Hell Blog Again

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Drinking tonight app wasn't good idea just listening 2 o superman again n again angian im bleeding again

I m so fucking tired

I'm so SCARED

breaking up w u was a bad idea I used dto besafe idk what I am anymore

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Miss the rain sm ??? Wild

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Oooooopslololololollll sliceyyyy again !!!! It just feels so fucking good???? Smth wrong w me me me ?????? Hi !nnnn I'm not home right. No w !!

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We broke up we broke up we broke up

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Everyone here pisses me the fuck offfffffff

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Pisses me off how many times we have to have this conversation

Its so frustrating to go on in these circles and by god it feels so controlling

I've never given you a reason to not trust me until you started fucking snoopingthru my phone hello ???? How can I trust YOU everything in a relationship is based on trust what more do you fucking want from me h u h

You wouldn't feel comfortable me going up there and also bringing up the clubbing thing again nnn god and I said I wanted to go with someone else TOO so what the fuck do you want me to do

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Pisses me off how many times we have to have this conversation

Its so frustrating to go on in these circles and by god it feels so controlling

I've never given you a reason to not trust me until you started fucking snoopingthru my phone hello ???? How can I trust YOU everything in a relationship is based on trust what more do you fucking want from me h u h

You wouldn't feel comfortable me going up there and also bringing up the clubbing thing again nnn god and I said I wanted to go with someone else TOO so what the fuck do you want me to do

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I did get my sertralin increased and now I have2 months worth a. D I desperately want to take them all at once heheheheheh lol

I wanna cut so fucking bad lo l lmao kms

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can my thoughts leave me alone for five minutes

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Back to never fucking feeling good enough ever ever ever

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Newsflash fucking sick of feeling like this ALL THE TIME

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Fuck it lmao

Guess we r back in this hell hole and you WONDER why I don't tell u shit

Bcs when I say oh I was lying there feeling sad ur fiRST REACTION IS "WELL I DIDNT KNOW YOU WERE SAD" what the fuck I KNOW YOU DIDNT

I can't tell u shit

You act all like you hate people to walk on eggshells around u u gotta stop fuckin reacting like that lmaoooooo

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Mentally things feel better most of the time though.

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I'm so scared rn of everything the future is atm and I wish I could sort out all these feelings bcs I haven't got a clue what I want or where I stand.

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Hahahah :)

Fucking hell

Love being ignored 👍👍👍👍👍it's not really funny anymore is it

I want out of here so so bad and it's not even your fault

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