[frostdanced]

𝗿𝗲𝘄𝗶𝗻𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗰𝗹𝗼𝗰𝗸 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝘀𝗮𝘆 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗶 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗸 / 𝙞𝙣𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙖𝙙 𝙤𝙛 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙩𝙖𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙞'𝙢 𝙤𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙗𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙠. FROSTDANCED. a highly selective and sporadic writing blog for kuchiki rukia of tite kubo's bleach. unaffiliated with any fandom and the larger rpc community. this muse was originally featured on my multi @phantoania, and moved 1st of december to her own blog for friends. i am a very slow writer and one who enjoys character analyzation and working on metas so i tend to do that a lot. i also post liberally when it comes to ooc. in general, i don't adhere to the usual standards of rp blogs, i'm too adhd to keep up with trends and what is or isn't aesthetic. i'm a menace and rukia is punk pop actually. law.

NOTES ON MY CHARACTERIZATION. i'll likely make a formal post with stats and the like at a later date, but the general notes for my take on rukia are as follows. i write her as dfab genderfluid and inclined to use they/she pronouns most, he/they are also used when she is presenting more masc / in the world of the living. girl does not have a romantic bone in her body in the usual sense and is very queerplatonic actually with her relationships / partners. physically she is in her early twenties but has enough of a babyface that she passes for a high schooler to strangers / humans. she is baby tho like frfr. yes she has much rage but she's babygorl usually. unless ur renji or ichigo, good luck then if you are.

studies on. from rags to riches, the cycle of life & death, winter as rebirth, familial connection and a want to belong / to find home, how to live when what you've always done is survive.

pinterest. playlist.

AFFILIATED. vaingore, fukouhei, kiriage.

[vaingore]

@frostdanced. — nii-sama, is pyonpyon hiding in your room again ?

pyonpyon . . . a member of the family he didn't agree to so much as he found it under rukia's bed when putting her haori in her room. he hadn't the heart to turn her away, she cradled the rabbit to her chest, looked at him with eyes like lavender moons and said brother, please. byakuya conceded. he underestimated how often he and pyonpyon would be left to their own devices. how often he might find the rabbit curled in his closet, shedding hairs clinging to the hakama of his shihakusho.

there's a stretch of silence. something about the name is just so undignified. he's always careful to say pyonpyon as little as possible. " i haven't seen him. you may check the room thoroughly. it would be best if he was kept out of my belongings. "

" pyonpyon . . . is your responsibility. "

[frostdanced]

a sheepish laugh leaves rukia as she feels the weight of his words. it was true she had taken the fluffy creature in with...little in the way of asking before doing so. however! she knew deep down the two got along well! even if byakuya did make his annoyance at finding rabbit fur all over his things known fairly often. pyonpyon was perhaps the closest thing there had been to a family pet in...honestly, any of the years she'd been a part of the kuchiki clan. so that made him special in her eyes. he was such a cute lil guy after all! a cute and round little french lop who was impossibly fluffy to her, with his cute lil nose and mouth!

"i know, i know. i try to keep him in my room or the gardens but...well, he likes you. or i think he does, why else would he always at your door or hiding in your room?" a small smile graces rukia's features as she enters his room, carefully looking over his space for signs of the rabbit. though pyonpyon had been brought in by her as something of a means to make her more comfortable when she was in the kuchiki manor, she also knew there had been times when the rabbit would linger near her brother. particularly whenever rukia was away working or in the world of the living. it made her happy to know that even when she was gone someone else was there to greet her brother back from his own duties. even if it was just a rabbit.

[frostdanced]

cooking with the bestie out here tonight,

we've decided rukia has a slightly chunky floppy-eared white bunny that stays with the big bro when she's away and any time byakuya says its name it makes any and all nearby workers nearly die from trying to not laugh maybe.

[handsomekakigori]

She tiny

[petbrain]

i adore the term "puppy love" i think i will love like a puppy all my life

[frostdanced]

you don't have to take this on .

meme / accepting.

his words barely registered in her mind, the sound of his voice dulled behind the echo of her heartbeat that hadn't settled for the last several seconds. minutes ago she had found him in the hallways of the sixth division's offices, told moments prior that her brother had been looking for her, and felt mild apprehension and anxiety over what he wished to speak with her about. now she just had a single sentence echoing in her brain.

you've been tasked with going to the world of the living.

it was a simple mission that would see her in and out within a day at most, seeking the execution of some low-rank hollow, but it was still one that felt tremendous for her! in spite of her good grades and work ethic, she had seen herself not given as many chances as her former academy peer. by now most who had been in her class had already exterminated numerous hollows and gone to the world of the living twice over. but her? she'd been saddled with simple errands and tasks, largely paperwork really. this was a first! it left her with a feeling of pride and a hope to do well, not just because of her own ego, but because she wanted to prove herself strong and capable to byakuya kuchiki, her brother. rukia saw this mission as a chance to possibly pay him back for the things he'd done for her. prove herself deserving of the kuchiki name.

"but i want to, nii-sama! i promise you, you don't have to worry. i know it's my first one like this, but i'm confident it will go smoothly. i promise i'll tell you once i'm back!" i don't ever want to disappoint you...

in several weeks, the young kuchiki would be listed for execution.

[sushisushigore]

IT'S HER DAY

[frostdanced]

what did i clearly say ?   what were you not to do ?

meme / accepting.

"uhmm, would you mind repeating it again?" she's trying to be cute, or endearing. whichever gets her not in more trouble. which was probably too late now given, from her perspective, she was already in trouble by the tone he was using. she tried to not be a hindrance to those like him out of simply wanting to stay on their not-shitlist, so to speak. but that was a bit hard when you were...well.....the reckless sort. just a little. never by choice, of course! only by personal code and cause sometimes old habits / tricks could prove useful. even if those bad cards up your sleeve could bite you in the rear later on.

with the amount of bandages on her right now, she'd say she was in need of updating her old cards a little. at least make it so they didn't get her so bruised, and fewer glares. "i am sorry for putting you out like this. uh,...my bad."

[frostdanced]

'why do u think rukia is genderqueer' well,

she just looks very good when boyish / masc leaning and i think she loves it frankly. she loves the way you can play around with outfits in the world of the living maybe. she's a bit of a vkei rock liker too aside from eternal chappie / cute things enjoyer.

[frostdanced]

"will you go? please. go."

meme / accepting.

"you don't know what you're asking for." her voice is steady, her eyes on light yagami yet not looking at him. they're looking through him, almost. or around him? she can't tell. it's hard to tell where the changes begin and where they end. is this peculiar air around him stemming from his weird notebook or his very being? is it his mind or his soul? part of her says it's clearly attached to his soul given her evidence and ability to see it. but the back of her mind tells her she can't be so sure. it's like watching steam from a hot springs or warm plate of food, it dances around his frame and dissipates. but it's not fading away. it comes and goes like a small fire, but it doesn't truly go out. he's growing ansty under her scrutiny, out of the corner of her eye she can tell he's throwing things, some of his own desk notes go flying through her, but they just go through her. hitting the wall behind her and falling to the floor.

she feels bad for him. it's her job to observe humans in situations like this, meddling with things of a nature not of the living, but she can't tell if he could really be considered living anymore. something sticks to him she's never seen before and it makes her dizzy as her mind tries to figure out a path of action. she knows she should report this.....this peculiar state he's in, but rukia isn't so sure that's a smart idea. again the back of her mind tells her it'll just end badly if she does. "you don't know what you're messing with anymore, light yagami! death isn't something humans should play with! it'll just end in things you won't want." with her final warning, she vanishes from his room. leaving that thing with him under the moonlight's glow.

[frostdanced]

i am so sneepy i've been in bed all day and just crawled out at like 4pm but maybe i'll be here in the bg. just know i'm always thinking abt rukia and her bros. squad six is all that matters to me actually.

[frostdanced]

me looking at me doing four whole writing things today like. power of long rooted hyperfixation. got that shit on tap

[frostdanced]

was this part of the plan ? did you know about this ?

meme / accepting.

there's a pause following her looking to renji, a familiar blank look in her gaze before she suddenly shifts into a much more confident and bold attitude. "o-of course! how dare you ever doubt me! have you no trust in me!?" to speak in such a loudly grandiose manner is all rukia can do to act the part of being smarter than she maybe is. there was no doubt about her intellect and book smarts, after all! lest of all when compared to his!

an anxious twitch of her confident smirk would be all that hinted at the actual reality in her brain. she had no idea what she was saying or going to do, but she at least knew she could fall back on old tricks with renji by her side if necessary.

[frostdanced]

this is ridiculous , there’s nothing out here .

meme / accepting.

it took all her practiced grace to not groan out in frustration every time her companion talked. she was an aggressive one by nature, be it committing to violence in the name of survival / sustenance or taking an active role in requested missions and such. it simply wasn't in her mind to ever think of complaining about something, that was a privilege never offered to her. even when she rose through hierarchy and career ranks alike. her pride wouldn't let that occur.

"maybe you should get a check-up, perhaps buy some new eyes. maybe even invest in a two-for-one deal for a new personality."

[frostdanced]

"if you’ll excuse me , i have work to return to."

meme / accepting.

"oh, c'mon, yagami-san!" rukia's voice is joyous, a stark contrast to the rumble of anxiety and insecurity that permeates from one light yagami. the man she'd been sent after to locate and observe. her attempt at blending in his university gone without a hitch, her prior exposure to playing human providing a nice boon this time around. to everyone around them, she was just one rukia kuchiki, a newly transferred student with decent grades and background. a youth bright and friendly to everyone who saw her, she'd been gaining in popularity for her lighthearted attitude. she'd also been gaining attention for the way a similarly popular fellow student avoided her like the plague.

unlike everyone who silently observed them at this moment, he knew her not to be just like everyone else. just like how she knew him to be more special than everyone thought. he was a blight on a radar she had to watch and she was a thing that stood out his window watching him.

casually she pats him on the back, stopping short of slinging an arm over his shoulder ( he was too tall ) in a buddy-buddy fashion. smile still painted on her face as she spoke low just for him to hear, wanting to avoid any eavesdroppers. "it'd be unfortunate for your popularity if everyone kept stirring up rumors, right? i don't enjoy them either, ya know. i just wanna have a talk. honest."

[frostdanced]

if tumble eats up any of next few posts i'm killing a guy over it

[ohisms]

↪     𝑖𝑡'𝑠 ᵗʰᵉ 𝔩𝔞𝔰𝔱 𝑴𝑰𝑫𝑵𝑰𝑮𝑯𝑻 .   (  a  collection  of  sentence  starters  from  disney’s  2014  film  into the woods .   adjust  phrasing  as  necessary .)

the king is giving a festival !

i wish the walls were full of gold ,  i wish a lot of things .

sometimes i wonder what’s going on in that head of yours .

what are you doing ?  stop your pretending .

are you certain of your way ?

the way is clear ,  the light is good .

the woods are just trees ,  the trees are just wood .

are you really wearing that ?

it’s not what i wish ,  it’s what you wish .

i could’ve turned him into stone .  or a dog .  or a chair .

a small price to pay for what you stole from me .

well ,  that’s another story .  nevermind ,  anyway .

sorry ,  i’m still not mollified .

how could you do that ?

your father was no father ,  so why should you be ?

we’re starving ,  [ name ] !  don’t you understand that ?

we have to live ,  i don’t care how .

look what i found .  here ,  take this .

no ,  i can do this on my own .

it may be all in vain ,  you know .

i have no fear ,  nor no one should .

careful not to lose the way .

what’s your rush ?  you’re missing all the flowers .

look what you’re ignoring .

why do you think i asked you to do it in the first place ?

get me what i need  …  get me what i need !

you’d look pretty foolish .

i’d rather a wolf than you any day !

you shouldn’t be here ,  it’s not safe in these woods .

i was just trying to help .

we have one chance .  don’t you see that ?

i’m not sure i’m cut out to be a father .

if you can’t do this for yourself ,  can’t you at least do it for me ?

don’t you look lovely today ,  my dear ?

i brought your favorite .

i can’t believe i just did that .

wait a minute ,  i never thanked you .

i’m sorry .  i should’ve known better .

i had been so careful ,  i never had cared .

he made me feel excited ,  well  …  excited and scared .

they will not protect you the way they should .

nice is different than good .

isn’t it nice to know a lot  …  and a little bit not ?

oh ,  get your head out of the clouds !

i just need to catch  my breath .

aren’t you the lucky one ?

please don’t let them know that i’m here .

i’ve never lied to royalty before .

it’s not quite what i expected .

you’re free to do whatever pleases you .

steal what you can and run !

you’re back again ,  only different than before .

i never even reached home .

who cares ?  get it back .

get away from me with that ,  you fool .

i shouldn’t have yelled .

i will make things right ,  and we can carry on with our lives .

will you go ?  please .  go .

when the one thing you want  …  is the only thing out of your reach .

the woods can be a dangerous place .

i thought you were returning home !

do you mean you’re going to let me stay with you ?

perhaps it will take two of us to have this child .

i thought one was enough ,  it’s not true .  it takes two of us .

when the journey was tough ,  it took two of us .

at home i’d fear we’d stay the same forever .

what did i clearly say ?   what were you not to do ?

what have i been to you ?  what would you have me be ?

i embarrass you .  you are ashamed of me .

don’t you know what’s out there in the world ?

someone has to shield you from the world .  stay with me .

who out there could love you more than i ?

the world is dark and wild .

stay a child while you can be a child .

i gave you protection ,  and yet you disobeyed me .

where you’re going ,  no one will ever see you again .

whichever you pick ,  do it quick .

it’s fun to deceive when you know you can leave ,  but you have to be wary .

at home ,  they don’t care .  i’m better off there ,  where there’s nothing to choose so there’s nothing to lose .

wait ,  please !   i haven’t much time .

that makes no sense !

what is that you have in your hand ?!

i would recognize these beautiful eyes anywhere .

is that you ?  i’m blind ,  i can’t see .

you could’ve been killed !

i was just thinking of the greater good .

i don’t have the constitution .

as long as i can be no help ,  i’m going to hide .

i don’t know where they think they’re going .

this is who i truly am ,  my dear .

why did you run off ?

i will not come with you .

you leave me no choice .

i shouldn’t complain .

i’m not allowed to leave the palace unescorted .

if you’d like ,  you can come with me .

i shall not forget you ,  and how alive you’ve made me feel .

you’re hurting me !

stop ,  stop !  i said stop !

this is all my fault .

remorse will get you nowhere .

when you’re dead ,  you’re dead !

this is no time to be soft - hearted !

you’re responsible ,  you’re the one to blame .  it’s your fault !

you’re all liars and thieves .

you’ll just do what you do .

it doesn’t matter if we’re together or apart .

i’m sorry ,  i did a foolish thing .

i didn’t realize ,  i was being careless .  selfish .

you stole and got caught and did what you do !

i hated myself .  i ran away from my guilt and shame .

aren’t you making the same mistake ?

be better than me .

i knew you wouldn’t give up .

that doesn’t matter ,  now .

first ,  we’ll need a weapon .

i did not recognize you ,  what are you doing here ?

maybe i’m not your only love .

if you love me ,  why did you stray ?

i thought that if you were mine ,  i would never wish for more .

i was raised to be charming ,  not sincere .

i think you should go .

i’m glad you’re here to help me .

you are not alone .  no one is alone .

you’ll do nothing of the kind .

what he did was wrong .  he should be punished .

it’s not as easy as that .

who can say what’s true ?

believe me ,  no one is alone .

people make mistakes .  fathers ,  mothers ,  people make mistakes .

you decide what’s right .  you decide what’s good .

just remember ,  someone is on your side .  someone else is not .

i miss her ,  too .

how can i go about being a father when i had no father to show me ?

sometimes people leave you  …  do not let it grieve you ,  no one leaves for good .

things will be alright now .