cynicslalaland

29 pan they/them I'm a writer, an engineer, and an activist. And yes I have a lot on my mind.

[fullyfunctioningtrainwreck]

"I'M KACCHAN BAKUGO"

That's the best line I'm sorry I don't make the rules

[fullyfunctioningtrainwreck]

Oh when y'all said Palia can get spicy y'all meant the Canon is actually spicy 👀 . Also let me find out the game lets you be a homewrecker 😂. Messy

[fullyfunctioningtrainwreck]

Your daily reminder that fetishizing someone for their race isn't an act of anti-racism. It just makes you a ✨️predatory racist✨️.

[oneclickangel]

reblog if you're corny and insufferable

[kaffeepottwal]

[fullyfunctioningtrainwreck]

Aren't those the same?

[saturn-s-ghost]

I have no outline tho, just vibes

[uzumaki-rebellion]

This a read down to the bone.

[fullyfunctioningtrainwreck]

Me correcting someone on social media: I'm not a woman. I'm non-binary.

Some man that is now feeling insecure about his sexuality sliding in my dms: Hi sexy I saw your post in -redacted-, can I ask you a question?

[treecitysessions]

[fullyfunctioningtrainwreck]

So I've been doing some reading and thinking. In the last year I've made a couple different nostalgia buys. And today I was looking a little more into how buying toys can heal your inner child because originally I thought it would have to apply to specific situations. But the more I read into it I see how it works differently for different people.

For me most of what I bought are things I had as a kid and had really good memories of. I'm not going to go deep into my childhood trauma, just know that I have CPTSD and severe GAD. So for me, after being in therapy for awhile I've been getting more comfortable thinking and talking about the happier times growing up.

It didn't occur to me until now though, in my case, the healing comes in in feeling secure when having something that I want and even love without having to worry about it being stolen from me. I haven't had that feeling in a long time, even when I first moved out on my own. Everything to me for the longest time has felt temporary, and I felt safer in feeling that way and not letting myself become attached to things.

Being able to buy things that bring me joy and not worry about hiding them or keeping myself from liking them too much. That's how I'm healing my inner child.

[sapphicstoria]

I’m okay with Kitty and Minho being together, temporarily, bc I still think Kitty and Yuri will end up together in season three, but a lot of people who like them are so annoying and are now starting with the “why is Kitty attracted to women” and im gonna need those ppl stop stfu. Not saying it’s a fandom thing, but there were people who said the same thing during season one, and it infuriated me. Let bi girls exist in peace!!!

[fullyfunctioningtrainwreck]

This! I love Yuri and Kitty and have been rooting for them since halfway through season 1. I also think Kitty and MinHo had a lot of chemistry this season and was surprisingly happy with where things are going for them. If Netflix can successfully write a Bi character and Queer relationships without pulling the "choose a gender and stick with it" crap then why can't everyone else learn.

[dailyflicks]

XO KITTY (2023-) 2.03 | New Year's Kiss

[fullyfunctioningtrainwreck]

The way this scene had me going from crying to squealing 😭

[xokittydaily]

netflixfamily: seeing anna cathcart grow up has been wonderful ✨️🥹

[winnie-the-monster]

[fullyfunctioningtrainwreck]

"One more episode"d my way all the way through season 2 of XO Kitty. I regret nothing 🥹❤️

[fullyfunctioningtrainwreck]

If "I always wanted a brother" didn't both make you happy but also break your heart knowing what Scar's going to do one day I don't know what to tell you.

[fullyfunctioningtrainwreck]

See I can never think of a toy for my inner child. My inner child didn't need a toy it needed a plane ticket and new identity

[fullyfunctioningtrainwreck]

I think I'm officially sad enough to start writing fics consistently again. In full seriousness meds aren't doing the best work at the moment but that's partially due to the situation I'm in. Nobody panic. Still seeing a therapist and psychiatrist regularly. I haven't felt much like drawing, or I have but I also can't bring myself to. It's like that with a lot of things lately.

I've had various job offers all require moving and I can't say the idea of moving far away is unappealing right now. My therapist assures me that I'm smart enough and have the right tools and support to not make the same mistakes twice but I can't help feeling like I'm about to have a repeat performance. Just the thought sounds...exhausting. Maybe its my anxiety talking. Maybe socratic thinking would help like it usually does. Or maybe this times the results won't be calming.