The crippling life of a messed up Uni student

Hey, my name is Luke, I am just your average Dead on the Inside Uni student, studying Civil Engineering, 21 years young.

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The letter is beginning to haunt me honestly

Each now and then I look at it and wonder whether I should send it off to you. Im not seeking a friendship, Im not declaring my everlasting love, its literally a thank you for the good and wishing you well in life and yet, I sit here, unwilling to send this damn letter.

I’ve moved on and bettered myself as much as possible, I now tackle all my problems head on and have basically no shame, I’ve truly become fearless, except for this. This sits over my head, and its annoying. Every friend I have talked to has told me that its a fair reason to send it but not to expect anything good to come of it. I honestly just want to wish her well and move on.

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Oooft

I’ve come close to doing the stupid thing I was going to, I really don’t know what to do with it tbh. Life will go on either way if I do it or not, but I feel like it would give me some true closure, but in the same breath, I also just simply don’t care enough to let it be a factor of my life anymore.

I dunno, I have the letter typed up sitting there, I’ll sleep on it for a month, I am in no rush, and its not going to rebridge any gaps. It’s basically a big thank you letter for letting me become the mad lad I am today. Also, Uni nearly done, very EXCITE!

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Im probably going to do the dumbest thing I could do in the next week

Hopefully it isnt a mistake, it probably is, but still

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Fuck me its been awhile, a whole year in fact!

So shittttttt a lots happened over the last year, basically I use this as a journal for something to reflect on each year. So, I fucking did it, I am in my internship now and finish my degree early next year with a potential job lined up afterwards. I am finally entering into a career and its exciting. I’ve rediscovered my love for my course, my learning and myself. Oh and I might be a published researcher by the end of next year!

I’m still streaming, but it’s been a lot smaller the last month or two because I’ve been playing dumb shit I want to play ahaha, still doing charity work though and after totaling it up we’ve changed roughly 40 sick kids and their families lives, its be far my proudest achievement and something I will continue to support for my entire life.

Im way more social than what I was. I’ve already made a name for myself at the internship within 5 days, people know me and its a very cool feeling. I’ve reached the point in my life where I now know who my lifelong friends are and its honestly really cool. Im known as the fun guy of the group who has little fucks to give and its pretty spot on.

Finally for the future, I am hopeful to move into a career by the end of 2022, as well as I am hopeful to be in Japan during 2023 for maybe 6 or so weeks. I am going to be doing a fucktonne of travel pretty much as soon as I can.

Not sure why im including it but fuck it, I got fucked around pretty hard by one of my exs who did a serious fucking number on me. People really dont understand the damage they do to others until its too late. My love life is such a shit show aha, I’ve had several flings but nothing concrete which honestly doesn’t faze me at all. I have not been really looking for a long time partner due to a hard focus on my Uni (which HELLA paid off). Lifes on the up lads, its fucking nice to be in a good spot.

Final side note which I can’t really explain nor detail, but fuck man, something happened and its just such a fuck you moment that makes ya feel good. It’s honestly sick.

Aight peacing out homies, stay safe, take care of yourselves, expect an update down the line (probs in a year)!

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Time for that update post randomly

So where to start, life’s going on. My social life is honestly so much more active than its ever been which is a huge positive. My mental health is in a real good spot. Unfortunately rona delayed my finish up of uni but it is what it is. My streaming is doing well and is a hobby im so glad I committed to. I’ve just rebuilt my pc, bought a ps5 and setup a much more professional streaming set up. I stream the fun stuff over @ www.twitch.tv/trashlord7 pretty much nightly so feel free to come along or watch my VODS. Also hit a real good point where I just basically removed all the negative stuff from my life. Ive moved on from it all, I forgive all those in my past who were not positive as I have no energy (nor time) to dwell on negatives. I’m a much happier person now. My goals for the next few months is to pick up a lot more charity work. I’ve done 3 months of charity work at this point and it’s really nice to support others while doing something I love!

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Meet Astrid, legit one of the most playful kittens I have ever met. She’s a little bundle of joy and doesn’t claw/bite too much!

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Ya Yeet Lads

We back for a post! (Not returning to Tumblr for long). Twitch is still the best avenue to find me at. I’m currently smashing out my backlog and maintaining my position as the 26th best Pyke in the Oceania region which is always a blast to watch. Uni is doing uni things but you know, I’m not stressed. New living stuff has been arranged, streaming studio is #lit with a decent set up for the moment. It’s going to need some rearranging but its fine. There’s gonna be a big group stream for Man Of Medan when that drops so if you want to see some solid EEK and Screms then I’d suggesting coming along! Else, not much has changed, I’m much happier with where I am at. A lot of my negativity has left, I’m getting out a lot more and my mental state is significantly better. Finally, the other big thing, I GOT A NEW KITTY AND SHES ADORABLE AND THE BEST! I’ll probably flood a few pictures and then not return to tumblr for another few months. Remember, best avenue to contact me is through twitch/discord (from twitch) Take it easy y’all

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A small update post

Okay so first things first, no I'm not back on Tumblr, I however wanted to throw an update on what's doing with me for future sake.

Firstly Twitch has been a great experience! I've made some amazing friend through it, have managed to continue growing at a steady pace and am all round super excited to keep going with it!

Secondly, relating back to my twitch, I will be doing a Good Friday Appeal charity stream, a schedule is currently being organised but all money raised will go towards sick kids in need! I'm very motivated to get this in motion as a yearly event with all of my subs contributing an amount each month to donations following this first one!

Back to the good! I'll have my own streaming studio and house either at the end of this week or next! I'm so excited! Quality will go up and I'll have a lot more freedom on my schedule!

So let's get on to the bad for this past period of time. I did a silly thing and ended up with a serious back injury. It's been a real wake up call to my lifestyle and is enforcing change. My back is currently better but far from perfect. I've been healing rapidly and I am now at the 5 month mark since, lessons learned and on the road to recovery!

Minor stuff that's happened!

- Finally played all the KH games and loved them!

- Social group Hella expanded

- Budgeting to go back to Japan is viable (thank lord!)

- 2 of my best friends returned from moving interstate

All in all a very positive period of time and very excited for the upcoming future!

PS (since I don't want to waffle on about twitch in the main post)

Twitch has done wonders for me. I've made some serious life long friends, I've got several fans and many viewers popping in and out. I've been told I'm super engaging and my content is actually decent. This positivity has significantly boosted my production value/quality and content! I've committed many hours to nurturing this channel to the point it's at with constant content changes. Starting soon I'll be cutting up 180 hours of KH streams into a series for YouTube and will also be cultivating a let's play cast that will take streamed content into a YouTube video format. This might sound a bit like mumbo jumbo and it kind of is in some ways, however I just want to mention it here for future reference.

My goals with twitch currently is to boost up my average viewer count, aim for 1000 followers and get content going on my let's plays!

What diversifies my current content is my unique humour style on to a more laid back stream. The fact I stream a wide variety will continually making laughs has helped a lot! The several drunk streams I've run have been massive hits, the Spyro stream was insane (250 avg viewers!!) And got me really put on the map in several communities!

Final note, if you have interest in attempting to collaborate or what to merge communities, message me over at my twitter Trashlord71, I'm open to discussions and attempting to benefit everyone!

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Twitch is the world's leading video platform and community for gamers.

And with this post, my tumblr has officially closed. Cheers for the ride y’all!

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Sudden urge to watch Sunshine, I’ll do it after I finish my assignments tomorrow

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That feel when someone pops up on FB after a year or two

I can't even. Fucking fake people. I have no idea how people can claim to be happy when they put on the fake persona.

I imagine my life if I tried to meet expectations, or tried to impress/fit in, and it honestly makes me sad. I'd rather have no life instead of living a fake one.

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Darth Vader but every time he breaths you hear a harmonica

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This is one of those text posts you can instantly hear

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Stain |  ステイン

“ All for the sake of a better society…“

(My Hero Academia)

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Deadpool 2 is a must see.

I went to the midnight screening, I do not regret it. They seriously doubled-down on the comedy.

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absolutely mad lads

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absolute ledges

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