Just Call Me Ren

Huge bbc merlin fan. that's it. that's my entire personality.

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He took a deep breath in. This could not be happening.

“I love you” Arthur repeated.

Merlin knew that there was still the telltale traces of gold in his eyes. The world was crumbling around him; the trees seemed to grow into blurry stripes in his peripheral and the lush foliage of the forest turned into blobs of green.

“No, no Arthur” The warlock begged. “Don’t be cruel” a small tear escaped his eye.

“Merlin. Merlin, it’s okay, it’s okay!” The prince tried calming him down, but his manservant only seemed to speed up his breathing, eyes blurring nearly unseeing.

“Ar-thur” he rasped in between breaths.

Arthur slowly walked towards Merlin as if he was approaching a startled child. For every step the prince looked up to check if it was okay for Merlin.

When he finally reached him, he hesitated before putting his arms around his shaking friend.

“Shhh Merlin, it’s okay, it’s okay shh I-“ Arthur soothed “I- I’m so sorry Merlin, I should have told you I knew. But- but I just wanted you to trust me, and now I’ve gone and made you suffer more.”

Merlin looked up at the blonde “you, you knew?” He whispered.

“Yes, Merlin, can you remember 5 months ago when I was really angry for 3 weeks?”

Merlin’s brows furrowed, “where you kept destroying training dummies?”

“Yeah”

The warlocks breathing had calmed down a fair amount, he even huffed out a laugh at the response.

“I was angry, because what the hell was a sorcerer doing in Camelot doing my dirty laundry?!”

Merlin looked up with a hesitant grin “mmh I wonder that myself sometimes” he tried bantering, only really betrayed by his voice cracking mid sentence.

There was a lot of things to talk about, really, both Arthur and Merlin knew it, but for now they let themselves rest in the knowledge that the long hidden secret was out in the open.

“And actually it’s warlock” Merlin added a little braver, with a smug smile, before placing his face into his prince’s neck once more

“Hhm, and the difference?” Arthur spoke into a mob of black hair.

“I was born with it”

Arthur stiffened and Merlin did as well upon the blonde’s reaction.

“THEN WHY THE HELL DID YOU COME TO CAMELOT, U IDIOT!?” The prince was trying to sound mad at his manservant’s idiocy, but he couldn’t help the fondness in his tone. Only Merlin would be that ridiculous.

“Well, you were here” the Warlock simply said.

And as absurd as that sounded, destiny would agree.

[theroundbartable]

Sorcerer: it's said that the more you insult someone, the more you care about them.

Merlin: *snorts* then Arthur must be in love with me

Arthur: *panics* haha... Haha. Yeah. That's ridiculous.

Gwen: Merlin, Arthur called you a daffodil.

Arthur: yes, exactly. I'd never insult Merlin. Look? He's adorable. Totally lovely, no reason to insult him, ever.

Merlin: ...

Gwen: ...

The sorcerer: ...

Arthur: you know what? I'm just going to leave.

[etinarcadiaegos]

you're in a castle with a magical boy, and he's telling you that you're a prat, and he's telling you that he loves you.

[wishiwasadruid]

Merlin: Please? For me?

Arthur : Don’t do that.

Merlin: Do what, Arthur?

Arthur : You think if you say, “please, for me?” and give me that look, I’ll do whatever the fuck you wa-

Merlin: Please, for me?

Arthur : ...Whatever you manipulative witch, fuck off.

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Morgana: Uh ohhhh...

Arthur: What?

Morgana: Somebody's Inlooove!

Arthur: *scoffs* Yeah right! I just think Merlin Is cool. Okay?

Arthur: It's not like I lay awake at night thinking about him.

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*Starts to think about His manservant.*

Arthur: ...

Arthur: Uh oh.

[hoarder-of-dragons]

Wedding vowes

Arthur: I would die for you

Merlin: I would kill for you

Arthur: I would wage wars for you

Merlin: I would kill millions to be with you

Arthur: I would challenge the gods to be with you

Merlin: I would over throw the Gods and become their new ruler just for you

Arthur: I would sacrifice-

The rest of Camelot, whispering: What the actual fuc-

[wishiwasadruid]

Merlin: I don't need to go to bed. I'm not tired, I'll be fine.

Arthur : But, darling, I'll be so lonely without you. Come curl up in my arms so I can feel whole again.

Merlin: O-oh. Well. Are you trying to seduce me into healthy sleeping patterns??

Arthur : Is it working?

[hoarder-of-dragons]

[Merlin does anything]

Arthur: Oh, my God. You are so cute. You are so cute, it's gross. You disgust me. I love you. Get out of here. I never want to see you again. I love you so much.

[hoarder-of-dragons]

Arthur thinking internally after meeting Merlin for the first time: OMG HE'S SO BEAUTIFUL LOOK AT THOSE CHEEKBONES AND DIMPLES !! HIS HAIR IS GLINTING IN THE LIGHT MAKING IT LOOK LIKE TENDRILS OF SILVER WERE WOVEN INTO HIS!! MAKING IT SO MESMERIZING TO LOOK AT !! PLEASE MARRY ME WE CAN BUY HOME PLS MOVE IN WITH I WANT TO EAT BREAKFAST WITH YOU AND START A DOMESTIC LIFE WITH YOU!

Merlin thinking internally after meeting Arthur for the first time: What a hot arse

[fruity-tarts]

I now headcanon that Arthur is colorblind because of all the continuous head trauma he has suffered throughout the years.

[whenyouhearthedoorcreak]

*merlin walking out of the council chambers while the knights are having a meeting*

mordred aka #1 merthur shipper telepathically: arthur is looking at your ass

[orikiys]

Protective prompts:

“Get behind me.”

“Hold my hand, okay? It’s gonna be over soon.”

“Close your eyes for me love.”

“When I say run, I need you to do as I say without looking back and don’t wait for me.”

“It’s all going to okay, they would never hurt you again.”

“I swear to you, that as long as I’m alive I won’t let a single soul ever harm you.”

“Listen to me.  . . take deep breaths, yes follow my breathing just like that. There’s no need to panic, I’m right here now, aren’t I? You’re safe.”

“When you love something, you protect it with your entire life at stake, and right now, my guts tell me to do the same.”

“I’ll be back very soon, but don’t come out. Stay there hidden until I come back and try not to make a noise, hmm?” *forehead kisses being a must here*

“I’m so so sorry! I wish I would’ve never left you alone! If I knew this would happen, I would never leave you alone.”

[fruity-tarts]

I will be using all of these for the betterment of my mental health

[shut-up-hope]

it’s really funny to think that arthur ditched his friends from the first episode because merlin came into his life.

like, yeah hes the prince destined to become a great king. yes hes had these friends for quite a while. yes hes going to forget their existence just because the peasant that barged into his life is too cute.

[lesbianlefay]

MERLIN + SO MUCH (FOR) STARDUST

Hold Me Like A Grudge // I Am My Own Muse // Baby Annihilation // Fake Out // Flu Game // So Much (For) Stardust

[hoarder-of-dragons]

[After Merlin finishes ranting about Arthur]

Gwen: Oh, I see what this is. You are in love with Arthur.

Merlin: What?

Gwen: Of course. It all adds up. I mean, you're obsessed with him.

Gwen: It's always "Arthur is a complete utter prat, why does he need me to be there for training when he always shows off his muscles, Arthur can't dress himself up and I have to subjected to seeing him naked everyday"

Gwen: It all adds up now. You want him!

Merlin: I n-no I disagree.....

[hoarder-of-dragons]

[Arthur accompanies Merlin for gathering herbs and sees Merlin slipping over a rock]

Arthur: Merlin you incompetent fool, can't you walk properly

Arthur, after realizing Merlin is actually hurt: SHIT MERLIN WE NEED TO GET YOU BACK TO SAFETY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I NEED YOU TO STAY ALIVE FOR ME MERLIN PLEASE-

[regulusrules]

oh, i would love to hear more about the merlin caesar au, that sounds...interesting? honestly, i have no clue what to imagine for this

and most importantly, does it involve stabbing?

Aaahh you absolutely picked my favourite of them all! It was a fleeting idea that came to me two weeks ago (on the ides of march lol) and I wrote it down here pretending I'm a normal human being.

Turns out I'm not. It's an insane idea, and I developed it into an even more insane one.

And YES, of course it involves stabbing.

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“I am in debt to you, Merlin, but I will not pay it with forgiveness.”

“You repay me with pain, Arthur— that’s all I've ever known from you.”

+1

“There is no knight who loves Arthur more than I do. I have borne witness to every part of his life, Merlin, and I'm telling you; what he is doing will lead to nothing but destruction. And I cannot love Arthur more than I love his Camelot.”

Is this line based on “Not that I loved Caesar less, but that I loved Rome more.”? Is the whole fic basically a culmination of my Shakespearean studies? A grand piece of so much love and betrayal? We'll never know.