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Wesley/Hannah Story~
"Why don’t we just say that we’re dorks together?”
Wesley wiped his palms on his jeans as he walked up to the front door of the Belmont’s house. He’d been anxious all day, thinking about his date with Hannah. His grounding had taken its toll on his confidence level with her, as they had spent the first half of summer apart, save for phone calls and instant messaging. Wesley turned back to glance at his Uncle Mike in the front seat of the car Wes had taken for his now infamous driving snafu. Uncle Mike gave him an optimistic thumbs up from the driver’s seat. Taking a deep breath, Wesley reached a slightly trembling finger to the doorbell, instantly hearing the faint chimes inside. A brief moment passed before he heard the sound of footsteps approaching. The door swung open, and Hannah appeared, smiling broadly in the doorway, her long red hair framing her face. She turned back briefly to half-shout a goodbye to her parents before stepping outside and closing the door behind her. “So, where to?” she asked excitedly. “Well, my uncle is going to drop us off at the park, and I thought we could have a picnic,” Wesley explained nervously, hoping for her approval. She smiled, “Sounds great!” Wesley gave himself a mental high-five as he opened the door to the backseat for her, before turning back to ask, “Shall we?”
Hannah was quiet as she first sat down in the car, she hadn’t expected to feel nervous, but now that she was here she did. She checked her reflection in the car window, hoping Wesley would start up the conversation, but he was silent too until Uncle Mike started cracking jokes to ease the tension. Soon it was like they had never been apart and her mood changed to excitement. She had forgotten how much fun this was. Smiling, she looked Wesley in the eyes, and trying to sound stern said, “Promise me you won’t get grounded again?” He nodded and was about to reply when the car stopped and Uncle Mike told them they were at the park.
Wesley grabbed an old-fashioned picnic basket that his mom had helped him pack, saying a quick thanks and goodbye to his uncle, and he and Hannah set off at a leisurely pace through the park. Remembering her last question, he suddenly felt embarrassed that he hadn’t answered her immediately. “Oh, sorry I forgot to answer you in the car. Of course, I promise not to get grounded again. Believe me, I have more than learned that lesson,” he blushed. “I think my mom took it as her personal mission to make sure I didn’t enjoy the first half of the summer one bit. I think I have cleaned every surface of our house as well as been her personal landscaping servant.” “That sounds perfectly awful,” Hannah chuckled. “How about here?” Wesley pointed to a soft grassy area between two large oak trees. “Perfect,” Hannah commented and took the blue and green checkerboard blanket Wesley handed her from atop their picnic basket. She smoothed it out carefully before she and Wesley sat cross-legged with the basket between them. “We have a little bit of everything,” Wesley admitted. “I wanted the picnic part to be a surprise, but I didn’t want to get here and not have something you liked.” “I’m not picky,” she laughed, helping him pull out their dinner, which ranged from PB&J’s to a selection of deli sandwiches and even a container of chicken salad. Wesley had packed several different flavors of chips, as well as a variety of sodas, and there was even a ziploc bag with chocolate chip and sugar cookies for dessert. Wesley felt relief as Hannah found something to her liking, and he settled for a PB&J, still too nervous to really think about anything more complicated than that. He took a sip of his soda before picking their conversation back up. “So what have you been up to this summer?”
“Oh you know me, I don’t really take time off, I actually went to this science camp in Ottawa.” She paused to take a sip. “It was actually really cool, each day focused on a different field, like psychics or chemistry. ” She laughed. “Wow I sound like such a dork, right? Don’t lie to me I totally do.” Wesley shook his head. “You are not a dork. You’ve seen me and Connor play video games right?” Hannah smiled. “Haha yeah! Why don’t we just say that we’re dorks together?” She squinted at something on the blanket. “Are those ants…?” she squirmed a little. “I hate ants. I mean, I know they have an important ecological purpose and all that, but still…”
As soon as Hannah mentioned the ant, Wesley’s concentration on her story about her summer science camp was broken, and replacing it was a series of sharp pains on his left hand. He’d leaned back casually on his hands, one of them resting just off the blanket they sat on, and he looked down in horror to see at least a dozen tiny red ants crawling over the top of his hand. He bolted to his feet, shaking them off, trying not to yell from both the surprise and the sharp pains in his hand. “Oh my God, Wesley,” Hannah shrieked, getting to her feet. “Are you okay?!” she asked, taking his hand in her own. “I… oh no… oh no no no…” Wesley stammered as his hand started to swell, the bites looking angrier and redder by the second. “I’m allergic,” he groaned, “I think I need to go to the hospital!” Wesley could feel his cheeks burning from embarrassment, but Hannah simply threw their stuff back in the basket, shaking off their blanket, and put it over her shoulder. “Come on, there’s a bus stop just outside the park,” she soothed, taking his unaffected hand in her own. A short bus ride later and they entered the hospital emergency room, explaining his hand to the nurse in triage. She told him he would need an injection of a corticosteroid to counteract his allergic reaction, and she left to get the doctor. Wesley felt so terrible that he had ruined the date. Turning to Hannah, who still held his good hand, he said, “I’m so sorry, Hannah. This was supposed to be our special night, and I just messed everything up.” Wesley hung his head, but before Hannah could say anything the doctor came back with a tray, on which sat Wesley’s injection. “I’ll be right outside,” Hannah told him, excusing herself outside his exam room. Wesley winced as the doctor gave him his injection, but was surprised when the doctor struck up non-medical conversation with him. “Was that your girlfriend?” he asked. Wesley nodded, “I’ve been grounded, and this was our first date all summer, and I totally blew it…” The good-natured doctor clapped a hand on his shoulder, “Something tells me you didn’t blow it, son. She wouldn’t still be here with you if you had,” and with a grin, he exited the room, and Hannah walked back in, concern flashing across her freckled face. “Was it bad?” she asked of his shot. “I’d be lying if I said it was the most comfortable thing I’ve ever experienced,” Wesley tried to joke. Hannah smiled, taking her seat beside him once more. “Your mom’s outside. She introduced herself,” Hannah informed him. “She’s filling out your paperwork, and said she’ll drive me home as soon as she gets you discharged.” Wesley’s head fell once more, embarrassed that Hannah had to meet his mother in a hospital of all places, when he had wanted to introduce them properly. “I’m so sorry,” he said again, wanting so badly to rewind their night. “It’s okay, Wesley,” she reassured him as his mother knocked lightly on the door before entering. “I think we’re ready to go,” she informed them, worry sketched across her brow. “I let you out for one night…” she chuckled. “I’ll go pull the car around,” she excused herself. Wesley sighed, still in the dumps about his clumsiness. “Shall we?” Hannah asked, giving him a gentle smile with her hand open to take his.
Eli/Clare Story~
"I didn’t want to interfere with the guy you love because I know what it’s like to lose the person you love…TWICE."
Eli woke up startled by the barking dog that was once lying comfortably on the couch with him. He rubbed at his eyes glancing at the clock on the wall and hushing the dog seeing that Cece already went upstairs. He watched the dog walk over to the door and sighed. “Really? A walk now?” The dog barked at Eli and he put his hands up. “Fine just stop the barking. Jeez.” Eli got up and found the leash his neighbors left him before opening the door to find it was pretty cold this evening. “You would pick the coldest night to drag me outside, wouldn’t you?” Eli grabbed his jacket and a hat before leashing the dog and putting his phone in his pocket. The moment they got outside the dog began dragging Eli down the sidewalk. “WHOA! SLOW YOUR ROLL PUP! STOP! HEY!” Eli’s feet hit the pavement hard as he tried not to let go of the leash. He knocked over trashcans and cursed under his breath when he hit his hip on a fence trying to keep up. “RUSTY! STOP! HEEL! FOR THE LOVE OF MY LUNGS PLEASE STOP!” Eli continued to yell as they rounded down a few different streets. He hadn’t even taken in his surroundings to where his feet had taken him. “RUSTY! STOP BEFORE I HAVE YOU STUFFED!” The dog halted but Eli’s feet didn’t making him trip over the leash and fall into some trashcans. Eli rolled around and groaned. “Bad dog.” He mumbled stretching out. The dog barked once more and Eli looked at the house realizing who’s trashcans he was sprawled out in. “You can’t be serious.” He looked back at the dog. “Of all the houses in Toronto and you drag me through my ex-girlfriends? As if I need help in THAT area.” Eli said disgusted. “Eli?” Eli looked up quickly and saw Clare standing with a book in her hands and a blanket draped over her arm. He got to his feet quickly and dusted his pants off before picking up the cans. “Yeah hey sorry about that.” Eli gestured to the cans and she looked at the dog. “Did you get a dog?” She asked confused. “No no I’m dog sitting for my neighbor. I was thinking of getting one and this is sort of a trial run.” Eli explained as Clare pet the dog. “I didn’t even know you liked dogs.” She chuckled and Eli gave a faked smile. “Yeah well who doesn’t? Big, fluffy, dependable. Never let’s you down…anyway I’d love to chat but I gotta walk him. See you later.” Eli grabbed the leash and pulled Rusty away from Clare quickly before turning his back on her.
Clare felt her cheeks flood with warmth at his sudden brush off. It didnt help that for the past few days he had been ignoring her altogether. No reply to her texts or calls or messages. It was as if she didn’t exist to him at all anymore and for some reason it really bothered her. Now here he was walking away after not talking to her for so long and it really got under her skin. She bit the corner of her lip, contemplating turning around to go back in the house but something moved her feet in the opposite direction. “Eli?” She called out, frustrated again that he didnt stop, “Seriously would you just stop?” Again no reply and before she could stop herself she yelled out. “ELI STOP WOULD YOU JUST STOP? RIGHT NOW!!” Her raised voice was what finally did and and he stopped, tugging on the dogs leash as he turned to look at her angry expression. “What in the world is your problem?!” She asked, “I get it. I get that you don’t want anything to do with me but the least you could do is have the decency to tell me why because seriously I’m done looking so desperate for your attention! What happened to staying friends? I get my boyfriend back and it’s as if I’ve gotten the plague or something!” The rage was evident in her expressin but Eli didnt say a word as his hold tightened on the dogs leash. She waited for him to reply and took in a deep breath, trying to calm herself but it didn’t seem to be working. “Calls, texts, avoiding me at all costs, that’s not what friends do. So honestly what is the deal? And don’t tell me you’ve been busy because I know you’ve been spending time with everyone BUT me!” She hadn’t realized it but she had taken a few steps towards him, her surprise came from the fact that he hadn’t moved away. “What could I possibly have done to make you hate me enough to act like I don’t even exist? Just tell me so I can try and fix it or something…” Her anger fainted into a frown now as she watched him, waiting for a reply.
Eli sighed and rubbed at his eyes. “Clare, I dont hate you. Don’t be so dramatic.” He had just woken up not too long ago and the last thing he wanted to do was have this conversation with Clare. “Dramatic? You’re the one going to great lengths to avoid me. I deserve an explanation.” Clare demanded and Eli held the leash up. “I’m a little busy now.” As if on cue, Rusty laid down on the sidewalk. “Traitor.” Eli mumbled as Clare crossed her arms over her chest. “Well? I’m waiting.” She pushed. “I’m not trying to push you off. I just want you to spend your time accordingly.” Eli said and Clare snorted. “Oh give me a break. If you didnt want to go to a movie with Jake and I you could have-” Eli cut her off. “It’s not about the stupid movie Clare.” Eli said. “You know, I dont even understand you sometimes. You pine after this guy all summer and when you finally get him back you still try and act like you owe me something. It’s like everyone else gets it except you.” Eli explained and Clare rolled her eyes. “Sorry for wanting to include you. I guess it’s a crime to include a friend in plans.” Clare pouted and Eli stared at her. “And if it were different? You and I made those plans together. If I would have invited Imogen would you have been comfortable enough to go?” Clare froze at the question. “Even though you know Imogen and I are JUST friends can you honestly say you would have been able to go and sit in a movie with us?” Eli asked further as Clare swallowed hard. “So that’s what this is about? You can’t hang out with me because I’ve actually got Jake now? I’m sorry if things got strange between us this summer. Maybe leaning on your shoulder about him wasnt a good idea but Eli…you and I…you know that what we had…it’s gone now.” Clare explained and Eli laughed. “Are you serious? You think I choose not to hang out with you because I’m jealous of Jake and am still in love with you?” Eli said making Clare shift on her feet. “How self absorbed are you?” Eli’s words slipped off his tongue too quickly and Clare’s sympathy turned quickly. “Excuse me?! I am NOT self absorbed.” Clare defended stepping closer to him. “Then you arent as bright as I gave you credit for.” Eli said with a smug disinterest in Clare as if she were some silly girl. She shoved his shoulders back and he shook his head. “So now I’m stupid and self absorbed. Please explain to me how you’ve jumped to THAT conclusion since you know everything, Elijah.”
She could feel her cheeks growing wamr again but this time the warmth grew to her ears and neck and she could hardly hold in her anger. “You know what?” She began, surprised she found the ability to speak through her rage, “Don’t tell me. I’m sure you have some explanation that I really don’t even want to hear. Seriously and how was THIS what was so hard for you to say? It took you this long to tell me that you think I’m too self absorbed to be friends with anymore?” She tried to hide the sound of hurt in her voice. “Seriously? That’s low even for you Eli. I mean you have all this time to spend with Imogen or Fiona and at Adam’s but you can’t even reply to a simple text? It’s called being a good person. Even just a text saying you’re busy instead of ignoring it completely. And what bugs me the most is that would you even give me the time if I asked you to hang out just us, without Jake? Because believe it or not but he doesn’t mind me hanging out with you. He doesnt have a jealousy problem.” Eli’s eyerbows raised at her words but he didn’t speak and his lack of speaking only upset her more. “You say I’ve changed but the Eli I know would have at least had the decendy to tell me he didnt want to be friends anymore instead of trying to erase me from his life without saying a thing.” She knew she sounded harsh but she couldnt help it, she was so upset by the concept of losing him for some reason that it rushed her with all her anger and she couldn’t stop herself from talking what instantly came to her mind without thinking it through first.
Eli knew she was pissed by the way she used his name but he wasn’t going to let Clare push him around. Not anymore. Especially after she has made him out to be the jealous ex twice in the moments they had started talking. “You are so far from who you used to be it’s almost sad.” Eli said and Clare huffed. “At least I’m mature enough to confront you. I don’t just avoid you like some coward.” Clare’s words caused a burn that ran up Eli’s spine and out of his mouth as he stepped back to where he was originally standing invading Clare’s space and pointing at her. “I’ve been avoiding you in hopes that you would make up for time lost with Jake. I didn’t want to interfere with the guy you love because I know what it’s like to lose the person you love…TWICE. Everything I do is for you Clare! I’m not trying to hurt you like you always do me. I’m trying to help you.” Eli explained and Clare’s face stayed stone. “HELP ME HOW?!” She yelled and Eli’s face twitched as his own anger exploded. “BY GIVING YOU A SECOND CHANCE!” He yelled back as Clare stood confused. “I…If I had a second chance with you…If I was given a chance and got you back I wouldn’t waste a single second with you. Holding you, kissing you, telling you how much I loved you and it’s like…you take that all for granted with Jake. Nothing is a guarantee Clare. We aren’t promised tomorrow. I wanted you to get that time back with him like I never got with you…or Julia.” Eli swallowed hard and Clare felt her stomach churn. Eli took a breath and broke the awkward silence that started to settle between them. “You sit there in this world of joy because you got your boyfriend back and talk to me like I’m stupid and dont understand. Treat me like I’m being this way because I’m jealous but you want honesty? I’ll give that to you. I’m not in love with you. Not this you. Not the girl who puts her own happiness before everyone else’s all the time. When we first met all you wanted to do was help everyone else. Your parents, Adam…me. I don’t know you. I can’t be jealous that Jake has someone who was never mine.” Eli’s words stunned Clare and she wrapped her arms around her frame taking in what he’d said. “Look, I’m going to go. You look cold and I’ve got to get home.” Eli said rubbing the back of his neck. “So that’s it? That’s how you solve things now? Ignore. Walk away. Just leave me here to deal with this because you’ve made it up your mind.” Clare spoke softly and Eli gave a sad smile. “Guess I’ve just picked up bad habits of others. Consider it karma, I guess.” Eli shrugged. “I’m sorry for upsetting you but you wanted me to be honest with you and I have been.” Eli said staring at her. Clare bit her lip.
Imogeli Story~
“Do you need help with that, Eli? I’m really good at bl-”
“You might want to slow down, didn’t you just get back from the Dentist?” Imogen teased as Eli continued to devour the chocolate chip pancakes she had finished making. “I ate an entire box of Oreos before I went and not a single cavity.” He beamed proudly, purposefully taking a large bite out of his pancake. Imogen rolled her eyes before poking him in the side. “An entire box of Oreos? How do you keep this figure? Tell me your secrets.” She continued to poke fun, Fiona joined in the laughter as she opened the fridge. “I should be asking you the same thing, Miss Moreno. I still have some pancakes on my plate, while you have none.” He pinched the skin on her side and she giggled pushing his hand away. “A lady never tells.” Was all she replied as she carried her dishes to the sink. “Now tell me again why Imogen came home sulking about losing your pole?” Fiona asked suspiciously addressed both of them once the laughter had died down. “Imogen needs to learn how to hold onto things.” Eli commented trying to hide his smile with his glass of orange juice. “I have a very firm grip on most things, especially poles.” Imogen defended herself stubbornly and rolled her eyes when Eli joked on his orange juice. “Fishing poles.” She clarified looking at Fiona who was more bemused than anything. “He told me to put my back into it when I was casting and I just put a little too much and it flew into the lake. Poor Gregor Mendell.” “Gregor Mendell?” Eli asked confused finally recovering from his choking. “Yeah, I named your pole Gregor Mendell, got a problem with that?” She asked hopping into the counter. “No, you can name him whatever you want, he’s dead now anyway.” Eli shrugged finishing up his food. “He’s not dead,” Imogen whined. “He’s taking a long vacation, underwater.” “Enough you two.” Fiona declared throwing her arms dramatically into the air. “What’s the plan for the rest of the day, can we do something inside. The heat is killing me.” She stated, opening the freezer in an attempt to cool off. “I have a better idea!” Imogen squealed hopping off the counter and lifting her shirt off her head and throwing it off towards the couch revealing a red bikini top. “Let’s go swimming!” She jumped up and down a little excited by the prospect of cooling off.
Eli went wide eyed for a moment not sure why Imogen was taking her shirt off but when she started jumping around like a kid at the prospect of swimming both him and Fiona had to laugh. “THIS is why we have to limit your sugar intake.” Fiona said getting up from the table. “Dont you know you arent supposed to swim until an hour after you eat.” Eli mused and Imogen narrowed her eyes making Eli put his hands up. “Or we could drown. That’s cool too.” He got up and cleaned his plate off. “As much as I’d love to rock one of your very fashionable bikini’s I dont think it will work out for me.” Eli continued to poke and Fiona let out a chuckle at the sink. “As if we didnt buy you swim trunks when we were out shopping the other day.” Imogen came bouncing out of the back room holding black and white swim trunks with a huge smile. “Look they even have skulls on the butt!” She turned them around and Eli smiled. “Who wouldnt want skulls on their butt?” Eli walked over and took the trunks. “Go ahead and change in the bathroom. Grab some towels from the back of the linen closet too.” Fiona said as Eli nodded. He changed and was pretty impressed how well the trunks fit. He grabbed the towels and walked out to the living room to see Fiona had already changed and had a long dress over top of her suit. Imogen stood by the door with a beach bag and inflatable tube making Eli laugh. “We really have to get you out more often, Imo.” Eli shook his head but earned a hit to the arm from Fiona. “I’ll have you know we do lots of things together outside of the condo. Just because you spend so much time with all your other cool friends.” Fiona faked jealousy and Eli rolled his eyes. “You know I love hanging with you both so cut that right now.” The girls smiled as they walked out. “Where exactly is this pool?” Eli asked as they headed to the elevator. “There’s one here. It’s nice and private.” Fiona said as they got onto the elevator. Eli glanced at Imogen as she continued to bounce bubbly with her tube. He had really enjoyed spending the last two days with the girls. He finally felt a true friendship with nothing extra with Imogen and Fiona had mentioned having a few talks with her which put him at ease. She seemed happy and he liked that. As they made it to the pool Fiona tossed a plastic bag at Eli. “What’s this?” He asked and she chuckled as Imogen set up the towels on three long chairs. “That is a floatation device you will be blowing up while I put sun tan lotion on Imogen.” Fiona said as she rummaged through the bag. “Oh joy.” Eli sighed as he unraveled the floaty and started blowing.
“Do you need help with that, Eli? I’m really good at bl-” “Imogen, please don’t finish that sentence.” Eli cut her off, in attempt to keep some of his sanity. Imogen flushed a little as she turned back to Fiona who was giving her a look before motioning for Imogen to lie down. She smiled closing her eyes as Fiona rubbed the lotion onto her back, the last thing she needed right now was a terrible sun burn. Imogen was glad her relationship was Eli was strong again and even though it hurt that she wanted more and he’d never think of her like that, it was okay because he was finally beginning to seem happy again. Not the happy like during the play, but the happy she first noticed in him all those months ago when he’d pull up to school in his huge black hearse. She was positive he didn’t remember the first time they met. Officially the first time he met her was when she saved his ass during the computer incident. How she first met him was a different story. It had been the first month of school and everything was the same, trying desperately to stand out but continuing to be invisible. Someone had shoved her in the hall and she dropped her stack of books and binders, she bit her lip and was about to bend down when a hand started picking up her books, she looked up to see the most beautiful boy she could imagine. He wordlessly handed her the things she’d drop and smiled, before a senior boy and a guy in a beanie had called him over to talk about a plan. She thought she had imagined him for the few weeks after that desperately looking for him while roaming the halls. If she had known that she’d be friends with that boy just a few months later she would never have believed it and she believed in a lot of things. “Okay, my turn!” Fiona exclaimed breaking Imogen out of her thoughts before rolling over and beginning to later up her friend. Imogen looked over to a red faced Eli as he finished blowing up the tube. “My hero.” Imogen joked, throwing an overdramatic hand to her forehead halting the rub down of Fiona. “Don’t stop on my account.” He wheezed short of breath, but was still smug enough to wiggle his eyebrows suggestively at the two girls. “In your dreams, Goldsworthy.” Fiona replied as Imogen finished up. “Always.” Eli responded cheekily. “Ready to go in?” Imogen asked Fiona and she laughed before moving in the chair to gain maximum sun exposure. “This suit is not meant to get wet, it’ll ruin the fabric with all the chemicals in that water.” “It’s a swim suit.” Imogen complained, grabbing at her own top. “It’s meant to get wet.” Fiona shook her head and placed her sunglasses over her eyes. “Fine.” Imogen huffed over to the edge of the pool and looked over wanting to check the temp with her foot but she should’ve known better. It was quiet, too quiet. She heard sudden footsteps and an arm around her waist before she was submerged into the ice cold water by her skull short wearing friend.
Eli re-submerged at the same time as Imogen and her hair was stuck to the front of her face making Eli laugh. “Sorry did I get you there?” Eli joked as Imogen moved her hair off her face so she could see Eli. “Just a bit.” She paddled over as Eli smirked proud of himself. “Oh what’s that?” Eli looked to where Imogen was pointing and she leaped up in the water high enough to dunk him under. She held him under for a few seconds before he poked her stomach and she let go. “Try not to drown him. I don’t think Adam would be too happy if he died and didn’t get his comics back.” Fiona said as she leaned her head back. Eli resurfaced and his hair was now stuck to his face making Imogen laugh. “You know it’s good to see you laugh. I dont think we’ve ever really shared a genuine laugh together.” Eli said making Imogen scrunch her face. “You mean because you were always so caught up in Clare Edwards and I was always so caught up in you?” Imogen said making Eli chuckle. “I imagine so. Have I ever told you that I enjoy your bluntness. It’s very refreshing to have someone be so upfront.” Eli floated around in the pool as Imogen reached over and grabbed her tube and listened to him. “Why sugarcoat things? It only confuses people and leaves you in the wind to be misunderstood.” Imogen said honestly. Eli nodded. “You seem happier since getting closer to Fi. I don’t know what it is but you seem different.” Eli backstroked deeper into the water as Imogen floated in front of him. “I feel more at peace I guess. Knowing I have friends and not being so worried about pleasing everyone all the time. Fiona made me realize I’m too young to be so stressed out.” Imogen explained. “she does have a way with words, doesn’t she.” Eli teased loud enough for Fiona to hear. “You know you love it, Goldsworthy.” Fiona shouted. “Yes dear.” Eli responded playfully. Imogen watched him carefully. “What about you? You’ve changed too. Getting healthy, being more active. You seem happier too. It’s a happy I haven’t seen and I like it.” She smiled making Eli smile. “When I’m not having my episodes and reverting to old memories or over thinking things, yeah I’m peachy.” Eli said trying to play down how he’s felt the past few days. “It’s okay to have those moments, Eli. You control the bipolar, it doesn’t control you. Remember that. You work through those moments and you come out with a smile. Everything else is pointless.” Imogen said firmly as Eli took it all in. She was right. Despite the feelings that he had stirred up because of Clare, spending time with Adam, Drew and Bianca watching movies and hanging out with Fiona and Imogen did make him happy. He had fun and laughed without over thinking or over analyzing everything.
“Watch out below!” Imogen called out before she jumped from the side into the pool, creating a tidal wave across the water, Eli smiled as he swayed with the wave. Imogen emerged spitting water out of her mouth and swimming with one hand in front of her. “Hey can you retie my top, it fell off during that last splash.” Imogen asked, standing on the tips of her toes turning around facing away from Eli. “Sure.” Eli replied moving closer, grabbing her shoulders to keep her in place before grabbing the strings and tying them together. Being this close to Imogen usually made Eli feel guilty or uncomfortable, but over the past couple days he actually enjoyed being this closer to her. He wasn’t ready for new feelings or anything, especially with her after everything they’d been through but he couldn’t deny something was there. “All done.” He told her, his voice deeper than he thought and coughed a little blaming the pool water. “Thanks.” Imogen replied turning over her shoulder to give him a smile, she floated on her back for awhile before breaking the comfortable silence. “Um, have you…” Imogen started to ask, sitting up from floating looking down at the water. “Nevermind.” Eli tilted his head, trying to see her eyes curious to her sudden shyness. “What is it?” He questioned swimming closer to her. “I was just wondering if you’d talked to Clare recently.” She asked softly, looking up to see his face conflicted. “You don’t have to talk about it.” Imogen continued quickly. “I mean I don’t care if you talk to her or not, but she does make you happy sometimes and I want you to be happy.” “It’s complicated.” Eli told her feeling a little weird about confiding in her about someone she openly dislikes. “I know I’m probably the last person you’d want to talk about that with.” Imogen said picking up on his sudden mood change. “I just want you to know that I’m your friend and if you need someone to talk to I’m here. If someone is important to you then you should be in their lives. If you’re a true friend, you want them to happy no matter what, even if it means you’re hurting.” Imogen told him grabbing his hand under the water.
Eli bit the corner of his lip before letting out a sigh. “How do you do this?” He asked and Imogen let her head fall to the side in confusion. “I know how you felt about me but you knew how I felt about Clare. How do you just stop feeling that way in order to be friends? Like this?” Eli asked gesturing between the two of them. Imogen smiled lightly as she shook her head. “It’s not easy. It never is. But we’re all just chapters in a very long book. Clare was a chapter, I was a chapter and just because those chapters are over doesn’t mean they wont appear later in the story. Whatever feelings you and Clare shared, whatever feelings I had for you, who knows where the future will take us. I stopped living on each action and started living in the moment. You will make yourself miserable if you sit around waiting for the next chapter to end in hopes a chapter you like more will arise. This is your story Eli. Write it how you want.” Imogen gave his hand a squeeze and Eli looked at her. “You will never know how sorry I am for what I did to you Imogen.” Eli said remorsefully. Imogen shook her head. “That chapter is over. It’s time to move on.” She gave him a reassuring smile. “No really. I wish I wasn’t so sick when we first met because listening to you now…I feel like I’ve wasted precious time getting to know you.” Eli explained further. “If it weren’t for what happened between us I might not be who I am now. So don’t beat yourself up. That’s mine and Fiona’s job.” She winked at Eli before pushing off of his chest to dive back into the water. Eli swam after her and Imogen lay her arms out holding herself above the water as he approached. “So you’re saying that the pain will remain but moving on and enjoying life makes it less present?” Eli asked as Imogen opened her eyes. “I’m saying pain weighs you down. Being happy and enjoying the little moments makes you feel…weightless.” She said with a smile. Eli was amazed at how right Imogen was. He needed to stop putting so much pressure on himself to do the right thing and just be himself. He’s never cared about pleasing anyone so why start now? “Eli you are turning very lobster-esk. Maybe we should go in and relax.” Fiona said from her towel. Eli smirked. “Only if you rub me with aloe vera.” Eli teased as Fiona rolled her eyes. “Keep your pants on, will ya?” Fiona said as Imogen and Eli got out of the water. Eli handed Imogen a towel and she smiled. “Look at you being sweet. I hope you don’t think that gives you a leg up.” Imogen teased. “Well I’m sure it helps.” Eli smirked as Imogen and Fiona exchanged a look before shoving Eli back in the pool. They laughed as he hit the water and he shook his head underwater as he resurfaced. “Not cool.” He said wiping the water out of his eyes. “Aw come inside you big baby.” Imogen said with a laugh as she wrapped her towel around her and headed inside. Fiona had gathered things up and Eli put his hand on her arm. “Thank you.” Eli said with a genuine smile. Fiona returned it before bumping his shoulder. “A girl needs her best friends to get along.” She winked at Eli and he laughed. “Now let’s go get cleaned up and you can make me lunch.” She pointed to the bags and Eli grabbed them with a playful sigh. “Yes ma’am.” Eli followed Fiona inside to spend the rest of the day enjoying the little things.
Clare/Jake Story~
“Everyone keeps claiming that I only care about myself. But is it so wrong to want to be happy?”
Clare sat on the couch, curled up in the corner as she watched the TV screen. She wasnt sure exactly what was on but she stared at it aimlessly as her mind fluttered over her day. She tried not to dwell on things but it was always hard for her when it came to that. Overthinking was her specialty. She’d let it get to her all day that she knew Jake could tell she was glum. She felt bad but didnt think sparing him the details would be such a terrible idea. She picked up the remote and sighed as she flipped through the channels, ignoring her mom or Glen as they moved in and out of the room. They were busy looking through catalogs in the kitchen for things to redecorate which didnt interest her or Jake at all. He had disapeared into his room and she contemplated whether or not she was going to go up there but was saved the decision when he entered the room. He flashed her a smile and she smiled in return as he sat beside her and wrapped his arms around her waste. “Jake…” she said, timid of the fact that their parents were in the other room but he didnt care. He kissed her cheek and then her neck, holding her close to him. “Are you sure you’re okay?” He asked caringly and she simply nodded. Again he kissed her cheek, and she looked up at him. He could tell she was lying, something was making her sad but he wasn’t going to pry. Instead, he took her hand and tugged lightly as he stood up from the couch. “Come on.” He said quietly, placing his finger infront of his mouth to tell her to stay quiet. A confused look covered her face and she chuckled lightly as she followed after him. He led her to the door, careful to stay as quiet as possible as he opened it and they slipped out. “What are we doing?” She asked once it was safe to speak. Jake shrugged as he opened the passengers side of the truck for her. “Getting out. Seems like you need it.” He smiled as he climbed in and started the car. “We’ll probably get in trouble for going out without saying anything.” Again he shrugged, “They’ll get over it. It’s the least they can do after putting us through all that wedding crap. I mean I actually wore a suit. I’m not really the suit kinda guy.” He chuckled and started the truck, pulling away from the house. ‘Ugh, don’t remind me. I’m still getting over the emotional scarring.” Jake smirked, “Whatever do you mean sis?” Clare cringed, “Ew. Please never say that again. I will not refrain from pinching you until you bleed.” “Can we make it biting instead?” He asked with a wink and Clare’s cheeks blushed red as she smiled and rolled her eyes. “Were exactly are we going?” She asked but he shook his head. “You’ll see.” It wasn’t until a while later that they pulled into the park. Which wasn’t until after he had stopped at the grocery store, leaving Clare in the truck until he came out with a bag. He still didn’t tell her what was in it even as they got out. Taking her hand with his own, he led her towards a picnic table and she smiled as she followed after him. She already felt slightly better. He was good at keeping her mind off of things. They made it to the table and he sat the bag down, then sat on the top of it, pulling her to sit beside him. She chuckled as she watched him reach into the bag and pulled out a tub of ice cream and a pack of plastic spoons. “I guess there’s no way to just buy two so I got a few extras,” he laughed, “And I know vanilla is your favorite so I figured it would be the best to get.” She looked at him with surprise but her face softened to a warm smile. “You know my favorite kind?” He shrugged, “I pay more attention than you think.” With a grin she leaned forward and pressed a kiss to his lips, her stomach exploding with butterflies as she pulled back and he handed her a spoon and then opened the ice cream. “You know, you’re lucky it’s the summer. Any other time of year and it would be freezing out here. Ice cream would be completely mental.” Jake nodded, wrapping his free arm around her. “I just thought it would be nice for you to get out since you seemed so down. And well I know girls like ice cream when they’re sad.” He looked at her and again, she kissed him. He was right, she did need to get out and it was nice to spend time with him without worrying about their parents. “Thank you, this is great,” she smiled and leaned her body into his as she took a spoonful of the ice cream. “And who knows,” he began, “I may even push you on the swings” his smirk spoke wonders and Clare couldn’t help but laugh.
Jake wanted to do whatever he could to take Clare’s mind off of whatever was bothering her. She wouldn’t tell him what was bugging her, but he didn’t want to push it out of her. He did what he did best, and that was treating her like a queen. He felt guilty for not spending too much time with her the past few days, but he was helping his father with work. But he was here now and he wanted to make this time special. They continued to eat the cold treat in the warm Summer’s night. He couldn’t help but stare at his beautiful girlfriend for a moment. He was so glad that he’s able to call her that again. The beginning of the Summer very different without her and even though they’re officially step-siblings now, none of his feelings have changed. It just made their relationship more adventurous. He snapped back into reality and continued to eat the ice cream. “I really would’ve though of you as a chocolate flavored girl.” he commented and smirked. “…and why is that?” she asked with a curious tone. “Because it’s just as sweet as you.” he whispered as he inched closer to her face and left a passionate kiss on her lips. He smiled intently at her after his corny joke. “Enough of this child’s play…” he got up from the bench and looked out towards the rest of the park, “Let’s go play on the swings.” he said as his face lit up like a child’s. “I swear, you’re just like a child.” Clare said as she laughed, “I’ll race you there!” They both got up and starting running towards the swing set. Jake felt like all his troubles were gone. It was like being a kid again, but this time with the love of his life. Clare gained a slight lead, but he surprised her by picking her up in his arms and swinging in full circles. The dizziness caught up with them as they collapsed to the cold grass. The stars were shining brighter than ever tonight and they both were captivated. Jake pulled her close to him and kissed her lightly on the forehead. “I’ve really missed the days like these.” He stared directly into her bright blue eyes. Clare looked straight towards the sky then back at her amazing boyfriend. “So have I.” “Things have been so different, but were together again, and that’s all that matters.” Those words meant so much Jake. He still loved her so much, and knew that it wouldn’t change anytime soon. He still was slightly worried about Clare’s sad appearance before. “Hey Clare?” She looked up at him as to respond. “You would tell me if something was wrong, right?” He looked at her with a worried expression.
Her smile faultered and she pouted out her bottom lip. “There, you see?” He said as he touched her lips, “Where’s that cute smile?” Clare sighed. She still didn’t feel comfortable telling him. How was she supposed to let him know that she was upset because her ex-boyfriend was having trouble being her friend? It wasn’t exactly something you should tell your current boyfriend whom you just got back together with. She pushed herself up and shook her head, “I promise I’m fine.” He sat up too and just looked at her, waiting for her to continue and she blushed. She hated how he seemed so understanding, like even though she wouldn’t tell him, he was waiting patiently for her to feel comfortable enough to share. “Are we going to swing?” She asked, changing the subject. Jake nodded and she stood up, brushing herself off before she took his hand and he stood too. They made their way to the swings and Clare sat down while Jake pulled the swing back. He let her fall forward and she smiled as he pushed herm back and forth she went, higher and higher but the more quiet they were the more her mind was able to wander. “I love you.” He spoke loud enough for her to hear and it broke her from her thoughts. She could feel her heart swell but she couldn’t see him. So instead, she yelled it back. “I love you too!” She said loudly and heard him chuckle from behind her. She put her feet down to stop herself and when she’d almost come to a complete stop she turned to look at him. “I love you too.” She said quieter this time as he walked around to stand infront of her. He placed his hands on the chains of the swing and leaned down, kissing her briefly. “Whatever’s wrong,” he started, “I’m sure everything will be okay. No matter what it is. I’ll be here for you.” She smiled and nodded before looking down at her hands which laid settled in her lap. It wasn’t for a few more moments of silent before she spoke. “You don’t think I’m selfish, do you?” She asked curiously. The question caught him offguard. “What? No of course not.” Clare tried to ignore the sound of denial in his tone and sighed. “Everyone keeps claiming that I only care about myself. But is it so wrong to want to be happy?” Jake kneeled down infront of her, so their faces were only a few inches away and shook his head. He placed his hands on her cheeks and looked into her eyes. “Clare, you’ve been through a lot this past year, you deserve to be happy and a little selfish. Your parents divorced, you found out your dad was cheating, had a pretty bad break up and a play written about the relationship it was attached to. And well your mom remarrying… your boyfriends dad, yeah I can see why you’d want to find a little happiness.” She sighed again, “You make me happy. I can’t help it that not everyone agrees with us.” He shook his head, “You can’t live life to please everyone else. But you also have to try and be considerate of everyone else too.” She pouted again, “I’m trying. Really I am. But it’s like one bad thing happens after the other. And now Eli…” she hadn’t realized she was rambling and stopped the moment she said his name. She looked up for Jake’s reaction but it was still the same. He was waiting for her to continue and his lack of jealousy caught her off guard. Then she couldn’t believe how bad it made her seem that she was thinking he’d be jealous for whatever reason. Mentally she kicked herself, and then continued. “He’s acting weird. Like he doesn’t want to be friends.” Jake shrugged, “Give the guy a break. Maybe he just needs some time to himself.” His cool nature was strange to Clare and she nodded. “That’s what everyone’s been saying. I guess I should… I just,” she paused and assessed him, “I don’t really want to lose him as a friend and the thought of it makes me feel… not great.” Jake leaned in and wrapped his arms around her, pulling her into a hug. “Everything will be fine Clare. I promise. Just give him some space. I could talk to him for you if you want?” She nearly jumped out of the swing, “NO!” She exclaimed and Jake’s eyes widened. “Okay okay.” He chuckled. Clare looked at her boyfriend in awe. The fact that he trusted her so much was incredible to her. But it was as if since they’d gotten back together that he’d been walking on eggshells around her. He was willing to do anything to make her feel happy. Even allowing her to invite Eli with them to a movie. He just wanted her to be happy, especially after what he had put her through.
He tried to comfort her the best to his ability. His wanted to make everything right for her. Eli would need time for himself and he wanted her to understand that. “Well, enough of this small talk.” He pulled her in and wrapped his arms around he waist. He looked longingly into her eyes and kissed her gently on the lips and slowly moved down to her neck. She put her arms around his neck and closed her eyes so she could enjoy every moment of this. He paused and looked back up at her. “I love you, I really do and we will get through all of this together.” He in a quiet voice, but with so much meaning behind it. This one girl meant the world to him and he wasn’t going to let anything change that. He lost her once and he won’t lose her again. “No matter what problems we have, we have each other to lean on. Just remember I’m always here to help you with anything.” He kissed her again but this time hard and with immense feeling. Once he pulled back, he was frozen in the moment. He was filled with love, and it was truly the best feeling he’s ever had and more importantly, he was spending it with Clare. “It’s getting late, do you wanna go back and watch a movie?” “But our pare-” He stopped her and laughed. “They’re already sleeping by now, Clarebear.” He took her hand and started trailing in the direction of the truck. “We can even watch whatever you want…except Twilight” He said before she the chance to suggest it. They shared a laugh together as they came to the truck. “We really need more nights like these.” Jake said as he helped Clare into the passenger seat. He hopped in and started the car. “Yea we really do. It’s help me forget about all the problems.” She replied as she smiled brightly at Jake. He pulled out and headed towards the Martin-Edwards household.
A quick OOC intro...
wes-man:
Hey guys, I’m gonna be taking over as the new SimplyGold Wesley, so this account is now active again. Also, not sure what to do with the whole Wesley/Hannah thing yet, but once a new Hannah is in place, we’ll figure something out, I’m sure. Until then, I’m really excited to be a part of this group! Also, count this as probably one of a rare few OOC posts from me, as I don’t plan on doing it again unless absolutely necessary.
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After Alexx saying on twitter that Sadie’s in the Degrassi Bermuda Triangle, I figure it’s time that I say goodbye to this wonderful account. I honestly can’t say how thankful I am for getting to be Sadie and just everything that came with it, I’ve made friends and just aksldjf it’s brought good things into my life. I’m not gonna delete this account, So yup. Here goes nothing.
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Clare/Eli Story~
"Love stories never really end. They can drag on, they can take forever and we could spend the rest of our lives trying to get ours down but I don’t think it will ever truly be over.”
Clare laid on her bed, staring at the ceiling as she fumbled with her hands and tried to calm herself down. It had been about four days since she’d last seen Eli and they had almost kissed. It put her on edge just thinking about it. They’d gone longer than this without talking before but it seemed different now that there was the strenuous fact that they would be talking about her feelings and she felt her heart flutter nervously as she tried to get her thoughts together on what she would say. What exactly was she going to say? I’m sorry I almost kissed you and let my feelings get the best of me? I’m sorry I upset you into thinking this was your fault when in reality I just let myself get caught up in old feelings? I’m sorry I felt like I was stupid enough to allow myself to feel that way and I don’t want you to think I only acted like that because I’m getting over my ex? All of these things sounded completely useless in her head and all of them made no sense to her. She wasn’t exactly sure why she was so upset with herself but she knew that when she thought of Eli almost kissing Imogen an acidy burn set in the back of her throat and she tried desperately to push the jealousy behind her. She wouldn’t allow that to play factor into any of this or anything that had happened. Eli already had thought it was his fault for how she felt but she knew that he hadn’t done anything wrong. They weren’t together and they hadn’t been for months. He was free to kiss whoever he liked to kiss but she felt silly for actually letting herself feel like their almost kiss mattered. She finally found the courage to push herself up from her bed and she set out to Eli’s making sure to inform her mom that she was leaving before she did. When she arrived at Eli’s her nerves began to take over again and she took in a deep breath as she knocked on his door. To her delight, Cece answered. “Hey sweetheart,” she spoke with a bright smile, “Eli told me you’d be coming. He’s upstairs waiting for you.” With a courteous smile Clare thanked her and then made her way up to his room. The door was cracked and she pushed it opened slowly. He was laying on his bed just as she had been on hers, moving his hands with what she couldn’t help but think was also his nerves. He always worked himself up when it came to things and she knew that, despite her directions to him, he had been dwelling on it all night. They were friends now, good friends and for him to think she was upset with him would probably drive him crazy. “You know, I told you not to think about it,” she said, drawing his attention to her for the first time since she’d walked in, “You’ve probably lost eight years from your life just worrying.” He pushed himself up on his bed, letting out a soft sigh as he rested his arms on his legs. “Hello to you too.” His voice was quiet and his face was blank as Clare sat on the edge of the bed. She smiled at him and looked around, trying to think of something to say to put off the subject at hand. “Oh, you put up my painting.” she noticed as she saw it framed and on his wall. He nodded, “I told you I would.” She smiled kindly and nodded, looking down at her hands. “I should probably keep painting I haven’t really since-” before she could finish her sentence, Eli cut her off. “Look, can we just get to whatever it is you wanted to talk about? You’ve right I’ve been driving myself crazy and I’d rather know why you’re upset than sit here wondering about it the whole time.” His forwardness caught him off guard and she let out a sigh. “Yeah sorry I just,” she chuckled awkwardly, “Trying to put it off as long as possible.” Eli frowned, “Do you hate me because we almost kissed? Or because I almost kissed Imogen? Or because I almost kissed both of you? I really can’t think of what in the hell it could be other than that but everyone’s made it out like I’m some monster for coming on too strong or something.”
“I dont…hate you. I’m not upset with you either.” Clare mumbled and Eli laughed. “Adam doesnt make me feel like a prick often so something you said must have led him to believe I did something to at the very least upset you.” Eli said and Clare bit her lip. “I didnt mean to cause an argument between you two. I just…I’m so alone without Alli here. I dont have this huge group of best friends.” Clare rubbed at her arm and Eli shook his head. “Clare, I’m not upset that you talked to Adam. He’s your best friend too. It’s allowed.” Eli smiled and Clare felt a little bit of tension ease a bit but not enough to make her breathe any easier. “Whatever you told him was enough to light a fire under him and I know that he is protective of you.” Clare looked at Eli and Eli held her gaze. “If someone did something to upset you I’d be the same way. That’s what friends do Clare. They protect one another. That’s why I took to heart that you were so upset. I didnt mean to cause you any distress and it was so much that my best friend practically accused me of…of manipulating you.” Eli finally dropped Clare’s gaze and she knew exactly why. That word. That one word had changed their entire relationship. “Eli…” Clare wanted to touch his hand but she knew it would be crossing a line. “I’m sorry I tried to kiss you. I kind of got caught up and I regret it.” Clare felt her heart shake a bit. She knew he wasnt trying to hurt her feelings but it did. “Why?” She asked timidly. Eli cocked his eyebrow unsure of what she was asking. “Why do you regret it?” She asked daring a look and Eli thought for a moment. “Well because it’s clearly put strain on our friendship and made you feel awkward.” Eli’s words lightened her pained heart a bit but she sighed. Eli frowned as Clare stared down into her lap. “I really wish you would just tell me how to fix this. Seeing you like this is killing me.” Clare looked over at Eli and saw how heavy his frown was. “I’m not sure how I look but I think I should be insulted.” Clare teased as in attempt to lighten the mood but Eli shook his head. “No, you look lost in your own thoughts and emotions and it’s overwhelming you. I’ve been there. I LIVE there and it’s a horrible place to be stuck.” Eli explained and Clare agreed.
“Okay well…” Clare began hesitantly, “I’m going to tell you what’s wrong. But you have to promise to not let it offend you or upset you in anyway at all.” He face was emotionless for a second as he listened to his words and he chuckled lightly when she finished. “That’s not something I can promise. Depending on what it is, I may get upset either way.” Clare pouted. “Just promise me you won’t or else I’m not telling.” He sighed and nodded, scooting closer to her but not too close in an attempt to not make her feel uncomfortable. “Fine. I promise to try and not get upset.” She nodded, it was good enough. Because she knew him and she felt as if somehow it would bother him. “Okay, and you have let me explain fully and finish before butting in and saying anything.” He narrowed his eyes slightly. “Fine. No interruptions.” Clare took in a deep breath and let it out slowly, moving her eyes from his and down to his blanket. “Hey,. is this a new blanket….?” she asked and Eli groaned. “Spit it out Edwards!” Again her eyes found his. “Fine fine, sorry. Alright.” She paused to collect her thoughts, and then began. “I was afraid at first that… almost kissing you… the way I felt…. I was afraid it was only because I’ve been trying to get over the Jake thing.” She saw it then, the way his face fell and a look as if he’d been smacked in the face with the insult of her words. “No no!” She exclaimed as she watched him avert his eyes from hers. “No looking at me like that!” But Eli frowned. “Like what?” “Like I’ve just broken your heart again for the millionth time.” He didn’t say another word, just looked at her and she felt her heart shake in her chest. An uncontrollable urge boiled in her to grab him and hold him until whatever hurt she caused him went away but she fought back. “Please just let me finish.” He nodded, and she went on. “That’s what I thought at first. And I hated myself for it, because I would never in a million years want to feel like that was the case. But what bothered me more was I thought that you thought that was why it had happened. The entire night the thought attacked me like bees attacking someone who had bothered their hive and it took everything in me not to call you and tell you I was sorry for even taking it there.” Eli’s face was lighter now, more curious than anything. “Because that wasn’t it. It had nothing to do with Jake. It had to do with the fact that I let myself get comfortable enough with you, because that’s how we are. I fell back in to the comfort our relationship had had.” Eli looked more confused now. “So you aren’t feeling like this because you think you’re rebounding from Jake?” He asked and Clare shook her head. “No. I thought so at first but then I heard that you had almost kissed Imogen and it infuriated me.” Again Eli’s face fell. “But not because you had almost kissed her! You did absolutely nothing wrong. I mean, you’re not mine and some silly moment in my livingroom doesn’t make you mine. I was afraid you had…. that you had went to kiss her to get back at me, because you thought I was using you as a rebound….” she was looking intensely at her hands now, not sure if she made sense at all but she couldn’t bare to look at his expression. “And then on top of that I was so mad at myself for letting my guard down. I was mad for it because I actually wanted to kiss you. Badly. More than I should have but what if we had? We could have ruined everything. This friendship. Our casual relationship could have been ruined completely. I mean it could have made things so awkward between us. And then you almost kissed Imogen… and I was upset with myself for letting our almost moment mean something to me when I was stupid to think that it had. It was just my feelings getting the best of me. I don’t know what’s wrong with me lately but it’s like my body is running on hormones. I know that’s normal because we’re teenagers. I get that completely but not with you. I don’t want my hormones to have any sort of factor when it comes to you because… I really do care about you. So that’s what this was all about. I was mad because I had let myself feel something when I know I shouldn’t have been stupid enough to do so. I was mad at myself because I had let myself get upset that the moment actually meant something to me when it’s obvious that it shouldn’t have at all.” Eli looked at Clare with shock on his face. After everything he had thought, every single scenario he had gone through in his mind this was definitely not it. “You think that it meant nothing to me?” Clare was still looking down at her hands. “I can’t believe I let myself even think about it, because I get it. Light summer. Just friends. You can flirt and do whatever you want and I know that’s how it is. That’s what we had agreed on from the start. I’m upset with myself for letting my emotions get the best of me but I’m just a stupid teenage girl and that’s my only good excuse.”
“So it’s nothing I did that was over the top and made you upset?” Eli questioned and Clare shook her head. “No not at all.” Eli looked confused. “So it was because I was being…me?” Eli asked and Clare chuckled lightly. “Yeah I guess so.” Clare smiled lightly but Eli held a slight frown. “So you’re disappointed that you let yourself have feelings for me again? Is that so hard to believe? That at some point I wasn’t a complete mess and you actually did fall for a saner version of myself.” Clare shook her head quickly. “No that’s not it at all. Dont do that. It’s not hard to love you Eli. It’s actually really hard for me not to love but I see how well you are doing without me and I would never think of ruining that. You are so happy and alive. When I see you talk to Fiona or Adam or even Imogen, you have such a light in you that I think got lost when you were with me. I’d much rather love you as a friend then risk putting out that light.” Clare explained and Eli took a deep breath. “There are moments that we have that I remember why I fell in love with you but to be honest it only takes a split second for those moments to terrify me. I want so badly to have you in my life Clare but I cant risk losing who I am fighting a war in my head. I won’t always please you but I would never go out of my way to hurt you. Almost kissing you made my heart ache the whole way home from how fast it was beating. You still have that hold on me. You probably always will, but you’re right. We arent together anymore.” Clare listened to Eli and was unsure of where he was going with this. “When you broke up with me, my whole world fell apart. I had let another girl that I loved slip through my hands and everyone kept telling me that I would be okay. I started with therapy but they couldnt figure out what was wrong with me but I was able to numb that pain.” Eli took another deep breath before looking at Clare. “Then you started dating Jake and even through that fog and numbness it hurt. Everything inside of me ached and there were days just getting up was hard.” It was killing Clare to hear this but as Eli sat up straight he composed himself. “After the play and finding about my disorder I felt like that was my fresh start. I’m sorry how things worked out for you and Jake because I could tell how much you loved him but I never got that chance. I never got to truly move on and find someone to take out to dinner or go to the movies with. I deserve that. I’m not saying it’s going to be Imogen but someday there will be a girl.” Eli looked at Clare who tried not to hold a sad smile. “I know and she will be a very lucky girl.” Eli watched Clare’s face before extending his hand for her to take. “I need to know that you won’t give up on me as a friend. Seeing you heartbroken over Jake hurt. To be honest, it still hurts but I care about you and I want you to be happy. I need to know that you’ll be happy for me too.” Eli said clapping his free hand over Clare’s as her dainty hand sat in his palm.
Clare let the thought fill her mind. The thought of Eli with someone else made her heart ache but she knew he was right. Someday he would find someone else to make him happy, and a bigger chance of that was that it wouldn’t be with her. For the first time since she’d left him laying in the hospital bed she felt as if she finally could understand even the smallest fraction of what he was feeling. She pictured it in her mind, him with another girl. Though she was faceless and nameless it didn’t make her heart ache any less to think of him with her. Holding her hand, laying with her beneath the stars, going on urban adventures to find places of their own or even worse, actually kissing him instead of an almost. She tried to keep herself composed as she pictured it but she found herself lost in the thought, staring at the carpet beneath them. She was chewing on the corner of her lip so hard as Eli watched her, he thought she was going to bite right through it. “Clare?” he asked, breaking her concentration and her eyes shot up to his. He tried to ignore the fact that they were far more watery now than they had been before. She didn’t know what to say. She’d never been in the position to think about this before. Because when she was with Jake, that’s what she cared about. She never had to think about Eli with someone else. When she had offered to help Imogen get the part of the play in an attempt to catch Eli’s attention it was just that, her hoping to get his attention but she never had to truly think about her with him. Maybe she had been stupid to think that she’d never have to think of Eli with someone else but then again she thought maybe it had just been her minds way of a defense mechanism. Don’t think about it, don’t let it hurt. She fought through her feelings and gave him a weak smile, not so convincing but she knew it would do. “I would never give up on you as a friend. Whenever that day comes… whenever she comes, whether it’s Imogen or someone else, I will be happy for you.” Eli smiled back at her in return, “No trying to win me back with a play, okay?” Clare chuckled lightly, but the pain in her chest was still burning. “What happened to all is fair in love and war?” She asked and Eli smirked. “All’s fair, but you should probably leave the theater to me.” They both laughed lightly, but only to try and clear the heavy stillness in the air. Clare’s eyes drifted away again and a silence fell over them. “You know,” she began in an attempt to break the silence. She wasn’t sure how to word out what it was she was trying to say so her mouth just ran and her mind tried catching up, “Love stories never really end. They can drag on, they can take forever and we could spend the rest of our lives trying to get ours down but I don’t think it will ever truly be over.” Eli smirked, “You’re comparing our relationship to a love story?” he asked with a laugh, “Clare Edwards, who reads sappy things like The Notebook and for reasons unknown, Twilight, is calling our relationship a love story? You don’t think it’s closer to a tragedy?” Clare laid back in the bed, staring up at the ceiling. “Some of the best love stories are tragedies. Look at Romeo and Juliet, it wasn’t perfect but it’s one of the greatest love stories of all time.” Eli smiled and laid down beside her, crossing his hands on his chest as he too looked up at the ceiling. It was comfortable now, far different from when she’d first entered the room and for the first time since she showed up, he wasn’t afraid of crossing a line. “So you’re saying our love story is still being written?” he chuckled, turning his head to look at her and she nodded. “I want to believe so.” He smiled. “I guess it has some good qualities. I mean.. at least the leading guy is pretty awesome… and doesn’t sparkle.” Clare rolled her eyes and laughed, hitting him with her hand and he laughed too. “So…” he began, feeling far more comfortable now, “If ours is in fact a love story,” he was looking at her again and she turned her head to face him, meeting his eyes, “Where do you see it going? I mean, you are the expert.” Clare’s expression changed with her thinking. “I don’t know. I see us being friends, really good friends for a long time.” Eli smiled, “Yeah I’d like that.” She smiled too. She was still dealing with the thought of him ever being with another girl but she knew it would happen and she knew it was something she’d have to deal with. Because even the best love stories had heart break. There was pain and suffering but in the end, there was always love. Whether in heart or in friendship, there was always love. “Love can be short, but forgetting takes much longer.”
“I dont think forgetting will ever be an option as far as we are concerned.” Eli laughed and Clare clicked her tongue against her teeth. “You never know. In a year, you will be graduating and going off to college. I’ll just be that girl who stole your heart for just a small period of time.” Clare smirked and Eli looked over at her resting his hands on his stomach. “Our love may not be a forever kind of love but it’ll never fade. You’ll always be the girl that broke the block of ice my heart was encased in.” Eli said making Clare blush. “And you Eli Goldsworthy will always be my first great love.” Clare smiled and Eli chuckled. “You would think I would get some sort of trophy.” He teased. “Can you remember when we started hanging out as friends?” Clare asked and Eli let out a laugh again. “Yeah Adam hated me for ditching him all the time so I could spend time with you.” He put his arms behind his head and Clare rolled over onto her elbow. “How about how much fun he had filming our school project. I felt so terrible.” Eli cocked his eyebrow at Clare. “Terrible? Yeah right, you totally loved that project.” Eli said and Clare hit his chest. “Always when to boost your own ego.” Clare teased making Eli shrug. They settled into a silence and Eli sighed. “Thanks for coming and talking to me Clare. It means a lot that you didn’t run scared. Your friendship means a lot to me.” Clare looked over at him and smiled before putting her hand on his. “I’m not going anywhere. Your friendship means just as much to me. Thank you for listening.” Clare said and Eli smirked. “Well I am a pretty great listener and I know I’m a badass friend so I see your appeal.” He bragged and Clare laughed. “I think you like to talk more then listen. All that hot air has to go some place when it’s not filling your big head.” Clare tugged on a piece of Eli’s hair. “Aw Clare you are too sweet for words.” Eli mocked causing Clare to hit him again. Eli responded by poking her in the side and she jumped with a laugh. They both laughed at each other for a moment. “You still have the most beautiful laugh I’ve ever seen on a girl.” Eli said biting his lip. Clare couldnt help but glance at his lips. “Stop trying to butter me up.” Clare nudged him but he held her gaze. “Just being honest.” Eli smiled and Clare returned it. “Well thank you. That’s sweet.” She leaned over and kissed Eli’s cheek but as she pulled away she lingered. They got lost in the star-crossed gaze they always found themselves in as they both could feel eachother’s breath on one another’s lips. There was no movement just the dangerously close gaze when Eli’s door opened. They both sat straight up to see Bullfrog. “Oh sorry kids. Eli it’s getting kind of late. You guys can have a few more minutes then Clare’s got to go.” Bullfrog said and Eli rubbed the back of his neck while Clare blushed. “Okay.” Bullfrog looked the two of them over before shutting the door. Clare looked over at Eli who had his eyes shut tightly as he shook his head. “What’s wrong?” Clare asked and Eli opened his eyes. “This is going to make me sound like such an asshole.” He let his head fall back and Clare furrowed her brows. “What is it?” She asked and he looked at her hesitantly. “I think maybe we should take a few days to focus on ourselves. Just so we can both get this out of our systems if we ever want to hang out without having a bunch of almost moments.” Eli was sure Clare would call him a manipulative jerk and storm out so he just waited for the downfall.
Clare let out a sigh, she knew he was right. It wasn’t safe on their friendship for them to share a bunch of almost moments, it wasn’t good for her heart which at the very moment was racing inside of her chest. She wasn’t sure if it was from their locked stare or the fear that had come from almost being caught having their almost moment but she felt as if she’d been running for a mile. And she could see from Eli’s quickly rising and falling chest that he felt the same way. But either way, he was right. It would probably be better for them to take some days off for themselves. Because even sitting here beside him so closely though they had put distance between them, she could imagine herself doing it. It wouldn’t he hard, it would be as easy as breathing for them. So many almost moments interrupted. But she took it as a sign that it wasn’t meant for them yet. They’d have their moment, like all good love stories did and when it happened she knew it would be worth it. Eli watched her intently for what seemed like an eternity waiting for her reply. He had taken a chance for something he felt that was needed but waiting for her reaction was like torture. “No,” she began and he tilted his head, “No that’s fine. I agree. We should just, take a breather. I want to be able to hang out with you without letting my feelings go crazy. I mean, we were able to hang out once before without…” she trailed off. “Wanting to completely ravish each other?” Eli chuckled and Clare’s cheeks blushed heavily. “Yeah, something like that.” But she couldn’t help but think about how from the moment they met she hadn’t wanted anything more. “I just think it would be good.” he said and Clare nodded in agreement. “You don’t think it’ll make things worse though, right? I mean staying away from each other and then seeing each other again.” He smirked, “I hope not because I have to admit it’s pretty bad right now.” Clare laughed, the blush was still on her cheeks and he couldn’t help but notice that it hadn’t really dimmed the entire time. “How bad?” she asked. It was an innocent question, but rooted with heavy curiosity. Eli’s face fell and he let out a sigh. “Very.” Clare took his fallen attitude as an end to the conversation and let out a smile as well. “Things will never be easy for us will they?” she said, staring down at her hands. She wanted to be able to say something else but she was drawing a blank. It was easier for her when she was around Eli, to forget about Jake, and her mom and the wedding. He made it easy for her to forget about all of the bad things that had happened. She was surprised though by the light tone of Eli’s voice. “What kind of love story would it be if it was?” She looked up at him and he was smiling at her. She smiled back and nodded. Nothing else really needed to be said. They would take their short few days apart and when it was over they’d continue being friends. Just friends. It was simple enough. “You should really probably get a hold of Adam,” she said and broke the silence, “I’ve spoken to him and he’s not even mad at you. He said he was tired and regrets being such a jerk to you…. but also that you blew things out of proportion.” Eli rolled his eyes but she could see the pain in them at the mention of his name. “Yeah if he ever answers any of my calls.” Clare sighed, “Stop trying to call him, you’re such a girl. Just go over to his house. He feels stupid for your fight so he’s not going to want to talk and make himself feel even worse.” Eli smirked. He knew she was right. “Yeah I know you’re right. I just hate confrontation with him.” She nodded. “Of course, I understand that but just man up and do it!” Eli’s eyes narrowed at her. “Wow, tough love huh?” She giggled, “What are friends for?” She looked at the digital clock on his desk and realized then how late it was getting. “I should probably get going. You’re on lock down and my mom will probably worry.” she pushed herself up from the bed and walked towards the door, reading to leave but she was stopped by Eli’s hand in hers. “Wait.” he said and she looked up at him, their eyes meeting. It was the familiar feeling she’d felt moments before and a warmth grew in her. There was something about the way he looked at her that always pulled her in and she felt her heart accelerate as she watched Eli lift her hand to his lips and he kissed the back of it gently. She smiled and he did to as he let it fall. Neither of them spoke a word. There was nothing to say, but nothing was needed. Instead, she turned then out the door and left him behind to start focusing on herself.
Fiona/Eli Story~
"I get scared for you. Scared about what you might do to yourself.”
Fiona lay in bed. She hadn’t gotten out of it since she got into it last night. Fiona knew Imogen was worried; her pigtailed head would peer in at her from her door frame, checking to make sure she wasn’t a weeping mess of a girl. Fiona knew she should get up, get dressed, do something to distract herself from last night’s feud with Eli; but Fiona was afraid that if she got out of bed, that the first thing she’d turn to for comfort was alcohol. So in bed she stayed, burrowed up in a fluffy down comforter and her depression. Soon, a knock on her front door interrupted her wallow in self-pity. “Fiona? Do you want me to get that?” Imogen called from the living room. “Sure,” Fiona replied. She knew it was probably Cece, delivering a batch of cookies. Fiona adored Cece, but right now she wasn’t in the mood for a parental guilt trip. From out in the foyer, Fiona heard a squeal and then a muffled exchange of whispers. A soft rapping came from her bedroom door and Fiona huddled deeper into her blanketed comfort zone. “Cece, I’m not feeling well…it’s not a good time,” Fiona said meekly, finishing with a lame attempt of a cough. The door opened anyway and with a sigh, Fiona prepared for the coddling Cece was sure to give her. But when she looked up, Eli stood in front of her, adorned with a tray of cookies clutched in his hand and a timid smile. “Go away,” Fiona ordered, throwing her blankets back over her head in an attempt to block out the last boy she wanted to see. There was a clink as Eli set the plate down on Fiona’s dresser, before he walked over and gently tugged on the comforter that concealed the girl. “Fi, come on, please just talk to me,” Eli plead but Fiona remained resolutely hidden. “Just leave and go talk to Imogen. I promise not to walk in on you and accuse you of making a move on her,” Fiona snapped acidly and Eli’s hold on the blanket slackened. He took a step away from Fiona’s bed, inhaling deeply. Fiona’s words were a slap in the face but he tried to reply calmly. “Well, Imogen’s not here. She left to give us some space to work things out.” Fiona remained silent and Eli was losing patience. “Quit the drama queen act, Fi. It’s getting old,” Eli said tiredly. “Yeah, well so is your running away act,” Fiona replied furiously, finally emerging from her blanket cocoon. She glared at Eli with the looks to kill, and he met her stare dead on.
“I told you I needed space Fiona. I didnt run away. Running away would have been creeping out of the window leaving everything behind. Did I do that? NO. I just needed to clear my head.” Eli said calmly defending his actions which only made Fiona furious. “Normal people talk it out with friends. You have a therapist Eli. You have friends. You cant run away from everything your whole life and use bipolar as some sort of free pass.” Fiona said crossing her arms over her chest. “I’m not making excuses!” Eli snapped back at her. “Yes you are! You push people away because you much rather do the self loathing thing and to be honest it’s getting old. I knew you were dramatic when we decided to be friends but this is starting to get ridiculous.” Fiona put her hand on her hip and Eli huffed. “Sorry my emotions bother you. I guess it’s good we just cut ties now especially since your timing is so perfect. I mean the moment I start to feel an ounce of peace I come on to check in with you only to find out how you truly feel about me.” Eli said as Fiona threw her covers back and grabbed her robe. “How I truly feel about you? Are you really this self loathing all the time? Are you that immune to hormones because if you are I’d love to know your secret.” Fiona said rolling her eyes. “You practically compared me to the guy who gave her a fat lip. How did you think that was supposed to make me feel?” He started to raise his voice and Fiona was becoming more and more annoyed with him. “Oh please, Eli. What Henry did to Imogen isnt even close to what I walked in on. It’s like you dont even care that she is caught up in you.” Fiona had grown close to Imogen and hated seeing her hurt or pine after Eli when Eli was clearly mixed up when it came to matters of his heart. “YOU MADE IT SOUND LIKE I WAS MANIPULATING HER!” Eli shouted and Fiona had finally lost her patience. “YEAH WELL MAYBE YOU WERE!” Fiona felt the anger rise out of her throat as she spewed hateful words at Eli but when she had steadied her feet waiting for his retort she was surprised to see him step back. His jaw slacked and his face looked like it was on the verge of crumbling. “I’m not trying to. I never try to.” He said weakly turning away from Fiona. Her chest seized up upon realizing why he turned away and wiped at his face.
“Goddamn it, Eli,” Fiona said. Tears filled her own eyes and she brushed them away impatiently. She wanted to hug Eli, tell him she was wrong. But she also wanted to grab his scrawny shoulders and shake some sense into him. Wearily, Fiona sank back down onto the edge of her bed. “No more yelling,” Fiona said, her voice small. Eli sniffed but turned back around. Hesitantly, he took a seat by Fiona on the bed. She drew her knees up to her chest, rested her chin on them and they both sat in silence, not meeting each others gaze. “Why do you have to be so stubborn?” Fiona asked, but there was no venom in her voice. “I could ask you the same thing,” Eli said and they shared a shaky laugh. “We’re one in the same,” Fiona sighed, finally turning her head towards Eli. “I read what you said by the way,” she added, “about me telling you that we’re the same person but that I was wrong because you would never make me feel like shit the way I did.” Eli nodded, breaking his gaze from Fiona to stare at her plum colored walls. “Yeah, well you did make me feel like the lowliest human being on the planet,” he confessed. Fiona shook her head, her brown curls bouncing. “I wasn’t trying to do that,” she insisted, and then paused. “Okay, maybe I was a little bit. But god Eli, you just disappear on everyone, ignore us all day, and make us all feel horrible because we all blame ourselves for you leaving. So yeah, I guess I wanted you to feel as crappy as you made me feel.” Eli’s voice shook slightly as he answered. “You knew I was already upset, why would you try to add more salt to the wound? What kind of best friend does that?” Eli stood now, and began to pace back and forth. His feelings for Fiona were becoming jumbled, and he tried to puzzle piece them together so as to make them more clearer. He was angry at her. But he wasn’t. She was right. But she wasn’t. His hands were starting to shake. “Eli,” Fiona said cautiously, but Eli didn’t slow his pace. He was probably going to burn a trail in Fiona’s carpet. “Eli, I’m sorry,” Fiona said and he halted in his tracks, turning to look at her. Fiona took a deep breath. “I’m sorry that I made you feel bad. I went about my argument in the wrong way. I intended to make you feel shitty…and I apologize. But-but I’m not sorry for what I said. You can’t keep leaving everyone behind. If you want space, I can understand that. If you need a break from everyone, I get that. But you know that there are people that love you…that care about you…and that worry themselves sick when you leave and it’s not fair to them that you pull the kind of crap you did yesterday. How hard is it to just send one measly text to me or your parents or any of your other friends just to let them know that you’re fine, and that you’ll be home sometime soon? Eli, you’re a whirlwind. I’ve known that about you since day one…and I get…I get scared for you. Scared about what you might do to yourself.” Fiona stared down, her lips trembling. Tears slid down her cheeks.
“Great, another girl I’ve scared to tears. I should just give up at this whole friendship thing.” Eli rolled his eyes and Fiona hit his arm. “You dont get it. People leave me all the time but if something were to happen to you…if I lost you at this point I’d be a wreck. What scares me most is that it’s like you think no one would care if you just didnt come home. Like we would forget all about you and be so much happier but we wont. I wont. I know you’ve managed that pain but I dont think I could handle that Eli. THAT’S why I think you were being selfish.” Eli held a frown as Fiona wiped her tears away. “I’m sorry Fi. I hope that you never have to feel the kind of loss I’ve had to deal with at this age. It changes you. Changes what you believe. Everything seems so pointless in comparison to the human life. I wasnt trying to make you worry like that. I wasnt trying to make anyone worry. The only reason I felt like I couldnt call was because thinking of calling you made me think of Imogen and then I felt bad.” Eli explained and Fiona sniffled. “You could have called Adam.” Fiona pointed out and Eli bit his lip. “He also had some choice words about how I was a dog for almost kissing Imogen and almost kissing Clare.” Fiona’s eyes went wide. “Wait what?!” She said and Eli sighed. “That night I told you she gave me that painting…I dont know what happened but I just got caught up in staring at her but then-” Fiona cut Eli off. “Then she started moving in for a kiss or did you do in first?” Fiona asked and Eli blushed. “She actually made the first move.” Eli played the moment in his head and Fiona hit him making him rub his arm. “WHY am I just now hearing about this?” Fiona said incredulously. “Well dont get your hopes up. She wigged out and wouldnt talk to me the next day and then I get attack by Adam for being a serial flirt. Honestly I think she was upset that she even thought for a moment about kissing me…the crazy ex.” Eli looked down at his hands and Fiona tried to wrap her head around what Eli had said. “That’s why you got upset? You were upset that you might have crossed the line with Clare and at the same time-” Eli now cut Fiona off. “Two almost kisses with two different girls? I must be the problem right? I can’t blame them. I’m the only factor that remains the same.” Eli said sounding defeated. “I had my best friends looking at me like I was this horrible manipulative guy because of two kisses that even I was shocked almost happened.” Eli sounded ashamed. Fiona realized now why Eli had tried to run. Having Adam in Clare’s corner and her in Imogen’s must have made him alone as he seemed now that she looked at him and seeing a lost boy.
“You’re lonely,” Fiona stated quietly and Eli looked up at her, frowning slightly. “How is that in relation to what we’re talking about?” he questioned, his brow wrinkled in confusion. “You’re lonely because you miss being intimate with someone, feeling close to another person. You and Clare…what you guys had, it was the real deal. True love and all that jazz. I think you’re still trying to get over it. You miss her and you miss being with her, kissing her, holding her hand…I think you’re just desperate for someone like that to be in your life again. That’s why you almost kissed Clare. That’s why you almost kissed Imogen. And unfortunately for you,”-Fiona stood, clapping a hand on his shoulder-“you got to kiss little ole lesbian me instead.” She winked and Eli smirked. “I really wouldn’t call that unfortunate…,” he drawled and Fiona smacked him lightly on the arm. “Watch it you, don’t make me use some of those self defense moves I learned on you,” she warned jokingly. Eli held his hands up in surrender, a smile still on his face. “So,” he said, his arms dropping back down to his sides, “Are we…I mean, is all forgiven?” Fiona glanced down, nudged the toe of her foot into her plush carpet. “No,” she answered. Eli felt a lump in his throat, he opened his mouth to say something, when Fiona stepped towards him and wrapped her arms around him. Closing his mouth, Eli hugged her tightly back. “Now all is forgiven,” Fiona said, her voice muffled against the collar of his shirt. He felt her smile on his shoulder. She stepped away from him, and then smacked him lightly on the face. “Ow! Stop doing that!” Eli protested, rubbing his cheek even though it didn’t really hurt. “No more running away like that anymore, okay mister?” Fiona said, arms crossed and eyebrows raised. “I don’t promise that I won’t leave from time to time to get some space but I do promise to not shut out the world and ignore you all if you’re trying to reach me,” Eli promised and Fiona smiled. Eli then cocked his head to the side, studying her. “What?” Fiona asked, unnerved by his gaze and taking a step back. “Nice bedhead,” Eli said with a playful sneer and Fiona let out a squeal before launching herself into her bathroom, slamming the door shut behind him. Eli laughed freely, feeling the weight on his shoulders lessen dramatically.
Eli waited for Fiona to come out of the bathroom and when she did she looked a lot better then when he had originally saw her. “The wonderful art of Mac makeup.” She said fluffing her brushed curls. Eli smiled as he looked down at his hands. Fiona sat next to him on the bed and looked at him. “What’s on your mind?” She asked. Eli sighed and looked over at her. “While I’m thrilled that you dont think I’m a pigheaded jerk anymore I still have to talk to Adam and Clare and that makes my head all wonky.” He scrunched his face and Fiona gave him a rye smile. “Are you trying to say that I was the easier of the two?” Fiona’s comment made Eli laugh. He knew that that was her way to make him feel lighter about the situation and he appreciated it. “Absolutely not. Conquer the bull was what I was operating on. Figured if you threw the cookies at me I could just I’ve up all together.” He joked and Fiona reached over and grabbed a cookie handing him one. “Adam is a levelheaded guy. He was up really late texting me because he was so worried. We both talked about how worried we were about you and how much we love you even when you act like an ass and scare the hell out of us.” Eli smiled lightly and Fiona nudged him. “Adam will be okay and so will you. You both are far too close to stop your little bromance now.” Eli made a face at Fiona and nudged her back. “Bromance? Really? He’s more like my brother and I hope he’ll look past the mistakes I’ve made and forgive me for being…the way I am.” Eli said unsure of what Adam would say when he did finally talk to him. “Everything will be fine and just so you know those two girls arent innocent either. You know how Imogen feels and Clare…well Clare is another story entirely.” Fiona smiled and Eli nodded. “She’s my favorite story though.” Eli said dazed. Fiona looked at her best friend and hoped that one day she would find someone to love her like Eli loved Clare. “I’ve got to get going. Cece and Bullfrog are clocking me. Thank you for not throwing the cookies at me.” Eli smiled and hugged Fiona once more. “Just promise me you’ll call me if you ever want to get lost again. I know a girl with a travel bag and frequent flyer miles that can take you anywhere.” Fiona flipped her hair and gestured to a packed bag next to her nightstand. Eli had to laugh at the bag. She truly was becoming one of the best friends he’d ever had. He kissed her forehead and Fiona made a shocked face. “Goodnight Fi. I’ll talk to you tomorrow.” Eli said his final farewell and told Fiona to tell Imogen goodbye as well before heading home. The moment he stepped out into the night air he took a deep breath and truly felt a bit more weightless.
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