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@fukasesbiggestglazer
I should probably do an intro since I forgot-
I'm Jade/Oliver!
Gay and transmasc:3 (he/they)
Fandoms I'm in (long list):
Omori, Dandys world, Crush crush/Blush blush, Tpn, Soul eater, Murder drones, Tadc, Madoka magica, Tbhk, Vocaloid, Pjsk, The Outsiders, Warrior cats, Bfdi, ENA, Toh, Bee & Puppycat, Lwa, hfjone, bsd (There's probably more but I can't remember-)
Please don't be weird because I am a minor!
I love fukase!>O<
HAPPY 10TH BIRTHDAY FUKASE!
Ily king <3 and art by Mikuma
Heyy uhh... random venting post out of the blue ig? Just before you keep reading, please beware that very sensitive topics will be mentioned so look away if you must!
Anyway I'm lowkirkenuinely on the verge of completely shutting down rn but I left all my friends bc I kept hurting everyone (even the people who I get along with fine as I don't want to be anywhere near the entire group I'm so mean aghhhhhhhh💔) and now I literally have like nobody! Way to go Jade, you're so smart<3 I say I'm fine without my old best friends but it's tearing me up, especially because I loved these ppl and still do but I don't want to be near them. I genuinely don't know if I can keep smiling much longer. I've basically lost everything including my sense of identity and the only reason I'm still here is bc I'm scared of dying and I don't want to hurt my family. I don't even know why they would be sad, I'll never be a real boy to them and I'm not even their real child. I was and accident who was meant to be aborted bur I got lucky because my bio mom was my current grandmother's coworker and she overheard my (adoptive) mom and her talking about infertility issues. My mom went through so much treatment and her and my father were so excited when they finally conceived, only for it to not work. I'm so sorry Sierra, you should be the one living your best life. It should her in this bed right now and not me. I took this from her and I can't even make something of myself. I'm a waste of cells and I only exist so my parents don't have to mourn 2 children all because of me. I don't even know why they care, they adopted me and made me feel like I would belong just for me to fail at everything. I wish my mom was still abusive so I would end up fixing everyone's problem and getting rid of myself. I'm a coward:3
I hate Olikase sm, especially NSFW art of them. I get aging is flexible with most vocaloids but Oliver was voiced by an actual minor at the time, leave bro alone. "B-b-b-but I aged Fukase down too!" Ah yes, make them both shotas and then draw them having sex. Perfect solution💔
Does anyone have a discord server I could join? I'm only in a few and they're kinda boring (no offense my fellow rebellioners) I promise I'm a very chill guy >o<
Those "rating ghost rule growls" videos pmo so bad. "They didn't even growl 1/10" maybe because the original song doesn't have a growl? The Len version was a cover, the original song uses miku and she does NOT Growl.
Guys I can't deal with my life anymore I'm too stressed wtf do I do
*Insert me (a silly little leopard seal) screaming in frustration*
(Vent post guys, might be triggering)
What the FUCK is your problem? Why can't you just be a good person? Why are you so obsessed with your stupid fragile ego that you just have to blow up at anyone who makes you feel the slightest bit insecure? You were literally blessed with the sweetest person as a best friend who has tolerated all your bullshit, and your dumb ass can't even be happy. Them trying to help isn't pity, they don't look down on you, they're just nice (Yeah, being nice. You should really try it sometime!) NOT EVERYONE THINKS LIKE YOU, YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE. You look down on yourself, stop projecting. You're not better than everyone else no matter how hard you try to pretend to be, just accept that you're an incompetent piece of shit. And then you get mad at them for "stealing" your interests. YOUR FUCKING NAME ISNT ON IT, ANYONE CAN LIKE ANYTHING. Your awsome, sweet, compassionate, loyal best friend wants to find stuff to bond with you about AND YOUR RESPONSE IS TO GET MAD ABOUT IT?!? God maybe if you weren't such a selfish waste of space that can't even figure out who he is or how to not be a horrible person you could just enjoy stuff with them. But nooooo, that's just too hard!!! Grow up and learn to be a good person or do everyone else a favor and remove yourself from this world, you insufferable cunt. You don't deserve friends, you don't even deserve to be alive. You're just a worthless bag of pure evil who blows up at the people who try and help him because he's pissed that he can't do anything by himself. Please just fucking kill yourself. Oh wait, you're too much of a coward! This is why you can't socialize. You're not a real person, just like how you will NEVER be a real boy. You don't deserve to feel valid, you dumb tranny. Go die! Like actually, go do it right now. Don't wake up tommorrow<3
(This is totally directed at another person)
Hey guys, I made a leopard seal gender flag. It means a person who's gender identity is related to leopard seals!
(I rlly hope the flag colors I picked don't look similar to any problematic flags💔)
I really fucked up and lashed out at a bunch of ppl during a manic episode and I hate myself because of it. I pretty much lost my all my friends and it's my fault for pushing them away. Why do they forgive me? They still like me but I just cant bring myself to be around them anymore. I'm scared of hurting more people. I don't deserve friends because I'm out of control and dangerous. Why am I like this?
Fukase is the best Vocaloid ever.
!!!!! I NEED HELP!!!
I think I'm neurodivergent.
For background info, I'm currently diagnosed with bi-polar type 2 and I'm on both a mood stabilizer and an antidepressant.
I've noticed that I show alot of autistic traits, and I fit all the criteria for a diagnosis. And to clear things up, I'm aware that ASD isn't the only disorder that is on the neurodivergent spectrum, I just notice more prominent traits of autism in myself specifically. I struggle with social interactions and understanding what others are thinking. I often get confused with social cues and don't pick up on stuff like when it's my turn to talk, if I'm matching everyone's vibe, if someone is being sarcastic OR if I'm being clear enough when using sarcasm, when and how to make small talk, and when someone tries to end a conversation or I don't belong in a conversation and just introjected myself into it. I often get really self concious because I can't tell if I'm doing ok, especially when people start to get quiet. I'm known to get really anxious when I think I've made others uncomfortable and either frantically apologize for however I might have messed up or completely shut down and isolate myself. It's really stressful because I love people and I want to be more social, I just don't know how to interact with others in a "normal" way. I find it way more akward when I resort to copying others because it's fake and I don't understand what I'm supposed to do. Overall my lack of social skills has really taken a toll on my mental health and it hinders me in my daily life.
I also struggle to do daily tasks like eating, dressing, and doing certain chores. I know alot of my lack of energy is due to my depressive episodes but it often comes down to more than that. For example, I'm feeling great and have alot of energy and I decide to get some work done. Even though I'm hyper, I very easily get stressed out by to much noise, others trying to talk to me and throwing me off task, feeling overwhelmed when working on larger projects (I say projects but I really mean stuff like cleaning a large cluttered area, or anything that takes alot of planning and thinking with no time to prepare myself, though it can also refer to school projects or personal projects). I often get way too overwhelmed and either start crying or snap at people when I feel like they're hindering me, usually both. I also struggle to do chores like dishes because of all the different sensations I experience. I don't like the smell of the dish soap mixing with the smell of food and the texture of the grime of plates and bowls. I especially can't stand how itchy and uncomfortable the dish water is, it makes my skin crawl... I'm sometimes able to avoid this by rinsing off plates individually opposed to filling a sink with water, and avoiding dishes with a significant amount of food residue that can only be manually washed off, but I often still can't wash all the dishes on my own. Instead, I dry and put away dishes. This is just one example but I thought mentioning it specifically would help others understand what triggers me (That didn't make sense at all I'm sorry💔). My sensory issues and easy overstimulation makes it nearly impossible to get daily tasks done and has causes a lot of conflict between me and family members.
Another huge struggle for me is coping with change, this comes in many forms.it can be about a small change in my schedule and plans, being forced to adjust to a new living situation, or fluctuations in how much time I spend with friends and families. I often pester people because I feel like if I don't constantly talk to them they will slowly dissappear from my life. I get very jealous and possessive too. This has spoiled many friendships and relationships since my clingyness is really bad and I struggle to control it.
Finally, I struggle with emotional regulation. I feel emotions alot more intense than most people. I get super excited about my interests and can hyper focus on stuff I'm currently intrigued by which stops me from thinking about anything else. When I have a string opinion I voice it loudly and don't know when to stop. I think the most troubling struggle is that I get upset very easily and I can't let go and calm down right away and end up staying upset for a while after. I work with my therapist on emotional regulation and alot of the other stuff I mentioned I struggle with earlier but I feel like I haven't improved alot on this specifically.
I feel trapped. I know I'm different. I compare my actions to other people actions and I can see a clear difference, I just don't understand why I behave this way when I know it isn't normal. I want to reach out and be more involved with others but I end up just staying in my room because I dont know how to interact with them. I feel so alone. I don't feel in control of my body and mind and I'm so depressed and drained. Am I valid? I of course plan to discuss how I'm feeling with a medical professional since people on the internet aren't the most reliable source but I would still appreciate your input.
(My apologies if this isn't well written, I'm better at speaking out loud)
I hate myself vro😭
Nobody will ever see me as a boy when I'm chubby have long hair and am a C-cup:(
I just wanna be a silly little twink femboy, is that too much to ask for:(
I do NOT feel sigma rn
I'm currently in the hospital and bored so blah, random shitpost:3
How does Tumblr censorship work.....
Tell me why I just saw a femboys BARE ASS. And I mean completely bare, no shorts, no underwear, bare ass.😭
Help I found the original writing for my omori au I started making a year ago that I never finished😭 There are 3 parts, I'm scared....
Should I finish writing?
OML THE WRITING IS SO ASS MY EYESSSSSS😭😭😭😭😭
Help I found the original writing for my omori au I started making a year ago that I never finished😭 There are 3 parts, I'm scared....
Should I finish writing?