't want to deal with the consequences of their actions.

Just remember what Dwight and Claudette said in chapter 2!

"If you think about it, Evan, (y/n) actually could kill herself and everything would be fine... It's what she wants after all."

"Yeah, that's right," Dwight agreed out of realization, "The Entity wasn't even summoned to punish her, so that means she could-"

Foreshadowing! :D

If it was Saddest Journey you were talking about, then I'm very sorry! If you're okay with it, please elaborate your question and I'll do my best to answer. Thank you, Odvie! I hope you have been doing well ❤️

[froslassxfallout]

Would serve em right if the entity started helping reader. I mean thats gotta be a lot of emotion to harvest in return for helping them revenge wise.

[thisworldisinhysteria]

[froslassxfallout]

A student studying the ways of revenge-ology

[semiweirdshipper]

Talking about a new fic "Lullaby Lies" for a few folks who asked.

Lullaby Lies is one of the darkest fics I've written so far in the way that I depicted the killers closer to how they truly are. Sadistic, cruel, merciless freaks.

It's set in the dbd world. A large handful of killers band together to kidnap around six survivors at a time. They bind them to chairs and muffle them. And then they play a game. They ask each captive survivor, one at a time, a question, and if the survivor doesn't answer the question honestly, then they will be brutally punished. With each set of questions comes a new type of punishment.

Example: "Have you ever purposely left a team mate you didn't like behind during a trial? If you lie, then your index finger will be broken."

The Executioner is the one who observes and informs the other killers whether or not the captives are lying.

The reader is an underdog who is being taken advantage of by some of the popular survivors. They can't say anything because they're afraid no one will believe them, and so they've been suffering quietly in the shadows, no help, no one to talk to, and too afraid to stand up for themselves. When they get kidnapped by the killers, the reader is terrified but refuses to lie in fear of being hurt.

The night goes on. The reader lasts dozens of sessions and receives no punishment because they do not lie. Other survivors either end up dying from the brutality or fall unconscious, and they get replaced with a different captive. The killers grow fond of the reader and their honesty, and they tease them and praise them.

Eventually, some deep questions are asked, and a secret gets exposed. The reader lies for the first time- and the lie is about being a victim. The killers realize a few things, and they act on it.

This story is very graphic with gore, broken bones, and other kinds of body horror. The reader is held captive and forced to witness awful torture from terrifying killers. The killers touch them in threatening ways (Herman putting his hands on their shoulders, Evan holding their jaw, Frank grabbing their fingers, Michael holding a knife to their ear), but do not hurt them, so angst and intimidation galore. When they lie about being a victim, things take a turn. You can guess what might happen next.

So... Yeah! That's the gist. A horrid game the reader gets sucked into that exposes all of their dark secrets. What's worse? Lying and being punished by the killers? Or telling the truth and facing the consequences from the people who hurt you in the shadows? It's a tough story, but I've been having fun writing it! It's been a while since I've gotten to write this much angst. It's fun.

[froslassxfallout]

I know which one I'm looking forward to

[semiweirdshipper]

Heyo!

I've been meaning to ask this for a while. I remember one of your posts where you mentioned you didn't get to write Miracle of Moonlight the way you originally wanted.

Now that you're writing more for yourself first 💜, I was wondering if you've ever thought about revisiting it and writing it the way you originally envisioned. I found the ideas and plans you shared for it really interesting. Like many others, I've always enjoyed your writing when you're writing the story you want to tell.

No pressure of course. I was just curious. 💙🦈🎼

No worries! Feel free to ask any questions you'd like. I love answering ❤️

I think that my passion for Miracle Moonlight is officially gone. I don't see myself ever putting any thought into it ever again. I'm sorry if I disappointed you any with this answer.

Miracle of The Moonlight is a good example of why I want to keep future updates and stories to myself. I focus too much on results and wind up losing all of my passion. When a chapter or story fails, I get upset, I ask what I'm doing wrong or what I could be doing better, I think too much about what the viewers would want, and then I get more upset when all my effort still fails to get desired results. And my passion turns into doubt, dread, hate, insecurity and anxiety.

If I had kept Miracle Moonlight to myself from the very beginning, I believe that I could have kept my passion for it and written it exactly how I wanted to because the only person reading it was me and therefore only my opinion mattered. But alas, I allowed myself to get overwhelmed with results and expectations. I don't want to do that anymore.

There is no hope left for Miracle of The Moonlight, but that doesn't mean that I don't have some crazy, new stories going on. I think everyone will like one story in particular, Lullaby Lies, which is a very dark, very angsty story, but I won't blab about it unless someone wants me to.

Thank you for your question! I hope you have a fantastic day, my love!

[froslassxfallout]

I WANT YOU TO!

[semiweirdshipper]

I've gotten a few messages and I'd like to clear some things up.

First, my decision to keep updates and future fics to myself is in no way anyone else's fault, especially in our community. Please don't fret. No one here did anything wrong. I'm not upset with anyone. This is a personal decision that I made for my mental health.

Second, I'm not giving up. Did I insinuate giving up? No, I didn't. I said that I wasn't done writing. I'm going to keep writing, but I'm going to keep it all to myself until the stories are completely finished. I'm not giving up. Quit getting mad, quit making fun of me or I will block you regardless of whether or not you're in our community. I will not tolerate disrespect. My fanfiction is free. Don't be an entitled, selfish jerk, or pay me if you want updates so badly.

This decision is solely meant for me. I'm not getting engagement when I post or update stories, and it makes me feel disappointed, insecure, sad, and de-motivated. Paired with the stress of this horrific year, I've been dangerously depressed. I'm not gonna lie, I want to delete every single one of my stories. I've already deleted a select handful. But there's still a small part of me that wants to share, and I don't want to upset anyone who genuinely enjoys my stories.

The biggest reason why I'm going to keep my updates to myself is because I'm trying to prevent myself from deleting my existing works. The negativity I receive from updating stories impacts me so much that I don't see any reason to keep posting/sharing. I start feeling like an idiot for ever trying to begin with, and I start asking myself why I share at all if no one appreciates it. And yes, I know people do appreciate it and like it, but this is my battle with my own insecurities.

Let me give you an example of what I'm trying to achieve. My Own Exit Gate is coming to its end soon. I estimate 3-5 chapters more to go. I'd like to dedicate my time to it, write each chapter out and keep them to myself until it's completely finished, and then post those remaining chapters all at once. Then it's done! Finished! I don't have to deal with disapproval, loss, or lack of engagement. The work is done. It won't be changed, and I can move on.

When I update existing stories, I suffer. I get detached, de-motivated, and upset. The negativity ruins my passion, and I don't want that anymore!

Right now, I have more than ten ongoing stories that I'm keeping to myself, and they've never been posted. The Empathy Boon, Lullaby Lies, The Bighorn Prisoners, Left in The Maroon Lake, and a few untitled ones are all bad guy stories that I have decidedly kept to myself to avoid losing my passion by the negativity I receive from publicly posting. And they all have multiple chapters! I work better when ungrateful people aren't beating me down all the time.

I'm sorry. I really am. But this is what's best for me. If you aren't happy, then please leave. I know that the people who truly understand and care will stay.

[froslassxfallout]

🙂 Whatever happens you're stuck with me as a fan of your writings

[semiweirdshipper]

Hello,

I was re-reading My Saddest Journey and I was wondering : are the other survivors even feeling guilty over what they've done to Reader ? The killers are trying to fix the damages they've caused and it seems to work little by little, but for the survivor camp, it's difficult to believe there isn't at least one who regrets telling those lies in the first place...

Have a nice day.

Hi Odvie!

Are you referring to My Own Exit Gate instead of Saddest Journey, by any chance? I've been sitting, thinking... What'd the survivors lie about in MSJ?? But I'm fairly certain you meant Exit Gate. I apologize if I'm wrong!

So the survivors in Exit Gate don't really see the reader as anything more than a walking casualty/problem that they don't wanna admit to creating. From the beginning, they only saw the reader as a pawn that they could use to escape trials and win sympathy. A sad truth in life is that nobody likes to take responsibility for their actions. I do plan on having some survivors awkwardly help the reader during trials, but that's about it. Most of the comfort comes from the killers. And while some survivors do feel guilty for their behavior, there are other survivors who don't want to deal with the consequences of their actions.

Just remember what Dwight and Claudette said in chapter 2!

"If you think about it, Evan, (y/n) actually could kill herself and everything would be fine... It's what she wants after all."

"Yeah, that's right," Dwight agreed out of realization, "The Entity wasn't even summoned to punish her, so that means she could-"

Foreshadowing! :D

If it was Saddest Journey you were talking about, then I'm very sorry! If you're okay with it, please elaborate your question and I'll do my best to answer. Thank you, Odvie! I hope you have been doing well ❤️

[froslassxfallout]

Would serve em right if the entity started helping reader. I mean thats gotta be a lot of emotion to harvest in return for helping them revenge wise.

[semiweirdshipper]

Dear lord of the dandelions, I was about to lose all hope. Thank goodness. If I had lost this account...

[velvettedarling]

Haven't drawn this outfit and pride is just around the corner. O.O

[killerkyw]

I stumbled across your radiostatic relationship hc comic this morning and I just want to tell you that as a very traumatized acespec person it brought me so much comfort and joy 😭 I love soft radiostatic but soft RESPECTFUL radiostatic is even better

AGHH thank you SO much for leaving this ask! it brings me immense joy to know that my content brought you comfort!

after i posted that radiostatic established relationship comic, multiple acespec people have told me they felt validated and seen by it as well as non-ace people have praised me for putting it out there and it's so heartwarming to me, as someone who's (absolutely unsure of his sexuality but) also generally put off by sex, i had to put a little bit of my experiences in there and seeing people relate and find themselves in it as well means the world to me

(they exchanged pins hehe~)

this may seem obvious to some of us who have already had the joy of finding our spaces to be openly queer, but to the rest of the world as well as people who are struggling with their sexuality and are unsure and in shitty spaces, it should be said:

asexual and ace-spec people are valid and deserve to be respected, to have their boundaries known and heard, you are loved, you are human, if you dislike the general idea of sex or having it, you're not any less of a person for it; don't let anyone tell you otherwise, asexual people can still be in fulfilled and happy relationships regardless of their partner's sexuality, aroace people who don't want any type of relations can still find fulfillment in non-romantic relationships in life, aro and/or ace people can still do these things if it brings them joy regardless of whether or not the form or reason it comes from being different than non-ace spec people

[killerkyw]

happy pride! i've been struggling a lot as of late due to a few things that have happened in my life that ended up with me spiraling, so unfortunately i don't have any new art to show yall, i havent been doing many basic things either so it's nothing that has happened here, i'll likely be posting new stuff once my mental health is restored, but right now? i just kinda feel like doing nothing forever tbh

[mx-jester]

Wavewave as a Twitter ship meme

[jjoneechan]

📻📺 Possessive much, Alastor?

Someone on Twitter kept replying on every post for jealous Al so HERE I GUESS LMAAOO

[forestfawnstudio]

Best friends!!💗

[jjoneechan]

📻📺 Glases! 👓

Thinking about box Vox wearing human Vincent glasses

we’ve seen Vox wear sunglasses but how did they stay on? I think they were taped to the hat iirc 😭😭 so if he needs to wear glasses I wonder if projecting them onto his screen will give him the clear vision he needs or maybe cuz he’s a TV he sees in HD already? even better for me cuz my color palette hc for Box Vox is that he’s sepia toned so he doesn’t see in color until later

bonus Al wearing the glasses

[garlicnoodle1]

QUEENIE TURNED OUT TO BE A BLACK WOMAN. I REPEAT. QUEENIE IS FINALLY CONFIRMED AS A BLACK WOMAN LET’S GOOO

[alastorluver]

[hishumanbelle]

I'm dying!