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it’s definitely been awhile since i’ve written anything here and it’s been a whole fuck ton of shit happening in my life since … damn idk … like even just a year ago??

i made the big girl decision to go back to school. idk it was always something about my manic episodes and crippling anxiety about flunking out of uní that just really did the trick in keeping me the fuck away from registration. it was constant register, go for two weeks, cripple at pressure, stop going and repeat for 1 1/2 yrs and i literally couldn’t keep doing it to myself, i took a hiatus………again… but I feel like i’m in a totally different head space with seriously good support so i think i’m ready to go back and get started with the degree i know i’m gonna use….. BSW to become LCSW in the long run…. damn hella official

things look bright from here, it’s a very steady growth process but fuck i’d be doing myself a disservice if i didn’t recognize my speck of growth… i can’t wait to get my life where i want it :)

[fukdaisies]

I’ve come to accept that yeah… I’ve said things I didn’t know I didn’t mean, a lot… but I don’t think there’s anything wrong with it.

Normally, when people post something and they know they’re wrong about it months later, they delete posts/pictures. I, on the other hand, decided to not bc I look back on all my venting posts and thank myself for single-handedly and in purposefully maintaining a log of all emotions, thoughts, and memories I have from my past. That’s how I cope and learn and deal with things, my therapist made me see that it’s actually healthy to do.

[fukdaisies]

found the perfect one.

loves the same musical artists, dark humor, perfect smile, patient, thoughtful, communicative, understanding, rbf, similar long term goals…

just for them to tell me they aren’t sure if they’ll ever be able to love me

life… you sick, twisted, raggedy ass bitch.

[fukdaisies]

lmao whenever life wants to stop being fucking cruel to my ass I’ll be here….. … …. waiting…..

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Glass Lilac, Daffodil, and Magnolia Blossoms Thrive Underground at New York City’s 28th Street Subway Station

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5 Questions: 1. First Love, How was it? 2. Worst Love, How was it? 3. Goals for 2022? 4. How you see yourself in 10 years? 5. Which state would you live in and don’t choose Cali?

1. First love: It was the most innocent form of love I’ll ever know. It was long-term friend turned boyfriend back in high school and he really showed me what it was like to be loved by someone in a healthy way.

2. Worst love: My ex of 3 years. I lived with him for majority of that time and he was extremely toxic. He cheated on me relentlessly throughout, emotionally abused me, manipulative, and refused all help. I loved him literally until I couldn’t anymore. That relationship had no business being that long.

3. Goals for 2022: Get mentally healthy. Learn to love myself again. Find my calling in life.

4. Myself in 10 years? No clue. I hope I’m alive and thriving in whatever it is that makes my heart happy and fulfills my soul.

5. What state would I live in? Colorado or New York. No real reason other than all the shit I could see and experience. (Tell me why not Cali? And why you think that would be my first option? You must know me lol)