ㅤㅤ ↪︎ synopsis: when kenma kozume met (y/n), he saw you as someone who was far different than him, but as he got to know you better, he was beginning to think that he actually has a chance. or maybe not?
daichi sawamura became the basketball team captain hahaha just kidding
i personally wanted to add more but i knew i should end this smau already
y/n asked kenma to be their bf lmao if it’s not yet obv
i was supposed to caption the ig post as “i said yes” but i forgot about it,,, either way it’s cute this way too
y/n and semi are good friends now🥺
might make a oneshot for y/n and semi tho are ya guys interested
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finally!!!! it is FINISHED! i am so sorry i got late in updates lately and it’e because of GENSHIN please blame that game and ganyu for still not coming home to me jxjsjsj. god i want ganyu🥺 to anyone playing at the asia server, please message me your uid and let’s co-op thanks
kenma was awakened by the natural light, one that lit the whole room and also his entire system, urging him to come and see the beauty of the morning. due to his bed being close to the window, there was no escaping to the light’s temptation and challenge, making him accept whatever was in front of him and wake himself up. and yet before he could even think about how his day would go by, a searing pain hits him on his head, his hand immediately shooting up, hoping to at least relieve the pain, but it proved to be useless.
“you’re awake, good.”
the voice was unfamiliar, it doesn’t even sound like his parents.
WHAT HAPPENED AND WHY IS Y/N SUDDENLY GOING BACK TO TOKYO?
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the “kiss” happened before the performance
i actually recorded an actual cover of a song that fits well with y/n, the reader hehehe if you want to hear it i’ll link it here
y/n and semi indeed dated right after their first kiss under the mistletoe~
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taglist is still open! but lmao this is about to end after 2 more chapters heheh. just send an ask to @ftkenma to be added:D
i did this way earlier now because i’m a little jam-packed at school. i hope you enjoyed this chapter~ a lot of revelations are to be read on the next one !!
NOW THAT Y/N IS HOME IN MIYAGI, WILL THEY GO BACK TO TOKYO, WHERE IT NEVER FELT LIKE THAT? IS THEIR STAG IN MIYAGI TEMPORARY OR PERMANENT?
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miyagi picture is not mine
y/n is closer with the miyagi boys than akaashi
akaashi was the one who suggested going to tokyo when he was going to do the same (they are both from miyagi)
and yes base on the title, semi is y/n’s first love
i forgot to add akaashi’s name in the call but i hope it’s quite obvious... if it’s not he’s the one on the left and you’re the one on the right
the call with akaashi is an edit that i impulsively edited because i wanted to add it and it’s the reason why this update is late🙈
also, don’t look at the timestamp on the upper left heheh i do keep up at the dates and time as much as i can on the edits themselves so i hope you noticed that christmas is coming up for them hehe
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taglist is still open! if you want to be added to the taglist, do only ask at @ftkenma :D
hello! i’m a bit late (around one hour aaa im sorry) so i added a bit that made me even later than before😅 it’s the last one where y/n talked with the shiratorizawa boys hehehe how was this chapter? lmao i feel like i did more in here than the past chapters,,, anw i felt like explaining so,,, i had math subject earlier so i didn’t get to prepare early on🤧 tho i hope yall liked this one :D
WHO IS SEMI AND WHAT HAPPENED BETWEEN HIM AND YOU?
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ㅤㅤ ↪︎ this smau actually focuses more on reader, honestly
ㅤㅤ ↪︎ yes, obviously the other character that i said before is semi (and maybe i will add others but let’s see)
ㅤㅤ ↪︎ keiji knows y/n so much that he instantly sensed they’re not okay
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ㅤㅤ ↪︎ taglist is open! just go to @ftkenma and send an ask there to be added :))
ㅤㅤ ↪︎ i just realized that this is a pretty short smau. i will get to finish this before february and the finale is very near. i did say this is going to be slow burn so yes this to be really slow burn.
WARNINGS: mentions of alcohol, kinda angsty (actually, it is angsty)
“hey! you’re a friend of keiji, right? kenma? that’s your name, right?”
kenma would be a fool not to recognize that voice, but it was the loss of confidence and formation of hesitancy that drove him to linger for a few seconds before he turned. lo and behold, he was correct.
he pulls down his hands together, unconsciously fiddling them as he looks at the ground, unable to gaze at you directly at the eye. he was only able to when he muster that courage, suddenly finding himself to be astonished at the sight of you in front of him, without any of his friends around him, no other person saving him from any sort of embarrassment he may do.
why does he care for what you may say?
why does he care what you may think?
it was the way you sounded that made him turn his head and glance at you briefly, noting the way you smiled to your own, eyes stuck to the sight from ahead, the empty view of the road where a few cars often pass by through the night, towards their own destinations that he wouldn’t possibly know where or have a care about.
it was the way you sounded that made him turn his head and glance at you briefly, noting the way you smiled to your own, eyes stuck to the sight from ahead, the empty view of the road where a few cars often pass by through the night, towards their own destinations that he wouldn’t possibly know where or have a care about.
it was the way you sounded that made him turn his head and glance at you briefly, noting the way you smiled to your own, eyes stuck to the sight from ahead, the empty view of the road where a few cars often pass by through the night, towards their own destinations that he wouldn’t possibly know where or have a care about.
but he wondered what was on your mind, guessing over the thoughts that you may think about, sitting here with someone who’s close as a stranger, all your friends inside of the pub, talking and discussing with themselves.
“why are you here?” he questioned once he had taken his eyes off of you, once again looking at the ground, aware of the chill wind that passes through both of you, making his hair slowly dance in movement with it.
you then gave a deep exhale, as if releasing all the weight of the world on your shoulders back to the universe, where it should belong. “i just wanted some fresh air. the boys are enjoying back there, talking about chemistry and basketball and studies, to which i couldn’t relate.”
“how about you?”
he fiddles his fingers again. “i don’t like drinking… much.”
he could smell it. even if both of you had come from the same room and the stench still reeks to the outside, he could smell that you’ve drank quite a lot, surely more than him.
“oh by the way, i hope you weren’t offended when i said you have a nice voice.” he thinks more despite your voice slightly pulling him out of his mind.
“i wasn’t.”
“it’s just that-it reminded me of when someone said that to me, you know.”
he peers at your form again, seeing the distant look on your face in an instant.
“why do you look like that?”
when you met his gaze, that was the only time he realized what came out of his lips. yet, he was too late to take it back, nor does he want to.
you didn’t look offended though, unlike any normal person who’d be the recipient of such a question from kenma. you smiled instead—a sad smile, before turning your face ahead. “you saw that?”
“well, i can’t blame you.” you say after an intake and exhale of breath. silence followed, but he knew this silence is not because you were dodging his question. it was the calm before the actual storm, and you were just giving him time to prepare himself from a story that he would never have expected he would hear tonight. “i don’t know if you’re going to understand this, but the moment you’ve got the taste of fame, you just want to go up and up, wondering where the top may be.” you say, your hands gesturing as you go, like when parents try to make their children eat vegetables, swinging the spoon like an airplane before landing to a perfect shot. kenma blames it on the drinks, but your voice says nonetheless.
“though the moment you realize that there’s no such thing as the top and the walk through fame is blander than it seems, you can never go back again. because once you’ve held back for even the slightest, you’ll lose everything.”
kenma, he knew he doesn’t understand a thing, because he’d never tasted fame. but he can tell just by the way you sounded and worded everything that it was a journey he wouldn’t like to take.
“you like games, right? i saw you playing games inside while the others were talking.” you paused and kenma saw through the corner of his eye that you raised something. only then did he see that you were holding a can of beer. now he doesn’t know anything about alcohol but he sure did not expect he would one day find a famous person like you to sit beside him and drink openly like that.
then he realized, maybe this is what you were talking about.
“in games, you’d basically want to get yourself on top of the ranks, right? of course, you’d want to get stronger.” you say after sipping from and bringing down the can. “but once you’ve reached your goal, what would anyone usually do? they create dummy accounts. because in dummy accounts, they could restart again and get it as strong as your original account. you’re back on track again. in real life, you can never create dummy accounts or you’ll lose track of the goal.”
with a hushed voice, you added, “there’s no way you’ll go back to where you had been before.”
kenma may not have been able to process everything in your situation, nor does he think he would ever be, but he does get the logic of what you were saying. reality is much different from fantasy, and it also meant having to experience the harsh truth about life.
he wanted to say something, to respond with his own words.
but he can’t.
“(y/n),”
both you and kenma looked up to the call of akaashi’s voice, standing by the side of the door next to the wall from where the bench you two were sitting at.
“oh, you’re here too, kenma-san. it’s about time to go home. both kuroo-san and bokuto-san are already drunk.” said akaashi, pulling his coat to fish out his car keys. “do you need a ride home, (y/n)? wait, you’re drunk too?”
“am not!”
akaashi turns to kenma, and he knows what that look is.
“they’re tipsy, but not drunk.” he answers straight away, to which you giggled and say “told you so!” to akaashi. based on the interaction alone, kenma knew how close you were to the other one.
when akaashi left, you stood up and just when he was about to, a question from you made him freeze.
“hey kenma, what’s your number?”
THEY’RE FRIENDS NOW, AREN’T THEY? BUT LET’S NOT FORGET WHO’S THE BESTFRIEND
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y/n mentioned a few clues here about their past
they’re really just tipsy, not drunk
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taglist is still open! please do send an ask to @ftkenma only
i have changed my personal url again jxjzjz im sorry about that. anyway, i was actually going to not post this update today because i thought i wouldn’t make it. it’s a good thing i already have a draft of the long story of y/n so it was quite easy to fill out the gaps hehe. what do you think of this chapter? any theories out there?
WHY DID KENMA HESITATE? WHY IS HE FAMILIAR? HAVE YOU AND KENMA SEEN EACH OTHER BEFORE?
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ㅤㅤ ↪︎ the guy that i based akaashi from,,, i had a crush on him before😬😬
ㅤㅤ ↪︎ there’s a reason why akaashi and y/n are not dating :D
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ㅤㅤ ↪︎ taglist is still open! do send an ask only at @kengelaa to be added~
ㅤㅤ ↪︎ i am still on break! but i didn’t want to postpone my updates here so i came by for a bit :D i’ll try to do the same for chapter 4 but the next chap is REALLY long. and a lot of things will happen😚 be ready for it !!
