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he/they ✮ 23 ✮ ugw: 125 ✮ cw: 246 ✮ feel free to send me meanspo

[ftmanorex]

intro post :)

TRIGGER WARNING- This blog contains topics that are triggering to some including thinspo, calorie counting and much more. Don't report, just block. If you're in recovery, please keep going.

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hey :) i'm zero (fake name in case any irls find this account) I've had an eating disorder since around 13, I've been in and out of recovery for the past 10 years but I have fallen back into it again. I put on a lot of weight thinking that it didn't matter but I want to reverse that. I used to binge and purge a lot but that has given me severe GERD and constant acid reflux without meds. Now I'm back to restricting and OMAD again :)) Tumblr mobile just does not work on my phone so I may not be SUPER active, but I do have a twitter with the same username as here so feel free to follow me there!! ༺♡♱⋆🦇⋆♱♡༻

This account is for me to vent and keep myself accountable. I am not pro-ana, anti-recovery, fat-phobic or anything else like that.

DNI if you're a minor, homophobe, transphobe, racist or just a bigot tbh.

[bonefae17]

Let me knowww...... I'm mr cancer :p

[wannabejackskellington]

mr cancer too agsbv why so on point tho T.T

[anabitxhe-deactivated20231002]

Skinny men <3

[tridentmenace]

Low cal Ana sweets

Been getting cravings lately so I made this <33

BLOCK DO NOT REPORT

[daintymossfairy]

tuff asf

[alexia11luvr]

m4scspø masterpost: part 1

[skyy-shr]

[ftmanorex]

journal 9/22/23

I can't wait for the day that I can actually start feeling good about my body checks. For the day that I can actually post my body checks and have other people see me as thinspo. my roommie told me last night that even though we are the same weight he is jealous of me bc its not as 'visible' for me that I'm technically overweight. Which I just, felt like screaming at that point. Not at him. But because that is just not how I see myself and that's also just something I'm not used to? Being called skinny I mean. I don't know I feel like I can just look at myself and only see that I'm fat. That's honestly all I see at this point when I look at myself. I don't even really feel like a person. Just something that's trying to be someone I'm apparently not. Honestly I'm not really sure how long I'm going to be able to continue living. I really don't. It's not even the fact that this life is hard anymore I am just so turned off at the fact of continuing my existence and constantly needing to work towards getting better. Literally whats the point of getting better? I really don't see the point of anything anymore. I hate restricting and counting calories. I hate my body. I hate my life.

[fuckidkanymre]

more th!n$po!! (tw: b0dych3ck!n@ )

ugghhh literally me

#3dblr #3dspo #m4l3sp0

[ftmanorex]

tw sui, disordered eating

i definetly do want to kill myself. theres really no getting around that, but I just can't. I just have this, need to be skinnier first. Feeling and hearing my stomach rumble is honestly making me happy because I know it's working. or maybe i just hope that my ed will get so bad that i die from it. i was never able to get under 130 (lw when I had my last peak eating disorder phase in high school) because I got thrown in the psych ward multiple times. But maybe this will be my time to lose all that weight I gained in the hospital and more.

[thinpost]

[heyitsphoenixx]

the sun literally sets and casts a golden hue over everything every single day and we fucked it all up and invented paying rent

[giulsallaloneii]

MAGIC SPELL EVERYONE

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Reblog to lose 7 pounds in a week

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Reblog to weight less than yesterday

[medicalsin]

nice personality disorder did your mom give it to you

[collectivelysuffering]

I’m not a huge fan of other Ed Not Sheeran people in my comments or even just in general being like “hey girlies” or “remember, ladies” “for my sk*nny girls” and completely excluding the men with Eds? Like I understand that most people here are probably girls but cmon :/ men (and nonbinary people) can have Eds too, and maybe, just PERHAPS we also want to be a part of the community??

Sorry if this sounds stupid, it’s just something I see a lot that seems to rarely be addressed.

I’ve literally had people in MY comments addressing me as a girl bc people assume anyone with an ed on this app is automatically a girl?? It just gets a bit frustrating at times ig

- a transmasc guy with an ed

[backtothinner]

130kcal for an ENTIRE chocolate cake

If you’ve already seen this recipe on MPA, it’s because I posted it there a while back. Anyway, here it is:

Ingredients

20g all-purpose flour (72.8)

10g cocoa powder (22.8)

2 egg whites (34)

40g allulose (14)*

Total Calories: 143.6kcal

*You can, of course, use zero-calorie sweetener if you’d like. The resulting cake will be 129.6kcal.

Instructions

Beat the egg whites to soft peaks and add in the allulose in 2-3 stages, mixing well between each addition. Continue to beat to form stiff peaks.

Fold in the flour and cocoa powder, being careful not to knock out too much air from the meringue.

Put the batter into a cake tin, flatten out the surface (or don’t and get an ugly cake), and bake in a preheated, 170˚C oven for 20 minutes.

Turn off the oven but leave the cake in there for 10 more minutes.

[kunterbuntes-schwarz-deactivate]

Sometimes it feels like this.